BLOOD RED ROSES.

Song of the day;; → Athlete - Hurricane All the places we grew up with Playing hide and seek Disappearing while we all sleep Is it something we gotta get used to? Is it something we gotta get used to? Oh, hurricane Oh, hurricane All the millions that we marched with It never made a sound Never made a sound on your lips Is it something we gotta get used to? But we're not giving up the coastline so easily Oh, hurricane Oh, hurricane I don't wanna run I've been here since I was young What we see today Could be gone within the hour Oh, hurricane, what you gonna do to us this time? Oh, hurricane, what you gonna do to us this time? Oh, hurricane Is it something we gotta get used to? Is it something we gotta get used to? And it's something we gotta get used to But we're not giving up the coastline so easily Oh, hurricane -- So, I haven't been posting for, what, five days? Sor

Song of the day;; → Nickelback - Savin' Me Prison gates won't open up for me On these hands and knees I'm crawling Oh, I reach for you Well, I'm terrified of these four walls There iron bars can't hold my soul in All I need is you Come, please, I'm calling And oh, I scream for you Hurry, I'm falling, I'm falling Show me what it's like To be the last one standing And teach me wrong from right And I'll show you what I can be And say it for me, say it to me And I'll leave this life behind Say it if it's worth saving me Heaven's gates won't open up for me With these broken wings I'm falling And all I see is you These city walls ain't got no love for me I'm on the edge of the eighteenth story And oh, I scream for you Come, please, I'm calling And all I need from you Hurry, I'm falling, I'm falling Show me what it's like To

Song of the day;; → Apparat - Black Water Shapes still melt into the smoke Looking down at scattered bones I used to keep a slender hope 'Til they spread above the stone 'Til they spread above the stone I pulled the trigger by mistake Floundering at the aftermath Slowly recognise the scale We will be ephemeral We will be ephemeral Fact isn't what you see Not anymore, what it used to be Fact isn't what you see Not what it used to be I'm flowing in black water To another surging sea To another surging sea -- Long story short, this weekend has been utter, complete shit. My sister is ill with stomach flu and after spending the most of yesterday evening and last night listening to her coughing and retching in the loo, I ended up sleeping for about 3,5 hours. Not to mention the shaky sweaty hands and the beating heart... I absolutely do not know which one I hate more; the flu season or my emetophobia. I just

Song of the day;; → Athlete - The Outsiders We can walk in straight lines We can't see quite right We've lost the plot And we can't get it back So let's lose ourselves Let's lose ourselves Can you spot the English here? Let's pick a fight on whomever we like 'Cause we're never wrong Nobody likes us We don't care So let's lose ourselves Let's lose ourselves Can you spot the English here? We can see it for real But it doesn't make sense We're the outsiders We can see all this speech Come staggering out And we can climb its way To the top of that cloud I'm away with the fairies now [x4] This familiar environment Gets my lungs confused I breathe in every particle That you drive through That you drive through Well, can you spot the English here? We can see it for real But it doesn't make sense We're the outsiders We can see

Song of the day;; → Athlete - Airport Disco Just a blur of red and yellow Lovers dancing to the beat I saw you at the centre of it all The most beautiful thing Oh, I want to take you home with me tonight I want to take you home with me tonight Some are here to remember Some are here to forget That we used you for nothing And we couldn't care less Oh, beautiful world Can I win you back? Beautiful world Have you figured it out yet? Have you figured it out yet? So why don't you share it with us? Just a blur of red and yellow That everyone chose to ignore We all sucked that beauty from you And kept coming back for more Oh, beautiful world Can I win you back? Beautiful world Have you figured it out yet? Have you figured it out yet? So why don't you share it with us? Oh, beautiful world Can I win you back? Beautiful world Have you figured it out yet? Have you figured it out

Song of the day;; → Maps - Lost My Soul Yeah, the summer count can come Brings you sounds you thought were gone And you can try to search around And you can try to cut it down I found it all but I lost my soul Everything you hold can come The words, they seem to roll as one And you can try to search around And you can try to cut it down You never really knew for sure That breeze can come before you fall I found it all but I lost my soul

Song of the day;; → Maps - Liquid Sugar See how things will change The light across your face Born in yesterday Now I can't create In everything I know The liquid sugar flows Straight out through my soul If everything I know Is possibly controlled If there's a way, let's go You're a city girl We're a tough up boy Some pretty message Now I can't create In everything I know The liquid sugar flows Straight out through my soul If everything I know Is possibly controlled If this is it, let's go

Song of the day;; → Maps - Glory Verse I heard that now you're callin' Left it all behind this mornin' With those blocks, the ones that see you through Like all the times before You made sure that they saw you But now you're gonna see this through When you look down You know you'll see this glory verse What you found You'll tend to me as glory verse This world could get you closer To what you need the most You'll find this chemistry could move These sounds will never leave you Will be there to receive you These sounds, they seem to write themselves When you look down You know you'll see this glory verse What you found You'll tend to me as glory verse Before you leave from here Before you leave from here Here is really just a matter of time Before it happens, yeah

Song of the day;; → Keane - Atlantic I hope all my days will be lit by your face I hope all the years will hold tight our promises I don't want to be old and sleep alone An empty house is not a home I don't want to be old and feel afraid I don't want to be old and sleep alone An empty house is not a home I don't want to be old and feel afraid And if I need anything at all I need a place that's hidden in the deep Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep Though all the world is broken I need a place where I can make my bed A lover's lap where I can lay my head 'Cause now the room is spinning The day's beginning

Song of the day;; → Razorlight - Back to the Start Back to the start Back to the start again I'll go Back to the start Back to the start again And I don't know why I feel this way But I couldn't stay here for One more day I go back to the start Before I lose my mind Mary got the message It was Monday morning Five o'clock Well, she put it in her pocket, yeah Calling for the boys But the boys don't stop I walk into the bedroom You could say yes You could say no I could take it easy If you can take me Back to the start Lonely day at the railway station You go to London You leave me here to test my patience I don't know why I feel this way But I couldn't stay here For one more day I go back to the start Before I lose my mind Back to the, back to the Back to the start Back to the, back to the Back to the s-s-still I don't know why I feel this w

Song of the day;; → Falling in Reverse - Guillotine IV (The Final Chapter) My heart is on fire again From the depths of hell, it swallows me in The demons are all in my head Pulling me in, pulling me in Here I go Sinking below, sinking below All I know Is fading away, fading away from me now This can't be happening I've watched my whole world fall apart So long, farewell, to the best of me It's so far away 'Cause I'm my own worst enemy And it's so hard to say There's no way out And you are way too late Say goodbye to the rest of me Bound, by the demons, they doubt me My whole world around me is drowning And the demons I hate Are the monsters I always create My heart is on fire again From the depths of hell, it swallows me in The demons are all in my head Pulling me in, pulling me in This can't be happening I've watched my whole world fall apart So long, farewe

I've been off meds for a week or two now. I don't feel any different, but... Maybe it's all in my head. Maybe it's all in my fucking useless, mental, quilt-ridden head. I don't know what to do with myself. Then again, I never have. I've never been happy with myself, at least not for as long as I can remember. I've always resented myself. For everything I am, everything I have done and everything I do and say. It's hard to be around people. It's hard to talk to them. It's hard to look at them while knowing just how much you hate yourself. But the problem isn't that. No, the problem is my inability to let the fuck go. I can't do that. It hurts me so goddamn much to dwell in the past which sure as hell wasn't sugar and rainbows, but I can't let go. No matter how much it hurts, it's... safe. Yeah, it's safe. I am not entirely sure whether I'm here because only I want to, but I am sure that I've been left behind.

Song of the day;; → Santa Cruz - Wasted & Wounded Can you hear the call For the wasted and wounded? Tore myself 'till I'm up from the ground My face's like a shadow that's been running around Face down in the mud, you'll still be screaming I don't give a fuck, and I'll be singing Can you hear the call For the wasted and wounded? I'll be standing tall 'till I'm jaded and grounded again Wasted and wounded 6 am, first rays in the sky Exposing all the havoc in the blink of an eye Face down in the mud, you'll still be screaming We don't give a fuck, and I'll be singing Can you hear the call For the wasted and wounded? I'll be standing tall 'till I'm jaded and grounded again Wasted and wounded Decay, decay, decay is what we reach for Today, to die, no white flags, hang 'em high Decay, decay, decay is what we live for Hurray, hurray, no one will save

Song of the day;; → Santa Cruz - My Remedy I'm broken, shattered and torn apart I've ran, ran, ran and still I'm lost in the dark I was looking for remedy, tasted insanity Fell in this tragedy Bombs and bullets won't work for me 'Cause I'm already as dead as a man can be Power's a drug and we're all ruled by addicts Who are searching their final fix Hear my voice when I shout it out loud I need to flee, baby set me free Hear my voice when I shout it out loud I need to flee, baby set me free Give me serenity, my remedy Hear my voice when I shout it out loud I need to flee, baby set me free Give me serenity, my remedy Somebody's saved by the bell They call him a saint, ''It's a miracle'' Fuck that, I sure ain't seeking for ecstasy Guided by heresy, your own worst enemy Hear my voice when I shout it out loud I need to flee, baby set me free Hear my voic

Song of the day;; → The Killers - Shadowplay To the centre of the city where all roads meet, waiting for you To the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank, searching for you I was moving through the silence without motion, waiting for you In a room without a window in the corner I found truth In the shadowplay acting out your own death, knowing no more As the assassins all grouped in four lines, dancing on the floor And with cold steel, odour on their bodies made a move to connect I could only stare in disbelief as the crowds all left I did everything, everything I wanted to I let them use you for their own ends To the centre of the city in the night, waiting for you To the centre of the city in the night, waiting for you -- This is the 400th post here, so let's raise a toast to that, shall we?

Song of the day;; → Editors - Well Worn Hand Wake up, my love Today I heard some bad news Just what are we all supposed to do? I won't let them get to you I don't want to go out on my own anymore I can't face the night like I used to before Take my well worn hand Let's lock ourselves away We'll never, ever step outside We'll curl up in a ball and hide I don't want to go out on my own anymore I can't face the night like I used to before I don't want to go out on my own anymore I can't face the night like I used to before I'm so sorry for the things that they've done I'm so sorry about what we've all become

Song of the day;; → Radiohead - Jigsaw Falling Into Place Just as you take my hand Just as you write my number down Just as the drinks arrive Just as they play your favourite song As your bad day disappears No longer wound up like a spring Before you've had too much Come back in focus again The walls are bending shape You got a Cheshire cat grin All blurring into one This place is on a mission Before the night owl Before the animal noises Closed circuit cameras Before you comatose Before you run away from me Before you're lost between the notes The beat goes round and round The beat goes round and round I never really got there I just pretended that I had Words are blunt instruments Words are a sawn off shotguns Come on and let it out [x4] Before you run away from me Before you're lost between the notes Just as you take the mic Just as you dance, dance, dance Jigsaw falling i

Song of the day;; → The Hoosiers - A Sadness Runs Through Him People are puppets held together with string There's a beautiful sadness that runs through him As he asks me to pray to the god he doesn't believe in Time and again boys are raised to be men Impatient they start, fearful they end But here was a man mourning tomorrow He drank, but finally drowned in his sorrow Oh, he could not break surface tension He looked in the wrong place for redemption And don't look at me with those eyes I tried to anaesthetise Turn back the time that drew him But he couldn't be saved A sadness runs through him, through him Time and a again boys are raised to be men Impatient they start, fearful they end But here was a man mourning tomorrow Who drank, but finally drowned in his sorrow Oh, he could not break surface tension He looked in the wrong place for redemption And don't look at me with those eyes I tried to a

Song of the day;; → Athlete - If I Found Out Out of energy I don't know what to do with myself Made it eventually And now I'm resting on the very last breath And all I needed was this one To get me back on my way It wasn't long before I realised There was no time to waste There was soul all around me Everybody let go It wasn't long before we realised There was no time to waste Like I'm eleven again I was the highest kid in the world I reached a point with no ed Just looking out so I can take it all in And all I needed was this one To get me back on my way It wasn't long before I realised There was no time to waste There was soul all around me Everybody let go It wasn't long before we realised There was no time to waste And all I needed was this one To get me back on my way It wasn't long before I realised There was no time to waste I thank you for soul No poi

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - Terrific Speech -- I want to succeed.

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - Black Spider

Song of the day;; → Scouting for Girls - She's So Lovely I love the way she fills her clothes She looks just like them girls in vogue I love the way she plays it cool I think that she is beautiful She's so lovely She's so lovely She's so lovely She's so lovely [x2] She's pretty, a fittie She's got a boyfriend though and that's a pity She's flirty. turned thirty Ain't that the age a girl gets really dirty? I don't know, I don't know I don't know How we'll make it through this I don't know, I don't know I don't know I love the way she bites her lip I love the way she shakes them hips I love the way she makes me drool I think that she is beautiful She's so lovely She's so lovely She's so lovely She's so lovely [x2] A stunner, I wonder Was she this fit when she was 10 years younger? Come see me discreetly She says she

Song of the day;; → Editors - Push Your Head Towards the Air If I lay face down on the  ground Would you walk all over me? Have we learnt what we set our to learn? Well then, love, we will see Now, don't drown in your tears, babe Push your head towards the air Now, don't drown in your tears, babe I will always be there When you fall and you can't find your way Push a hand up to the sky I will run just to, to be by your side Don't you even bat an eye Now, don't drown in your tears, babe Push your head towards the air Now, don't drown in your tears, babe I will always be there But I will tear the price from your head And keep you from harm, that's what you said There's people climbing out of their cars Lining the roadside, try to glimpse at the dead Now, don't drown in your tears, babe Push your head towards the air Now, don't drown in your tears, babe I will always be the

Song of the day;; → Athlete - In the Library Put your finger on my lips We could be a grown up fairy tale Swimming in the library We're not going anywhere She said I love it Oh, I love it when we touch When we touch on something We can't find in any book At least I'm not on my own In this ocean of words At least I'm not on my own Cover up with blankets Cover up with blankets from the years That our parents gave us To keep out the cold and the unknown Then the library grew Into a forest of desire Cut down some friends that I knew Who were gonna start a forest fire At least I'm not on my own In this ocean of words At least I'm not on my own At least I'm not on my own In this ocean of words At least I'm not on my own She said I love it Oh, I love it when we touch When we touch on something We can't find in any book -- Exams finally done.

Song of the day;; → The Script - Breakeven I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heat breaks, no, it don't break even Her best days were some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake, she has no trouble sleeping 'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you? And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding 'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you? And what am