keskiviikko 22. huhtikuuta 2026

Hourglass

 Song of the day;;

→ Toto Cutugno - Soli


E' inutile suonare, qui non vi aprirà nessuno

Il mondo l'abbiam chiuso fuori con il suo casino

Una bugia coi tuoi

Il frigo pieno e poi

Un calcio alla TV

Solo io, solo tu


E' inutile chiamare, non risponderà nessiuno

Il telefono è volato fuori giù dal quarto piano

Era importante sai

Pensare un poco a noi

Non stiamo insieme mai

Ora si, ora qui


Soli

La pelle come un vestito

Soli

Nel cuore guarda chi c'è: io e te

Soli

Le briciole nel letto

Soli

Ma stretti un pò di più

Solo io, solo tu


Il mondo dietro ai vetri sembra un film senza sonoro

E il tuo pudore amando rende il corpo tuo più vero

Sei bella quando vuoi

Bambina, donna e poi

Non mi deludi mai

È così che mi vai


Soli

Lasciando la luce accesa

Soli

Mangiando un panino in due, io e te

Soli

Col tempo che si è fermato

Soli

Però finalmente noi

È di più cosa vuoi


Na, na, na


Soli

Lasciando la luce accesa

Soli

Mangiando un panino in due, io e te

--

Oli tänään vähän tylsää, joten kävin ex tempore-reissulla Ideaparkissa. Ostin muutamia kesärytkyjä sekä korvakoruja. Ja sukat. En tiedä muistinko mainita (en varmaan, löyhäpäinen kun olen), mutta mulla ei nyt pariin viikkoon ole terapiaa, kun terapeutti on lomalla. Tuntuu vähän oudolta, mutta toisaalta ehkä itellekin tekee ihan hyvää olla vähän aikaa käsittelemättä mitään. Ja sitten faktaan numero 18: mä en ole koskaan käyttänyt netissä oikeaa nimeäni, vaan aina jotain nimimerkkiä tai vastaavaa.

tiistai 21. huhtikuuta 2026

Destiny broken

 Song of the day;;

→ Yoav - Where Is My Mind?


With your feet in the air and your head on the ground

Try this trick: spin it, yeah

Your head will collapse, but there's nothing in

And you ask yourself


Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?


I was swimmin' in the Caribbean

Animals were hiding behind the rocks

Except the little fish, but they told me

He swears tryin' to talk to me, to me


Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Way out in the water, see it swimming

Where is my mind?

Way out in the water, see it swimming

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?


With your feet in the air and your head on the ground

Try this trick: spin it, yeah

Your head will collapse, but there's nothing in

And you ask yourself


Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind? (Way out in the water, see it swimming)

(Where is my mind?) Where is my mind?


Where is my mind?

Where is my mind?

Where is my mind? (Way out in the water, see it swimming)

(Where is my mind?) Where is my mind?


With your feet in the air and your head on the ground

Yeah

--

Kuukausi ilman Runttia. Ikävä on edelleen ihan yhtä kova ja repivä kuin alussa. Äiti soitti tänään ja sanoi, että ne on isän kanssa tulossa evakkoon tänne ens viikonloppuna, kun joku sukulainen oli kutsunut ne jonkun toisen sukulaisen hautajaisiin, eikä ne halua mennä, kun eivät ole olleet yhteyksissä kyseisiin sukulaisiin viime vuosina ollenkaan. Sanoin, että tervetuloa vaan, tänne saa aina tulla. Kiva nähdä porukoita. Fakta numero 18: mä käytän sosiaalisista medioista lähinnä Instaa, Tumblria, X:ää sekä Redditiä. Ja Jodelia. Vaikka se onkin aivan saatanan toksinen paikka.

maanantai 20. huhtikuuta 2026

The lake

 Song of the day;;

→ Normandie - White Flag


This is hell, ashes of a fantasy

We were chasing down a dream

But now I'm waving a white flag

So, will you let it rest in peace? Let it be

Just a fading melody in your head

'Cause I am waving a white flag


I am better without you

Without you


So, I'm breaking up my heart in two

Getting rid of every part of you

We are standing in a burning field of clover

I'm breaking up my heart in two

Let it wither into déjà vu

I'll be hiding in the storm until it's over

Without you


This is hell, product of your apathy

Losing sight of what is real

But now I'm waving a white flag

So, will you let it rest it peace? Let it be

Just a fading memory in your head

'Cause I am waving a white flag


So, I'm breaking up my heart in two

Getting rid of every part of you

We are standing in a burning field of clover

I'm breaking up my heart in two

Let it wither into déjà vu

I'll be hiding in the storm until it's over

Without you


When it's over, it is over, put a rest to it, put a rest to it

When it's over, it is over, put a rest to it, put a rest to it

When it's over, it is over, put a rest to it, put a rest to it

When it's over, it is over, it is over

So, I'm breaking up my heart in two

Getting rid of every part of you

We are standing in a burning field of clover


(Without you)

(Without you)


So, I'm breaking up my heart in two

Getting rid of every part of you

We are standing in a burning field of clover

I'm breaking up my heart in two

Let it wither into déjà vu

I'll be hiding in the storm until it's over

Without you

--

Fakta numero 17: mulla on aikoinani ollut monen monta julkkisihastusta (kenellä ei), mut ehkä kaikista suurin on ollut Lana Parrilla. Etenkin Reginana OUAT:issa. Ai että.

sunnuntai 19. huhtikuuta 2026

Broken staircase

 Song of the day;;

→ Halgrath - He Lead Me Through the Dark Caverns

--

Fakta numero 16: olen ollut sinkku yli 15 vuotta enkä näe tämän asian lähitulevaisuudessa muuttuvan. Enkä kyllä oikeestaan juurikaan edes halua sen muuttuvan, mun on hyvä näin.

lauantai 18. huhtikuuta 2026

Shameless

 Song of the day;;

→ Slowdive - Alison


Listen close and don't be stoned

I'll be here in the morning

'Cause I'm just floating

Your cigarette still burns

Your messed-up world will thrill me

Alison, I'm lost


Alison, I said, we're sinking

There's nothing here, but that's okay

Outside your room, your sister's spinning

But she laughs, tells me she's just fine

I guess she's out there somewhere


And the sailors, they strike poses

TV covered walls answer so slowly

With your talking and your pills

Your messed-up life still thrills me

Alison, I'm lost


Alison, I'll drink your wine

I'll wear your clothes when we're both high

Alison, I said, we're sinking

But she laughs, tells me she's just fine

I guess she's out there somewhere

--

Tänään ostin uuden hevosen (SSO:ssa), kuuntelin Apocalypticaa, tein uusia simejä, pelasin Everybody's Gone to the Rapturea, pesin pyykkiä, kävin lenkillä ja juttelin porukoille. Tässä fakta numero 15: mä olen aseksuaali ja romanttisesti pidän naisista.

perjantai 17. huhtikuuta 2026

Crash & burn

 Song of the day;;

→ Olly Alexander (Years & Years) - Shine


I remember us alone

Waiting for the light to go

Don't you feel that hunger?

I've got so many secrets to show

When I saw you on that stage

I shivered with the look you gave

Don't you hear that rhythm?

Can you show me how we can escape?


Ooh, ooh

I was biting my tongue, I was trying to hide

Ooh, ooh

I'll forget what I've done, I will be redefined


It's shaking the sky

And I'm following lightning

I'll recover if you keep me alight

Don't leave me behind

Can you see me? I'm shining

And it's you that I've been waiting to find


I'm holding it all tonight

Unfolding it all tonight

You know that you make it shine

It's you that I've been waiting to find

I'm holding it all tonight

Unfolding it all tonight

You know that you make it shine

It's you that I've been waiting to find


Now that we can hear that sound

Now that you can hold me down

You can pull me under

You can raise everything to the ground

Everything I can arrange

Every part of me you change

Just hold me together

Tell me you'll always want me to stay


Ooh, ooh

I was biting my tongue, I was trying to hide

Ooh, ooh

I'll forget what I've done, I will be redefined


It's shaking the sky

And I'm following lightning

I'll recover if you keep me alight

Don't leave me behind

Can you see me? I'm shining

And it's you that I've been waiting to find


Wanna be the one you steal

I wanna be the one you shield

I wanna be the one that your love

That your love can heal

I wanna be the one you steal

I wanna be the one you shield

I wanna be the one that your love

That your love


It's shaking the sky

And I'm following lightning

I'll recover if you keep me alight

Don't leave me behind

Can you see me? I'm shining

And it's you that I've been waiting to find


I'm holding it all tonight (Tonight)

Unfolding it all tonight (Tonight)

You know that you make it shine

It's you that I've been waiting to find

I'm holding it all tonight (Tonight)

Unfolding it all tonight (Tonight)

You know that you make it shine

It's you that I've been waiting to find


Ooh, ooh (Tonight, tonight)

It's you that I've been waiting to find

Ooh, ooh (Tonight, tonight)

It's you that I've been waiting to find

--

Käytiin tänään ystävän kanssa syömässä ja kaupungilla palloilemassa. Ostin pesuainetta, koska huomenna on pyykkipäivä. Fakta numero 14 menee näin: mä harrastan videopelejä, musiikin kuuntelua, kirjottamista sekä lenkkeilyä.

torstai 16. huhtikuuta 2026

Servant

 Song of the day;;

→ Linkin Park - Papercut


Why does it feel like night today?

Something in here's not right today

Why am I so uptight today?

Paranoia's all I got left

I don't know what stressed me first

Or how the pressure was fed but

I know just what it feels like

To have a voice in the back of my head

Like a face that I hold inside

A face that awakes when I close my eyes

A face that watches every time I lie

A face that laughs every time I fall

(And watches everything)

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is hearing me

Right underneath my skin


It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin


I know I've got a face in me

Points out all my mistakes to me

You've got a face on the inside too

Your paranoia's probably worse

I don't know what set me off first

But I know what I can't stand

Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is

I can't add up to what you can but

Everybody has a face that they hold inside

A face that awakes when I close my eyes

A face that watches every time they lie

A face that laughs every time they fall

(And watches everything)

So you know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is watchin' you too

Right inside your skin


It's like I'm paranoid, lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath the skin

It's like I'm paranoid, lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin


The face inside is right beneath your skin

The face inside is right beneath your skin

The face inside is right beneath your skin


The sun goes down

I feel the light betray me

The sun goes down

I feel the light betray me


It's like I'm paranoid, lookin' over my back (The sun)

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearin' within

It's like the face inside is right beneath the skin (I feel the light betray me)

It's like I'm paranoid, lookin' over my back (The sun)

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within (I feel the light betray me)

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin (The sun)

--

Seiskaluokalla varsinkin kuuntelin Linkin Parkia tosi paljon, mutta Chester Benningtonin kuoleman jälkeen en oo oikein pystynyt kuuntelemaan niitä samalla tavalla. Vähän aikaa sitten kuuntelin nuo vanhat levyt mitkä fyysisinä kopioina omistan, ja onhan ne kovia. Etenkin Hybrid Theory, jolta tämä biisi tulee, sekä Meteora on omia suosikkeja. Tänään oli muuten terapia. Juteltiin päivärytmistä (tai lähinnä sen viimeaikaisesta puutteesta), Runtista ja terveyshuolista. Kävin sen jälkeen apteekissa ostamassa lisää rasvaa, koska atooppinen iho(ttuma)ni on päättänyt kirjaimellisesti räjähtää käsiin. Ei kun oikeasti, mun käsivarret on aivan vitun ryypätyn näköset nyt ja vituttaa lähinnä. Haluaisin saada ihon kuntoon ennen t-paita-kelejä. Tarjoilen tänään nostalgisoinnin lisäksi myös faktan numero 13: mun lempiurheilulaji on varmaankin jääkiekko, koska mähän en itse ole koskaan mitään urheilua harrastanut (ellei lenkkeilyä/kävelyä lasketa), mutta se on ainoa laji, jota mä jaksan oikeasti katsoa.

Hourglass

  Song of the day;; → Toto Cutugno - Soli E' inutile suonare, qui non vi aprirà nessuno Il mondo l'abbiam chiuso fuori con il suo ca...