Without sin

 Song of the day;;

→ Jack Wall - New Worlds

Jaws

 Song of the day;;

→ Bring Me The Horizon - Crucify Me

Crucify me and nail my hands to a wooden cross

There is nothing above, there is nothing below

Heaven and Hell live in all of us

And I've been cast astray

I am an ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

Lost in the abyss, drowned in the deep

No set of lungs could salvage me

Only a shipwreck, only a ghost

Merely a graveyard of your former self

We just watched the waves crash over

And I've been cast astray

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret

No one needs to know

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret

No one needs to know

I am an ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

Lost in the abyss, drowned in the deep

No set of lungs could salvage me

Save yourself, save your breath

The tide's too strong, you'll catch your death

So breathe for me, just breathe

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

Oh, if we make it through the night, if we make it out alive

Lord, have mercy and pray for the dead

And you say that you can save me, don't hope to ever find me

And I fear I'm too far gone, pray for the dead

Oh, if we make it through the night, if we make it out alive

Lord, have mercy and pray for the dead

And you say that you can save me, don't hope to ever find me

And I fear I'm too far gone, pray for the dead

Pray for the dead, pray for the dead

Pray for the dead, yeah

Ladies and gentlemen, can I have your full undivided attention?

There's something you all really need to know

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret

There is a Hell, believe me, I've seen it

If we make it through the night, if we make it out alive

You said that you can save me, don't hope to ever find me

And I fear I'm too far gone, pray for the dead

Oh, if we make it through the night, if we make it out alive

Lord, have mercy and pray for the dead

And you say that you can save me, don't hope to ever find me

And I fear I'm too far gone, pray for the dead

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

I am the ocean, I am the sea

There is a world inside of me

Ascension

 Song of the day;;

→ The Magnetic Fields - Papa Was a Rodeo

I like your twisted point of view, Mike

I like your questioning eyebrows

You've made it pretty clear what you like

It's only fair to tell you now

That I leave early in the morning

And I won't be back till next year

I see that kiss-me pucker forming

But maybe you should plug it with a beer, cause

Papa was a rodeo, mama was a rock 'n' roll band

I could play guitar and rope a steer before I learned to stand

Home was anywhere with diesel gas, love was a trucker's hand

Never stuck around long enough for a one night stand

Before you kiss me you should know, papa was a rodeo

The light reflecting off the mirror ball

Looks like a thousand swirling eyes

They make me think I shouldn't be here at all

You know, every minute someone dies

What are we doing in this dive bar?

How can you live in a place like this?

Why don't you just get into my car?

And I'll take you away I'll take that kiss now, but

Papa was a rodeo, mama was a rock 'n' roll band

I could play guitar and rope a steer before I learned to stand

Home was anywhere with diesel gas, love was a trucker's hand

Never stuck around long enough for a one night stand

Before you kiss me you should know, papa was a rodeo

And now it's 55 years later

We've had the romance of the century

After all these years wrestling gators

I still feel like crying when I think of what you said to me

Papa was a rodeo, mama was a rock 'n' roll band

I could play guitar and rope a steer before I learned to stand

Home was anywhere with diesel gas, love was a trucker's hand

Never stuck around long enough for a one night stand

Before you kiss me you should know

Papa was a rodeo

Ooh

What a coincidence, your papa was a rodeo

Too

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Tiedättehän Heroes-sarjan (sain just kakkoskauden katottua, ekaa kertaa sarja katsonnassa sitten sen ilmestymisen)? Siinä Micahilla on kyky käskeä teknologiaa tekemään mitä se haluaa, ja ai vittu, että mä tarvitsisin sen kyvyn. Mulla on nimittäin selkeästi kirous, joka on täysin päinvastainen; teknologia vihaa mua tuhannen palavan auringon voimalla ja välillä tuntuu, ettei mikään laite vaan toimi kunnolla mun käytössä. Ehkä sillä on osansa, että omistan lännen nopeimmat sormet ja saatan joskus kärsimättömyyspäissäni painella monia namiskoja yhtä aikaa ja yritän tehä arviolta 18 asiaa kerralla, mutta silti. En tiiä aina pitäiskö itkeä vai nauraa. Ehkä vähän molempia. Enkä siis tietenkään sano, että koko kone meni jollain ilveellä äsken tilttiin, koska menihän se.

Wait

 Song of the day;;

→ Daughter - No Care

No one asks me for dances because I only know how to flail

I always hit like I'm drowning, dead arms around him

I'd rather stand still, hold tightly to the walls

No care, no care in the world

No care, no care in the world

I don't care, I don't care anymore

I don't care, I don't care

Love you in a panic because I prefer to sit on fences

Spit-kissing on my sickbed

I'm not searching for replacements

But we are like broken instruments

Twisted up and wheezing out the wrong notes

Sleepless folks watching light grow

Through their early morning windows

I don't care, I don't care anymore

I don't care, I don't care

Oh, I'm too drunk to fight, hurling curses at your surface

Because I'm aware, because it hurts that I'm in love again

And you laugh, kiss my neck, say our arguments are insane

Fighting over the way something was said

While I'm still here like a cheap threat

No care, no care in the world

No care, no care in the world

I don't care, I don't care anymore

I don't care, I don't care

Oh, there has only been one time where we fucked

And I felt like a bad memory

Like my spine was a reminder of her

And you said that you felt sick

I was so heavy-hearted, lying silent with you afterwards

How I wanted you to promise we would only make

How I wanted you to promise we would only make

How I wanted you to promise we would only make love

But my mouth felt like I was choking, broken glass

So I just slept it off

You see, my mouth felt like it could talk the end of us

So I just slept it off, slept it off

No care, no care in the world

No care, no care in the world

I don't care, I don't care anymore

I don't care, I don't care

Ah, I'm too drunk to fight

I only wanted you to promise me we would only ever make love

But my mouth felt like I was choking, broken glass

So I just slept it off

Wanted you to promise we would only ever make

Wanted you to promise we would only ever make love

Your friendly local arsonist

 Song of the day;;

→ Turmion Kätilöt - Pyhä maa

Jalkovälisi on mammonaa

Pankkikirjasi kirkkoveneitä täynnä

Miltä nyt maistuu raha ja valta

Kun luitasi keräät lattialta?

Enkelit tyhjää ruumista valvoo

Sieluasi pikimustaa

Ja siihenkö aioit luottaa

Että maailma lisää sinunlaisia tuottaa?

Polkusi tervaat, uhraat henget

Isän, pojan, ja nyrkin nimeen

Raskaan metallin Rambona juoksen

Yli Sumatran synkän yön

Sinut rautakangella seivästän

Ja kyrvällä naamaan lyön

Minä olen Nykänen, Frederik ja Halme

Murhamies, sekä Olof Palme

Antennissa lähetys muukalaisten

Foliot hattuun ja oliot vittuun

Petturin perseessä kengän jälki

Vasikan otsassa luodin reikä

Jos kana ei muni, eikä kukko laula

Seurauksena katkeaa kaula

Menköön kaikki, lähteköön järki

Kaulaasi kutittaa veitsen kärki

Pienellä ranneliikkeellä

Ei huolet paina eläkkeellä

Jalkojemme alla on pyhä maa

Jossa elävä toisen kivittää saa

Pakkokaste, päivärukous

Itkumuurilla kyynelten putous

Raskaan metallin Rambona juoksen

Yli Sumatran synkän yön

Sinut rautakangella seivästän

Ja kyrvällä naamaan lyön

Minä olen Nykänen, Frederik ja Halme

Murhamies, sekä Olof Palme

Antennissa lähetys muukalaisten

Foliot hattuun ja oliot vittuun

Jalkojemme alla on pyhä maa

Jossa elävä toisen kivittää saa

Raskaan metallin Rambona juoksen

Yli Sumatran synkän yön

Antennissa lähetys muukalaisten

Foliot hattuun ja oliot vittuun

--

Tänään on kulunut puoli vuotta Runtin kuolemasta. Muistan lukeneeni jostain, että tässä puolen vuoden kantturoilla ensishokki alkaa väistyä, jolloin suru voi tuntua raaemmalta ja raskaammalta. Voin täysin allekirjoittaa tämän, sillä tässä parin viime viikon aikana mulla on ollut ihan käsittämättömän kova ikävä, on ollut kivuliasta olla olemassa. Tavallaan välillä on edelleen niin vaikea käsittää, että Runtti on oikeasti poissa. Joskus mä hetkeksi jopa melkein unohdan... ja sitten todellisuus iskee päin naamaa kuin vesiputous. En usko, että mä tulen koskaan lakkaamaan ikävöimästä. Mä rakastan Runttia edelleen enemmän kuin mitään muuta koskaan tässä koko maailmassa. Se oli mulle kaikki kaikessa. Mun sielunkoira. Eikä niin suuri rakkaus mene koskaan pois, se vaan muuttaa muotoaan.

Placebo

 Song of the day;;

→ Clint Mansell - ''We're Not Programs, GERTY, We're People''

A new colour

 Song of the day;;

→ sir Was - No Giving Up

All these years has been the same

Looking for ways to explain

Does it matter in the end?

No one knows, no one can tell

Always wanted more from you

And you gave all you could give

Turn the page and you will see

That we never stopped to be

I keep on writing day and night

Raise my voice for you to see

Same old same, I just don't care

Life just keeps on crashing in

No giving up, giving up

No giving up on you

No giving up, giving up

No giving up on you

Always carrying you right in

What we had was what we had

Clear blue sky, please get me high

'Cause life just passing by like that

Yeah, I had hopes for you and me

Time allows us both to see

Let it in to let it out

'Cause this life keeps on crashing in

No giving up, giving up

No giving up on you

No giving up, giving up

No giving up on you

No giving up, giving up

No giving up on you

No giving up, giving up

No giving up on you