If I ever lose my faith in you

 Song of the day;;

→ Simple Plan - Shut Up!

There you go

You're always so right

It's all a big show

It's all about you

You think you know

What everyone needs

You always take time

To criticize me

It seems like every day

I make mistakes

I just can't get it right

It's like I'm the one

You love to hate

But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

There you go

You never ask why

It's all a big lie

Whatever you do

You think you're special

But I know, and I know, and I know, and we know

That you're not

You're always there to point

Out my mistakes

And shove them in my face

It's like I'm the one

You love to hate

But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Will never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be (Don't tell me who I should be)

And don't try to tell me what's right for me

Don't tell me what I should do

I don't wanna waste my time

I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say is gonna bring me down

Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up)

Won't bring me down

Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up)

Won't bring me

Shut up, shut up, shut up

--

Ah, näitä ihania angstisien teinivuosien soundtrackeja... Kaksi kuukautta ilman rakasta Runttia tänään. Tuntuu niin pahalta. Ikävä on pohjaton. Fakta numero 42: mä olen 1000% koiraihminen. Rakastan kyllä eläimiä muutenkin, mutta koirat (ja pandat) on mun suosikkeja.

Oboro

 Song of the day;;

→ MorMor - Some Place Else

Another day like yesterday

Where it all just slips away

A change of scene, a change of pace

I'm waiting on some better days

Thought I’d left a tribal state

The moon, it kept me company

Really couldn't help myself

I'm holding on to something else

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

See them come and watch them go

Feelings which you never show

The light will fade, the time as come

But you and I aren’t the only ones

I-I had thought you better

I-I had thought you better than myself

I-I had thought you better

But I had no idea

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

--

Fakta numero 41: mä olen aina ollut PlayStation-nautiskelija enkä oo muistaakseni ees koskaan pelannut Xboxilla. Käsikonsoleista en oo koskaan välittänyt ja koneellakin pelaan ainoastaan SSO:ta ja Sims 4:sta.

Ain't afraid to die

 Song of the day;;

→ Radiohead - Creep

When you were here before

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I'm not around

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

Oh-oh, oh-oh

She's runnin' out the door

She's runnin' out

She run, run, run, run

Run

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here

--

Fakta numero 40: vaikka tykkäänkin elokuvista, oon aika huono katsomaan niitä ja katon mieluummin sarjoja, koska mulle tuottaa usein vaikeuksia keskittyä elokuviin (ellei kyseessä ole tosi hyvä leffa tai sellainen vanha comfort-suosikki, jonka olen nähny sen tuhat ja yks kertaa).

Kodou

 Song of the day;;

→ ERRA - Pull from the Ghost

From the yellow line

Waving goodbye

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

The bones of the past

Spilling over in a rare reflection

A captor seeking Stockholm

Dying alone with a ransom note

Bleeding host

What I can't find in you, I'll just

Pull from the ghost of a virtual memory

From the yellow line

Waving goodbye

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

Involuntary time zone that fate has annexed

Every second lost or gained has a presence

I traversed time on stagnant feet

Orchestrating a long defeat

Bleeding host

What I can't find in you, I'll just

Pull from the ghost of a virtual memory

And now I'm face to face

With the things that I have chased

But I'll just burn what is birthed of my history

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

I feel love

Only in reverie

I feel love

But the sensation is already memory

Stillborn upon delivery, oh

Seeds bidding for egoic auxiliary

Stillborn upon delivery

Bleeding host

What I can't find in you, I'll just

Pull from the ghost of a virtual memory

And now I'm face to face

With the things that I have chased

But I'll just burn what is birthed of my history

From the yellow line

Waving goodbye

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

--

Tänään oli terapia ja kävin sen jälkeen apteekissa ostamassa lisää rasvaa. Ulkona oli aurinkoista ja aika lämmintä. Fakta numero 39: mä en tykkää jaotella asioita feminiinisiin ja maskuliinisiin, mutta sanoisin, että itse oon aika 50/50 kumpaakin.

The final

 Song of the day;;

→ Gareth Coker - Mount Horu

--

Euroviisut oli ja meni. Eihän se voitto sieltä taaskaan napsahtanut, mutta mitäpä tuosta. En oo yllättynyt tai ees pettynyt. Vaikka toki viisuja edelleen rakastan, pakko myöntää, että kyllä mun viisuinto on vähän laimentunut tässä muutaman viime vuoden aikana (ehkä surullisenkuuluisa 2023 on se syypää?). Porukat oli tosiaan täällä viikonlopun. Perjantaina käytiin Sanginjoella retkeilemässä, oli tosi hienoja maisemia ja mukava keli, vaikka jalat tulikin kipeiksi ja tuntu oudolta olla retkeilemässä ilman Runttia. Lauantaina sitten käytiin ihmettelemässä kasvitieteellistä puutarhaa ja käytiin keskustassa kirpparilla ja syömässä. Parin viikon päästä porukat tulee sitten hakemaan mut kesäksi kotipaikalle. Ai niin, lyönpä tässä tiskiin faktan numero 38 ennen kuin unohdan: vaikka oon syntynyt aikalailla keskellä kesää, mun lempivuodenaika on talvi.

Ningen wo kaburu

 Song of the day;;

→ Whitney - Valleys (My Love)

There's got to be another way

I've been on my own all day

Pretending everything's alright

We've been drifting apart for some time

There's fire burning in the trees

Maybe life is the way it seems

I feel like I'm holding on

To a place in your heart that's long gone

My love, my love

My love, my love

I never want to fade away

Wanna turn as the seasons change

And every time you come around

Well, the days of the year just slow down

My love, my love

My love, my love

My love, my love

My love, my love

--

Niinhän sitä vaan finaaliin mentiin että hujahti. Tosin olisin kyllä ollu yllättynyt, jos ei oltais päästy. Ja parasta on se, että mun henkilökohtainen suosikkini Serbia (yllättyneet: ei kukaan kun kaikki tietää että olen metallimusiikki-enjoyer) pääsi kuin pääsikin finaaliin! Tänään oli terapia ja sen jälkeen pyörähdin hoitotarvikejakelussa hakemassa tilaamani tarvikkeet. Muuten ei mitään valittamista, mutta sato vettä, tuuli ja oli aika vilposta, että ei sillein mitenkään erityisen nautinnollista. Onneks terapiasta hoitotarvikejakeluun kävelee vaan semmoset ~20 minuuttia. Huomenna sitten porukat tulee! Tuntuu oudolta ajatella, että Runtti ei oo mukana... on ollut sitä taas tänään tosi kova ikävä. Sattuu. Fakta numero 37: tykkään paljon enemmän kylmästä kuin kuumasta säästä (vaikka en oikein kestä kumpaakaan).

Ochita koto no aru sora

 Song of the day;;

→ AC/DC - Back in Black

Back in black, I hit the sack

I've been too long, I'm glad to be back

Yes, I'm let loose from the noose

That's kept me hangin' about

I'm just a-lookin' at the sky 'cause it's gettin' me high

Forget the hearse, 'cause I'll never die

I got nine lives, cat's eyes

Abusin' every one of them and runnin' wild

'Cause I'm back

Yes, I'm back

Well, I'm back

Yes, I'm back

Well, I'm back

Back

Well, I'm back in black

Yes, I'm back in black

Oh, back in the back of a Cadillac

Number one with a bullet, I'm a power pack

Yes, I'm in a bang with a gang

They've got to catch me if they want me to hang

'Cause I'm back on the track and I'm beatin' the flak

Nobody's gonna get me on another rap

So, look at me now, I'm just a-makin' my play

Don't try to push your luck, just get outta my way

'Cause I'm back

Yes, I'm back

Well, I'm back

Yes, I'm back

Well, I'm back

Back

Well, I'm back in black

Yes, I'm back in black

Well, I'm back

Yes, I'm back

Well, I'm back

Yes, I'm back

Well, I'm back

Back

Well, I'm back in black

Yes, I'm back in black, ow

Ah, yeah

Oh, yeah

Take my love

Oh, yeah

Yeah

Ah, hey, yeah

Ooh, yeah

Well, I'm back (I'm back)

Back, well, I'm (I'm back)

Back (I'm back)

Back (I'm back)

Back (I'm back)

Back

It's back in black

Yes, I'm back in black

Outta the sack

--

Hyvää Euroviisujen ekaa semifinaalipäivää! Luotto meidän finaaliin pääsystä on kova. Fakta numero 36: mun viimeisin ostos (jos ruokaostoksia ei lasketa) oli kaksi pikkulaukkua (ja ne on niin söpöt).