TEARS FOR THE FALLEN.

  Song of the day;; → Bad Omens - Burning Out So tell me, can you keep a secret? I thought I lost myself Trying to find a hidden meaning in all the lies you'd tell When you think I've said enough, tell me and I'll bite my tongue But don't you think I won't remember Don't take it now, don't take it now, don't take it now I'm burning out, I'm burning out, I'm burning out I was lost, but now I'm found Under the lights and in the sounds So let us sing and sing it loud That we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are Who we are I thought I left the pain behind me, but when I turned around You pulled me back into the darkness and wouldn't let me out Like a diamond in the rough you didn't see for what it was And cut a hole right through the center I was lost, but now I'm found Under the lights and in the sounds So let us sing and sing it loud That we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are Yeah, we're n...

  Song of the day;; → Aphex Twin - Avril 14th -- Tänään oli terapia. Terapeutti sanoi olevansa musta tosi ylpeä, kun kerroin, että oon saanut nyt n. viikon pidettyä jotenkin normaalia muistuttavan unirytmin. Jotenkin sen unen tärkeyden muistaa sitten, kun tajuaa, miten valtava vaikutus ja merkitys sillä on. Alussa tuntu aamuisin vielä väsyneemmältä kun yleensä, mutta nyt siihen on jo alkanu tottua. Eilisen ja tän päivän menoista on vähän uupunut olo, joten kiva, että huomenna saan vaan olla ja lepäillä. Ehkä adapteri, jonka tilasin sitä varten, että voin pelata taas mun PS2:sella (koska telkkari on liian uusi ja pleikkari liian vanha), tulis huomenna niin voisin laittaa vanhat pelit tulille. Tykkään muuten tästä biisistä tosi paljon.

  Song of the day;; → Koda - The Warmth Hummingbirds And naughty words It's far beyond the walls they come Only lives beyond closed doors Would leave beneath the words they say we are And as the night begins To undress the lucky ones We have a star amongst Living beyond the sound And we will carry on As long as we understand We live among the rules we make em' And the roads we take When someone has jumped the gun I cannot trust you if you keep stepping on my back I cannot love you if you still carry on I can't begin to understand the cut With your last breath we scream my name As I was yours and cracks beneath And fear run down The scars are long There's no more warmth There nothing for me here -- Tänään oli läsnäoloryhmä. Se meni ihan kivasti, vaikka vähän jännitti mennä tällä kertaa yksin, kun viimeksi tosiaan oli terapeutti mukana. Kävin sen jälkeen ostamassa makutestiin Pepsi Max Tropicalia (koska kuten kaikki mut tuntevat tietää, mä rakastan  Pepsi Maxia). Hyvää se...

  Song of the day;; → The Growlers - When You Were Made No, they're not in love anymore They are stuck and afraid Don't worry, babe Don't get too down on yourself They were in love when you were made His old boots finally wore out And the fire in his belly faded Her supple breast sadly sagged As her tender heart grew jaded A life of love is a long time When you know that it's only one time You were the reason they stuck around But you're old enough now Don't worry, babe Not till you've been there too, will your world be less cruel The cold truth finally seeps out Until your memory is saturated Your fragile smile loses teeth and Your sparkling eyes grew faded A life of love is a long time When you know that it's only one time The good is not so hard to forget Though it seems far away Don't worry, babe, don't get too down on yourself They were in love when you were made A life of love is a long time When you know that it's only one time A life ...

  Song of the day;; → Bad Omens - Reprise (The Sound of the End) I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again I guess you never really know yourself Because I've never been the kind to ask for help I'm begging for this, I'm begging for this Alleviation from all of the ugly shit Wake me up (wake me up) Wake me up (wake me up) There's a thousand voices in my head I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck To put them all to rest I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again There's a thousand voices in my head I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck To put them all to rest I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again Yeah, come on I feel the filth, yeah, the dirt on my skin Everyone can see it, and they know where I've been God as my witness, the Devil as my friend I swear that this is the sound of the end Now I'm swallowed by sin This is the sound of the end Now I'm swallowed by sin This is the sound of the Thousand voices in my head I j...

  Song of the day;; → Nils Frahm - Them -- Tänään oli kiva päivä. Kävin kirjastossa ja vein sen jälkeen itteni Rossoon syömään. Toki illalla me hävittiin jääkiekossa, mutta se oli Kanadaa vastaan, joten ymmärrän. Ehkä sitten huomenna pronssipelissä käy paremmin (en tiiä onko tullu ikänä mainittua, mut jääkiekko on ainoa urheilulaji, jota mä jaksan kattoa ja siitäkin vaan Suomen pelejä isoissa kisoissa). Näin viime yönä tosi kamalaa ja ahistavaa unta. Heräsin itkien ja sellanen todella vahva ahistuksen puristus rinnassa. Oli hankala hengittää. Ilmeisesti se hittas jotenkin extrakovaa, kun nukahdin sen jälkeen vielä ja seuraavassa unessa kerroin jollekulle tästä edellisestä unesta. En muista oikein muuta siitä kuin sen, että Runtti oli tosi vanha ja väsynyt ja mä sanoin sille että ''hei vauva, kohta saat levätä''. Kuvastaa kyllä erinomaisesti sitä valtavaa pelkoa Runtin menettämisestä mikä mulla on. Etenkin kun tiedän, että se tapahtuu ennemmin kuin myöhemmin. Mä olen jos...