Stockholm syndrome

 Song of the day;;

→ My Favourite Nemesis - Wake

I was drowning in shame

My mind filled with regret

Drowning in hate, what would I leave behind?

(Leave behind)

All my dreams shattered before my wake

All I wanted to

All I wanted was to

Rewind

All I wanted was to rewind

The hardest part of starting over

Is to stop and rewind

And now I feel the lie

I drop to my knees

Like I have done many times before

I'll try and I'll try

But I can't be more

(Can't be more)

Waste away like I did before

The cold, it seeps to my bones

(To my bones)

How much life can you find in a rotten core?

In a rotten core

The hardest part of starting over

Is to stop and rewind

And now I feel the lie

Trying to keep this in me

But the harder I try

The more I leave behind

Feel the

Lie

It's all I wanted

Maybe more?

Now my mind's like

Skin and bone

The memories come back

As the heavens fall

I'm wasting away

Like I did before

And the hardest part of starting over

Is to

Stop and rewind

Bad idea

 Song of the day;;

→ Trevor Morris - Wallachia 1455

Chaos

 Song of the day;;

→ The Orwells - They Put a Body in the Bayou

They never came to town

He really gets me down

Take off that plastic crown

Coke nose and a pretty sound

Alright make it quick

Good songs make you rich

That feelin' it'll pass

Good boys come in last

Bad girl by my side

Poppin' pills on the fly

Cold grave when I die

I came by to see you

I just had to know

Who put the body in the bayou

Who left the tracks on the road

Told me act your age

That's why she's underage

Said her papa hates the Federales and

When he drinks too much he smacks her face

Alright make it quick

Good songs make you rich

That feelin' it'll pass

Good boys come in last

Bad girl by my side

Poppin' pills on the fly

Cold grave when I die

I came by to see you

I just had to know

Who put the body in the bayou

Who left the tracks on the road

I came by to see you

I just had to know

Who put the body in the bayou

Who left the tracks on the road

Make believe

 Song of the day;;

→ Ralf Wengenmayr - We Keep in Touch, Okay?

Neurotic

 Song of the day;;

→ Apocalyptica & Gavin Rossdale - End of Me

Rosaries left under the mattress

All those memories who could bear the witness

As you slip into oblivion, use it like a weapon

Am I left to bleed waiting for the moment when you've had your fun?

A loaded gun

Take away your broken misery, I can't always erase your memory

This love, this love is gonna be the end of me

Everything I gave is wasted, I'm the one who's suffocated

This love, this love is gonna be the end of

Can't resist poisoning the message

Just a narcissist trapped inside the wreckage

And the sympathy I had is gone, deadened by the ceremony

Drama queen, stand behind your rampart as your kingdom falls, all because

Take away your broken misery, I can't always erase your memory

This love, this love is gonna be the end of me

Everything I gave is wasted, I'm the one who suffocated

This love, this love is gonna be the end of me

Your rescue, my undo

I'm not the one to save you

I'm empty completely

I'm drowning in your shadow

Take away your broken misery, I can't always erase your memory

This love, this love is gonna be the end of me

Everything I gave is wasted, I'm the one who suffocated

This love, this love is gonna be the end of

Can't chase away your ghost, inside it only grows

Nothing left but misery

This will be the end of me

All the shit that you created, all the scars you celebrated

Couldn't take away your pain

Couldn't resurrect your gain

This love will be the end of me, this love will be the end

--

Hyvää lokakuuta kaikille!

Nutshell

 Song of the day;;

→ I Am Your God - Betrayal

I trusted you more than myself

Then we crashed apart, so broken but clean

Had no idea I was about to need help

'Caise you had been the stone to lean

Wounds started to heal and I have to say

It was tough but I was gonna be okay

Then it all revealed for me, thanks our mate

Who said, oh babe, she did betray

Deceive the one who you love

Make him feel guilty and fucked

As the darkness will come

I hope you see what you have become

I feel this burning fire

I wanna tie it up before you die

Your deeds made me paranoid

I'm wasted 'cause you made my blood dry

About the awful decision you made that night

I was blind, but I hope you feel wreck inside

There was no chance for my brains to find or realize it

When you praised me and your bright eyes were shining

Are you worth to remember with delight?

Were you worth to be in my life?

Are you worth to remember with delight?

Is our past worth to keep pristine?

Were you worth to be in my life?

Was our past worth, was it ever even real?

As the darkness will come

I hope you see what you had become

I feel this burning fire

I wanna tie it up before you die

Your deeds made me paranoid

I'm wasted 'cause you made my blood dry

I feel this burning fire

I wanna tie it up before you die

Your deeds made me paranoid

I'm wasted for the tears I could not cry

--

Käytiin tänään terapeutin kanssa taidemuseossa, se oli kivaa. Suunniteltiin myös, että voitaisiin joskus käydä syömässä tai jossain konsertissa. On kiva, että terapiassa tehdään muutakin, kun vaan istuskellaan terapeutin toimistossa 45 minuuttia juttelemassa. Se on myös hyödyllistä mulle, kun enhän mä loppujen lopuksi ihan hirveästi kämpästäni poistu. Lisäksi pakko sanoa, että sisäinen kielioppipoliisini ei oikein nauti näistä lyriikoista.

What we have done

 Song of the day;;

→ Michael McCann - TF29