Unstoppable

 Song of the day;;

→ Palisades - Fade Away

It's been so long since I felt good about myself

Does anybody care to know?

Does anybody care to see?

My eyes are turning grey as darkness blinds the light

I never know which way to go

At a loss for words and it shows

And I've tried so hard to hide the pain

From everything

What I feel inside never comes out right

Can you take it all away?

If I try to break, would you keep me safe?

Will you fake it?

Or will you just let it all fade away?

I've let you step inside my apathetic mind

Judging by the way I've learned

I give it all and just gеt burned

Just a shadow behind me, I will bе alright

I can take the rest from here

I'll find a way to disappear

And I've tried so hard to hide the pain

From everything

What I feel inside never comes out right

Can you take it all away?

If I try to break, would you keep me safe?

Will you fake it?

Or will you just let it all fade away?

Fade away

Fade away

Over and over until I've lost all hope in you

What I feel inside never comes out right

Can you take it all away?

If I try to break, would you keep me safe?

Will you fake it?

Or will you just let it all

What I feel inside never comes out right

If I try to break

Will you fake it?

Or will you just let it all

Will you just let it all

Will you just let it all fade away?

--

Tänään oli terapia, juteltiin ja käytiin vähän käppäilemässä. Kävin sen jälkeen apteekissa ja Tokmannilla. Oli kiva keli. Fakta numero 70: mä tykkäisin kyllä matkustella (muutenkin kuin täällä kotimaassa), mutta a) ei rahea ja b) varsinkin kesällä insuliinien kanssa ois aivan vitun liian stressaavaa touhua.

I am above

 Song of the day;;

→ Bonobo - Second Sun

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Fakta numero 69 (hehe): mulla ei ole koskaan ollut mitään unelma-ammattia enkä ole koskaan oikein osannut kuvitella mitä haluaisin tehdä, koska en oikein osaa mitään eikä mua oikeastaan mikään juurikaan kiinnosta. Bonusfakta on se, että rakastan tätä biisiä todella paljon.

Rapture

 Song of the day;;

→ Therapie TAXI - Candide Crush

Je suis si sage, sage, d’habitude, mon chéri

Comme une image, 'mage de lassitude dans la vie

Mais tu m’as braquée, je crois, ce soir-là

Et j’ai trouvé la flamme dans tes pas

Je fuis les mâles, mâles sur le dancefloor tard le soir

Jamais d'écart car tout fait peur dans le noir

Et tu m'as sauvée de l'ennui, c'est sûr

Et j'ai fondu sous tes yeux d'azur

Tu es spectaculairement beau

Et je suis prisonnière de ta peau

Et j'ai des centaines de flèches dans le cœur (tu m’entends, tu m’entends)

Et j'ai des millions d'envie de te plaire (mon amant, mon amant)

Flirt, je m'allume, on devient insouciants

Sur le bitume, on sourit un instant

Ta gueule d'ange-ange coiffée de lueur tout d'un coup

Sourire étrange-ange, et la lumière devient floue

Mais tu m'as volé, je crois, cette nuit-là

Toute ma candeur de femme sans émoi

Je fuis les balles-balles, quand tu pousses à la faute

Mais tout s'emballe-balle si je parle à une autre

Et je suis au-dessus des putes que tu croises

Je suis de celles qu'il faut qu'on apprivoise

Et j'ai des centaines de flèches dans le cœur (tu m’entends, tu m’entends)

Et j'ai des millions d'envie de te plaire (mon amant, mon amant)

Flirt, je m'allume, on devient insouciants

Sur le bitume, on sourit un instant

Ce ciel est fait pour la romance, je crois

Toute nue, c'est elle qui s'avance sur moi

Ce ciel est fait pour la romance, je crois

Toute nue, c'est elle qui s'avance sur moi

Ce ciel est fait pour la romance, je crois

Toute nue, c'est elle qui s'avance sur moi

Ce ciel est fait pour la romance, je crois

Toute nue, c'est elle qui s'avance

Je sens les vagues, vagues qui me montent à la tête

Et je divague-vague dans la fumée, dans la fête

Je me suis offerte au luxe de tes mains

Je me vois trembler sans amour demain

Et j'ai des centaines de flèches dans le cœur

Et j'ai des millions d'envie de te plaire

Et j'ai des centaines de flèches dans le cœur (tu m’entends, tu m’entends)

Et j'ai des millions d'envie de te plaire (mon amant, mon amant)

Flirt, je m'allume, on devient insouciants

Sur le bitume, on sourit un instant

--

Fakta numero 68: mä olen aina ollut samaan aikaan sekä kapinoiva että... öh, sen vastakohta. Mikä se sitten ikinä onkaan.

Breach

 Song of the day;;

→ Jaymes Young - Moondust

I'm building this house on the moon

Like a lost astronaut

Looking at you like a star

From a place the world forgot

And there's nothing that I can do

Except bury my love for you

The brightness of the sun will give me just enough

To bury my love in the moondust

I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice

To bury my love in the moondust

Nothing can breathe in the space

Colder than the darkest sea

I have dreams about the days

Drivin' through your sunset breeze

But the first thing that I will do

Is bury my love for you

The brightness of the sun will give me just enough

To bury my love in the moondust

I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice

To bury my love in the moondust

I'm a castaway and then reap what they sow

And I say what I know to be true

Yeah, I'm livin' far away on the face of the moon

I've buried my love to give the world to you

The brightness of the sun will give me just enough

To bury my love in the moondust

I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice

To bury my love in the moondust

I've buried my love in the moondust, yeah

--

Käytiin perjantaina ihmettelemässä Liimanninkoskea ja illemmalla Amarillossa syömässä. Eilen käytiin Lepolan tilalla tutustumassa ihaniin eläimiin (siellä oli kaksi pohjanpystykorvaa ja pieni mäyräkoira ja ai että ne oli ihania... kaipaan koiraa mun elämään niin paljon) ja tänään sitten porukat lähti. Kolme kuukautta ilman rakasta Runttia tänään. Edelleen se pyörii mun ajatuksissa suurimman osan päivästä. Ikävä on. Fakta numero 67: mä näen aina aika outoja unia (kukapa ei), mutta niissä on usein toistuvia teemoja ja elementtejä.

Call my name

 Song of the day;;

→ Dance Gavin Dance - Die Another Day

Lay my tentacles in the crucible

Just to see the world

As something beautiful again

Melt my sins

He’s losing pounds

Just lay him down

And pop it in its place

Take the scruff

And pull it up

He’ll die another day

Start over

I can't bear to look back

Start over

I always run away

Sweet closure

Cure me of my candors

Shoo, vultures

I'll die another day

Lay my tentacles in the crucible

Just to see my chores

As something meaningful again

From within

All out of breath from my warpath

Sweating toxicity, begging for amnesty

Make it a song, always a song

Can only tell you the truth in the chant of a tone

I'll never bе enough

Unless I finish this sentеnce

Did it come into existence

Or was it invented?

Only getting stuck because I already did it

Start over

I can't bear to look back

Start over

I always run away

Sweet closure

Cure me of my candors

Shoo, vultures

I'll die another day

Pigeon in my vision

Frigid in the kitchen

Blithering committed

Piebald cow

Scummy ballerina

Standing on your femur

Pop your sloppy doggy

Eyeballs out

Started at the finish

Did it in a minute

Living and flip in the breeze

Had to do the did it

Rigid ribbit critic

Making a pinot go grig

God, why'd you have to do that to me?

Safe, sound on the other side

Back to devour what I've been denied

Bad track record to be kind

But this time, I'll be paying attention

Can't dwell on my damaged pride

I got moves to make, I got hearts to break through

Manic and erratic, but emphatic about learning the hard way (Learning the hard way)

Need to bite the animal

To get my instincts churning

Shake up my camera roll

Been a minute, it's been a minute

We don't obey

It's all a game

There's no give and take

There's no give and take

There's no talk, but kill the king

No talk, just kill the king

They won't talk, just kill the

I'm shakin' the plastic off

Rippin' the wrapper off

Students coming out clean

Devoted to master stroke

Licking the envelope

Sending my bright blue flame

--

Huomenna suunnataan Ouluun. On jotenkin todella helpottavaa päästä pariksi viikoksi kotiin. Fakta numero 66: mun ensimmäinen otp (eli one true pairing teille sivistymättömille) oli varmaankin NaruSasu (ja kyllä, mä olen aina ollut NaruSasu truther).

On my side

 Song of the day;;

→ Atrium Carceri - Endless Halls

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Fakta numero 65: mä tykkään tanssia... itsekseni. Joskus. 

Talking heads

 Song of the day;;

→ Rex Orange County & Benny Sings - Loving Is Easy

Loving is easy

You had me fucked up

It used to be so hard to see

Yeah, loving is easy

When everything's perfect

Please don't change a single little thing for me

Listen, girl

When you can't even hide it

And it didn't take forever to find it

I was all on my own

Almost glad to be alone

Until love came in on time, on time

So loving is easy

You had me fucked up

It used to be so hard to see

Yeah, loving is easy

When everything's perfect

Please don't change a single little thing for me

Oh, oh

Ah, ah

Oh, oh

Ah, ah

So listen, girl

When you can't even hide it

And it didn't take forever to find it

I was all on my own

Almost glad to be alone

Until love came in on time, oh, on time

Loving is easy

You had me fucked up

It used to be so hard to see

Yeah, loving is easy

When everything's perfect

Please don't change a single little thing for me

Oh, oh

Ah, ah

Oh, oh

Ah, ah

--

Fakta numero 64: mä tykkään katsella tähtiä, mutta en niinkään pilviä (vaikka on nekin nättejä).