Somebody

 Song of the day;;

→ Passenger - Let Her Go

Well, you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass

Hoping one day you'll make a dream last

But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes

Maybe one day you'll understand why

Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark

Same old empty feeling in your heart

'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well, you see her when you fall asleep

But never to touch and never to keep

'Cause you loved her too much and you dived too deep

Well, you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go, oh, woah, mm, oh

And you let her go, oh, woah, uh, no

Well, you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

--

Eilen unohtui laittaa fakta, kun oli niin paha mieli. Tänään vähän parempi, joten tässä fakta numero yheksän (ellei mun laskelmat ole menneet aivan päin helvettiä): mulla ei oo koskaan ollut mitään tiettyä lempibiisiä, mutta nyt viime aikoina oon kuunnellut Loathen Is It Really You?:ta ja Thornhillin Lily & The Moonia aika paljon, joten sanoisin, että ne on tässä hetkessä mun suosikkibiisit.

Faded out

 Song of the day;;

→ ERRA - Rebirth

Our hands were holding our fate, but they grew tired

Everything we knew came crashing down in waves of fire, in waves of fire

Strange hands over mouth and in hair

Red eyes from the water, gasping for air, rebirth

Blurred vision disrupts perception of this present state

Made new in the chilling currents that carry me away

Follow your heart

And leap from the cliffs, close your divine eyes to reason

Let inertia move you

Cling and be clung to, speak and be spoken to

How beautiful you find yourself

Remove this scourge from where we dwell

You will be found in a dark place

And somewhere through time and space

Adorned with purity yet blessed with knowledge

Contradicting what I've been taught

Upheld in a pale light that burns my skin

I am the distorted one, I am the distorted one

I am a prisoner in this body, bound and chained to flesh

I am the distorted one, I am a prisoner in this body

A mirror reflecting an honest rendition

A faction following a faithless tradition

Your own body renamed religion, rebirth

Our hands were holding our fate, but they grew tired

And everything we knew came crashing down

You will be found in a dark place

And somewhere, somewhere through time and space

A mirror reflecting an honest rendition

A faction following faithless tradition

Follow your heart

And leap from the cliffs, close your divine eyes to reason

Let inertia move you

Cling and be clung to, speak and be spoken to

How beautiful you find yourself

Remove this scourge from where we dwell

You will be found in a dark place

And somewhere through, through time and space

I am the distorted one

I am a prisoner in this body, bound and chained to flesh

Rebirth

--

Sydän on niin raskas. Oma pieni kulta. On niin kova ikävä.

Black hole

 Song of the day;;

→ James Horner & Tanja Tzarovska - 3200 Years Ago

--

Huomasin hei tuossa, että oon näköjään unohtanut jatkaa nuitten faktojen postausta. Suonette anteeksi, mun aivot ei oo oikein toimineet tässä viime viikkojen aikana kunnolla, ymmärrettävästä syystä. Mutta tarkistin, että seuraavaksi olis fakta numero kahdeksan, joten tässä tulee: mulla ei enää ole sellasta ykkössuosikkia, mitä bändeihin/artisteihin tulee, mut tän hetken top vitonen vois olla (sattumanvaraisessa järjestyksessä) Bad Omens, Thornhill, Duran Duran, Loathe ja Kingdom of Giants.

Like love

 Song of the day;;

→ The Fray - Over My Head (Cable Car)

I never knew

I never knew that everything was falling through

That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

But that's how it's gotta be

It's comin' down to nothing more than apathy

I'd rather run the other way than stay and see

The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

And everyone knows I'm in

Over my head, over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind, she's on your mind

Let's rearrange

I wish you were a stranger, I could disengage

Just say that we agree and then never change

Soften a bit until we all just get along

But that's disregard

You find another friend, and you discard

As you lose the arguments in a cable car

Hanging above as the canyon comes between

And everyone knows I'm in

Over my head, over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind, she's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in

Over my head, over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind, she's on, on

And suddenly

I've become a part of your past

I'm becomin' the part that don't last

I'm losing you, and it's effortless

Without a sound

Lose sight of the ground in the throw-around

Never thought that you wanted to bring it down

I won't let it go down 'til we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I'm in

Over my head, over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind, she's on your mind

Everyone knows

She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in over my head

I'm in over my head, I'm over my

Everyone knows I'm in

Over my head, over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind, she's on your mind

--

Pitkästä aikaa tarjolla throwback-torstaita. Tällä biisillä ei ole sen kummempaa tarinaa, olen tän aikoinani jostain löytänyt (katoin aikoinaan paljon fanvidejä tubesta, joten varmaan jostain sellasesta olen tän poiminut) ja aina tykännyt. Tänään on ollut vähän vaikea päivä. On itkettänyt ja ikävä on tosi kova. 

DiE4u

 Song of the day;;

→ Joseph William Morgan & Shadow Royale - What a Wonderful World

I see trees of green, red roses too

I see them bloom, for me and you

And I think to myself

What a wonderful world

What a wonderful world

Hear babies cry, I watch them grow

They'll learn much more

Than I'll ever know

And I think to myself

What a wonderful world

Yes, I think to myself

What a wonderful world

See skies of blue, clouds of white

Bright blessed day and dark sacred night

And I think to myself

What a wonderful world

What a wonderful world

And I think to myself

Dead butterflies

 Song of the day;;

→ MARINA - Teen Idle

I wanna be a bottle blonde

I don't know why but I feel conned

I wanna be an idle teen

I wish I hadn't been so clean

I wanna stay inside all day

I want the world to go away

I want blood, guts and chocolate cake

I wanna be a real fake

Yeah, I wish I'd been a

Wish I'd been a teen, teen idle

Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title

Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible

(Feeling super, super, super)

Feeling super, super, super suicidal

The wasted years, the wasted youth

The pretty lies, the ugly truth

And the day has come where I have died

Only to find I've come alive

I wanna be a virgin pure

A 21st century whore

I want back my virginity

So I can feel infinity

I wanna drink until I ache

I wanna make a big mistake

I want blood, guts and angel cake

I'm gonna puke it anyway

Yeah, I wish I'd been a

Wish I'd been a teen, teen idle

Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title

Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible

(Feeling super, super, super)

Feeling super, super, super suicidal

The wasted years, the wasted youth

The pretty lies, the ugly truth

And the day has come where I have died

Only to find I've come alive

Come alive, I've come alive, ah-ah

Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

I wish I wasn't such a narcissist

I wish I didn't really kiss the mirror when I'm on my own

Oh, God, I'm gonna die alone

Adolescence didn't make sense

A little loss of innocence

The ugly years of being a fool

Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?

Yeah, I wish I'd been a

Wish I'd been a teen, teen idle

Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title

Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible

(Feeling super, super, super)

Feeling super, super, super suicidal

The wasted years, the wasted youth

The pretty lies, the ugly truth

And the day has come where I have died

Only to find I've come alive

Only to find I've come alive

Only to find I've come alive

(Come alive)

(Feeling super, super, super)

(Feeling super, super, super)

(Feeling super, super, super)

(Come alive)

--

En muuten muistanut eilen sanoa, mutta porukat oli täällä sunnuntain, jolloin käytiin taidemuseossa, käppäiltiin kaupungilla ja käytiin Rossossa syömässä. Oli kivaa olla porukoitten kanssa. Tänään oli terapia. Juteltiin Runtista, käytiin läpi tavoitteita ja jatkettiin vähän niitä ystävyysjuttuja. Ulkona oli lämmintä.

We got the moves

 Song of the day;;

→ ERRA - Hourglass

I've watched a lot of things crumble in my hands

Falling through my fingers like grains of sand

When the hourglass tips over on its side

Does it create infinite moments or leave us trapped in time?

Loath, disdain, pity, regret consume me and I shut down

Dissolving internally with no silver linings to any clouds

I disassociate with everything I know

Drowning out, losing control

My detachment permeates to everything I know

Refill the sands and balance the scales or let me go

I'm becoming everything that I defied

Withdrawn emotions, I've built a shell and I live inside

I disassociate with everything I know

Drowning out, losing control

My detachment permeates to everything I know

And I'm drowning out, losing control

Losing control

I'm becoming everything I defied

Slowly withering, there seems to be no way out

Refill the sands, balance the scales or let me go

Loath, disdain, pity, regret consume me and I shut down

Slowly withering with no silver linings to any fucking clouds

I disassociate with everything I know

Drowning out, losing control

My detachment permeates to everything I know

And I'm drowning out, losing control

Losing control

--

Tuli pidettyä tuossa hieman pidempi tauko, kun olin viime viikon porukoilla enkä ihan rehellisesti vaan jaksanut käydä täällä. Mietin jopa muutamia kertoja, että olisin jättänyt tän kokonaan, mutta tässä sitä vielä kuitenkin ollaan. Teki hyvää käydä porukoilla, vaikka toki se teki tilanteen todellisemmaksi ja vaikeitakin hetkiä oli. Helpotti kyllä valtavasti olla sellaisten ihmisten seurassa, ketkä käy läpi samaa suruprosessia ja ymmärtää. En oo ehkä koskaan tuntenut meidän perhettä niin tavallaan yhtenäiseksi kuin silloin, kun oltiin just haettu Runtin uurna kotiin, halattiin kaikki toisiamme ja itkettiin. Edelleen mulla on aivan älytön ikävä joka päivä ja sattuu todella paljon, vaikka kyyneleitä ei aina tulisikaan. Tuntuu vaan niin vahvasti siltä, että jotain puuttuu. Eikä mua oikein ole kiinnostanut kamalasti mikään. Värit on haaleita ja korvissa kohisee koko ajan. Mutta muisteleminen on helpottanut, ja nyt pystyn enimmäkseen jo katsomaan kuvia hyvällä mielellä. Loppujen lopuksi se suruhan vaan kertoo siitä, miten vahva side meidän välillä oli. Sain myös mukaan Runtin rakkaimman, tyynynä käytetyn possulelun sekä yhden sen vanhan joulupaidan. Sisko otti kanssa pari muistoesinettä, porukat säilytti vaan valokuvat. Ymmärrän kyllä toisaalta sen, miksi ne ei halua säilyttää mitään esineitä. Oon saanut sen käsityksen, että porukat haluais kuitenkin vielä jossain vaiheessa tulevaisuudessa ottaa toisen koiran, joka ei tietenkään tule olemaan mikään Runtin korvaaja, vaan täysin oma yksilönsä, joten sille hommataan sitten uudet, omat tavarat. Edelleen mä antaisin mitä vaan, että saisin Runtin takaisin, mutta mä olen todella kiitollinen siitä ajasta, mikä me saatiin viettää yhdessä. Aika tekee toivottavasti tehtävänsä ja kipu hellittää, mutta unohtaa mä en aio koskaan.