Hurt

 Song of the day;;

→ Simple Minds - Don't You (Forget About Me)

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Ooh, woah

Won't you come see about me?

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it, baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts

Giving me everything inside and out, and

Love's strange, so real in the dark

Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart

When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

Will you stand above me?

Look my way, never love me

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down

Will you recognize me?

Call my name or walk on by

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Ooh, woah

Don't you try and pretend

It's my feeling we'll win in the end

I won't harm you or touch your defenses

Vanity, insecurity, ah

Don't you forget about me

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it, baby

Goin' to take you apart

I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

When you walk away

Or will you walk away?

Will you walk on by?

Come on, call my name

Will you call my name?

I say, la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la, la, la-la, la-la, la-la, la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la, la, la-la, la-la, la-la, la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la, la, la-la, la-la, la-la, la

When you walk on by (La-la-la-la)

And you call my name (La-la-la-la)

When you walk on by

--

Fakta numero 45: kolikon kääntöpuolella mun inhokkiaineet koulussa oli matikka, fysiikka ja kemia, koska olin niissä aivan sysipaska enkä tajunnu niistä yhtään mitään.

Pump it

 Song of the day;;

→ Blind Channel - Alive or Only Burning

My soul is in shreds

Tonight is a tomb

Poets are liars but I know the truth

Roses are dead

Violets are doomed

Lovers don't know how to love but they know how to wound

I'm a walking apocalypse

A fuckin' nemesis

Gonna show you how red the flag can get

I got balls the size of Jupiter

If I fall, call me Lucifer

I made a home in the flames

I got fire in my veins

I gotta choose from killing or learning to hide

Dunno if I'm living or burning alive

And I just lie here like this

Left to die

So many times

That deep inside I think I might dеserve it

I walked through firе

Somehow survived

Now I don't know if I'm alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

Bury me here

Under your bed

That's where your treasures and demons are kept

Keep me a secret

Never forget

The best kinda love only ends in cold-blooded revenge

All that I need is a gut feeling

You think I don't hear when you're gossiping

Ass-licking while I'm ass-kicking

Nobody knows what I'm thinking

Everyone's after me

I'm running out of self esteem

Gimme gasoline

Can't you see that I've been

Left to die

So many times

That deep inside I think I might deserve it

I walked through fire

Somehow survived

Now I don't know if I'm alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

And I just lie here like this

My soul is in shreds

Tonight is a tomb

Poets are liars but I know the truth

Roses are dead

Violets are doomed

Lovers don't know how to love but they know how to wound

Lovers don't know how to love but they know how to wound

'Cause I've been

Left to die

So many times

That deep inside I think I might deserve it

I walked through fire

Somehow survived

Now I don't know if I'm alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

--

Fakta numero 44: mun lempiaineet koulussa oli englanti ja äidinkieli (ja kielet ylipäätään); yläasteella tykkäsin myös köksästä ja lukiossa psykologiasta sekä filosofiasta.

The vengeful one

 Song of the day;;

→ Celestial Aeon Project - Nascence

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Fakta numero 43: mä tykkään pelata lautapelejä, mutta korttipeleistä en niinkään välitä (paitsi pasianssista. Tietokoneella).

If I ever lose my faith in you

 Song of the day;;

→ Simple Plan - Shut Up!

There you go

You're always so right

It's all a big show

It's all about you

You think you know

What everyone needs

You always take time

To criticize me

It seems like every day

I make mistakes

I just can't get it right

It's like I'm the one

You love to hate

But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

There you go

You never ask why

It's all a big lie

Whatever you do

You think you're special

But I know, and I know, and I know, and we know

That you're not

You're always there to point

Out my mistakes

And shove them in my face

It's like I'm the one

You love to hate

But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Will never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be (Don't tell me who I should be)

And don't try to tell me what's right for me

Don't tell me what I should do

I don't wanna waste my time

I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say is gonna bring me down

Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up)

Won't bring me down

Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up)

Won't bring me

Shut up, shut up, shut up

--

Ah, näitä ihania angstisien teinivuosien soundtrackeja... Kaksi kuukautta ilman rakasta Runttia tänään. Tuntuu niin pahalta. Ikävä on pohjaton. Fakta numero 42: mä olen 1000% koiraihminen. Rakastan kyllä eläimiä muutenkin, mutta koirat (ja pandat) on mun suosikkeja.

Oboro

 Song of the day;;

→ MorMor - Some Place Else

Another day like yesterday

Where it all just slips away

A change of scene, a change of pace

I'm waiting on some better days

Thought I’d left a tribal state

The moon, it kept me company

Really couldn't help myself

I'm holding on to something else

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

See them come and watch them go

Feelings which you never show

The light will fade, the time as come

But you and I aren’t the only ones

I-I had thought you better

I-I had thought you better than myself

I-I had thought you better

But I had no idea

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

Is there some place?

Is there some place else?

Is there some place?

Is there some?

--

Fakta numero 41: mä olen aina ollut PlayStation-nautiskelija enkä oo muistaakseni ees koskaan pelannut Xboxilla. Käsikonsoleista en oo koskaan välittänyt ja koneellakin pelaan ainoastaan SSO:ta ja Sims 4:sta.

Ain't afraid to die

 Song of the day;;

→ Radiohead - Creep

When you were here before

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I'm not around

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

Oh-oh, oh-oh

She's runnin' out the door

She's runnin' out

She run, run, run, run

Run

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here

--

Fakta numero 40: vaikka tykkäänkin elokuvista, oon aika huono katsomaan niitä ja katon mieluummin sarjoja, koska mulle tuottaa usein vaikeuksia keskittyä elokuviin (ellei kyseessä ole tosi hyvä leffa tai sellainen vanha comfort-suosikki, jonka olen nähny sen tuhat ja yks kertaa).

Kodou

 Song of the day;;

→ ERRA - Pull from the Ghost

From the yellow line

Waving goodbye

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

The bones of the past

Spilling over in a rare reflection

A captor seeking Stockholm

Dying alone with a ransom note

Bleeding host

What I can't find in you, I'll just

Pull from the ghost of a virtual memory

From the yellow line

Waving goodbye

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

Involuntary time zone that fate has annexed

Every second lost or gained has a presence

I traversed time on stagnant feet

Orchestrating a long defeat

Bleeding host

What I can't find in you, I'll just

Pull from the ghost of a virtual memory

And now I'm face to face

With the things that I have chased

But I'll just burn what is birthed of my history

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

I feel love

Only in reverie

I feel love

But the sensation is already memory

Stillborn upon delivery, oh

Seeds bidding for egoic auxiliary

Stillborn upon delivery

Bleeding host

What I can't find in you, I'll just

Pull from the ghost of a virtual memory

And now I'm face to face

With the things that I have chased

But I'll just burn what is birthed of my history

From the yellow line

Waving goodbye

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

To my captive

Breaking their neck for home

--

Tänään oli terapia ja kävin sen jälkeen apteekissa ostamassa lisää rasvaa. Ulkona oli aurinkoista ja aika lämmintä. Fakta numero 39: mä en tykkää jaotella asioita feminiinisiin ja maskuliinisiin, mutta sanoisin, että itse oon aika 50/50 kumpaakin.