Left for dead

 Song of the day;;

→ coldrain - From Today

Watching fear take over life

Streets go silent cities die

Tomorrow slowly slipped away

Lost a friend to one more lie

Are we wrong to be afraid?

Are we strong if we pretend?

No matter what

I swear to god

These fucking thoughts

Won't keep me down

These fucking thoughts

Won't keep me down

I'm going loud into the night

Won't give up without a fight

From today, from today

You will hear me when I cry

Take my money, take my time

You will never take my light

From today, from today

All my demons listen to mе

Random words turn into knives

Hearts get brokеn over time

Will we let it be the way

Knowing hate is at its prime

Am I wrong to be at rage?

Am I strong if I engage?

No matter what

I swear to god

These fucking thoughts

Won't keep me down

These fucking thoughts

Won't keep me down

I'm going loud into the night

Won't give up without a fight

From today, from today

You will hear me when I cry

Take my money, take my time

You will never take my light

From today, from today

All my demons listen to me

Listen to me

Take my money, take my time

You will never take my light

Take my money, take my time

You will never take me

This is my resolution

This is my final stand

I'm going loud into the night

Won't give up without a fight

From today, from today

You will hear me when I cry

Take my money, take my time

You will never take my light

From today, from today

All my demons listen to me

This is my resolution

This is my final stand

Listen to me

This is my resolution

This is my final stand

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Fakta numero 48: syön kompiaisia aika harvoin, mutta mun suosikkeja on kaikki colan makuset.

Death is all around

 Song of the day;;

→ Lambert - Gdansk

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Fakta numero 47: mun lempijäätelömaku on varmaankin salmiakki.

Intergalactic Casanova

 Song of the day;;

→ MyKey - Was It Something I Said

Alright, should I go?

Yeah, go ahead

Was it something I said?

Oh, fuck

Guess it's time for sadboy kiss and tell

You ruined my life, but I wish you well

I lied about that second part, oh well

Yeah, quit leaving me voicemails about your pain

Shouldn't have to listen to the shit you say

Why'd you even bring it up in the first place?

Was it something I said

That made you anxious?

Yeah, it made you upset

Made you call me back at 3 a.m. 

Just to tell me your defense

Was it something I said

That made you anxious?

Yeah, it made you upset

Made you wanna go and bitch to your friends

Was it something that I said?

Lately, I fear there's no end in sight

7-Eleven runs after midnight

I know you're never there, but you might

Maybe if I try, I could sleep it off

I see you when I sleep, so I don't sleep at all

Slowly, all my thoughts start singing my favorite song

Was it something I said

That made you anxious?

Yeah, it made you upset

Made you call me back at 3 a.m. 

Just to tell me your defense

Was it something I said

That made you anxious?

Yeah, it made you upset

Made you wanna go and bitch to your friends

Was it something that I said?

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Fakta numero 46: mun lempituoksu (ja samalla myös lempikukka) on kielo.

Hurt

 Song of the day;;

→ Simple Minds - Don't You (Forget About Me)

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Ooh, woah

Won't you come see about me?

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it, baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts

Giving me everything inside and out, and

Love's strange, so real in the dark

Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart

When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

Will you stand above me?

Look my way, never love me

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down

Will you recognize me?

Call my name or walk on by

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Ooh, woah

Don't you try and pretend

It's my feeling we'll win in the end

I won't harm you or touch your defenses

Vanity, insecurity, ah

Don't you forget about me

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it, baby

Goin' to take you apart

I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

When you walk away

Or will you walk away?

Will you walk on by?

Come on, call my name

Will you call my name?

I say, la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la, la, la-la, la-la, la-la, la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la, la, la-la, la-la, la-la, la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la, la, la-la, la-la, la-la, la

When you walk on by (La-la-la-la)

And you call my name (La-la-la-la)

When you walk on by

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Fakta numero 45: kolikon kääntöpuolella mun inhokkiaineet koulussa oli matikka, fysiikka ja kemia, koska olin niissä aivan sysipaska enkä tajunnu niistä yhtään mitään.

Pump it

 Song of the day;;

→ Blind Channel - Alive or Only Burning

My soul is in shreds

Tonight is a tomb

Poets are liars but I know the truth

Roses are dead

Violets are doomed

Lovers don't know how to love but they know how to wound

I'm a walking apocalypse

A fuckin' nemesis

Gonna show you how red the flag can get

I got balls the size of Jupiter

If I fall, call me Lucifer

I made a home in the flames

I got fire in my veins

I gotta choose from killing or learning to hide

Dunno if I'm living or burning alive

And I just lie here like this

Left to die

So many times

That deep inside I think I might dеserve it

I walked through firе

Somehow survived

Now I don't know if I'm alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

Bury me here

Under your bed

That's where your treasures and demons are kept

Keep me a secret

Never forget

The best kinda love only ends in cold-blooded revenge

All that I need is a gut feeling

You think I don't hear when you're gossiping

Ass-licking while I'm ass-kicking

Nobody knows what I'm thinking

Everyone's after me

I'm running out of self esteem

Gimme gasoline

Can't you see that I've been

Left to die

So many times

That deep inside I think I might deserve it

I walked through fire

Somehow survived

Now I don't know if I'm alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

And I just lie here like this

My soul is in shreds

Tonight is a tomb

Poets are liars but I know the truth

Roses are dead

Violets are doomed

Lovers don't know how to love but they know how to wound

Lovers don't know how to love but they know how to wound

'Cause I've been

Left to die

So many times

That deep inside I think I might deserve it

I walked through fire

Somehow survived

Now I don't know if I'm alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

Alive or only burning

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Fakta numero 44: mun lempiaineet koulussa oli englanti ja äidinkieli (ja kielet ylipäätään); yläasteella tykkäsin myös köksästä ja lukiossa psykologiasta sekä filosofiasta.

The vengeful one

 Song of the day;;

→ Celestial Aeon Project - Nascence

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Fakta numero 43: mä tykkään pelata lautapelejä, mutta korttipeleistä en niinkään välitä (paitsi pasianssista. Tietokoneella).

If I ever lose my faith in you

 Song of the day;;

→ Simple Plan - Shut Up!

There you go

You're always so right

It's all a big show

It's all about you

You think you know

What everyone needs

You always take time

To criticize me

It seems like every day

I make mistakes

I just can't get it right

It's like I'm the one

You love to hate

But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

There you go

You never ask why

It's all a big lie

Whatever you do

You think you're special

But I know, and I know, and I know, and we know

That you're not

You're always there to point

Out my mistakes

And shove them in my face

It's like I'm the one

You love to hate

But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Will never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be (Don't tell me who I should be)

And don't try to tell me what's right for me

Don't tell me what I should do

I don't wanna waste my time

I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say today

Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Don't wanna hear it

Get out, get out, get out

Get out of my way

Step up, step up, step up

You'll never stop me

Nothing you say is gonna bring me down

Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up)

Won't bring me down

Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up)

Won't bring me

Shut up, shut up, shut up

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Ah, näitä ihania angstisien teinivuosien soundtrackeja... Kaksi kuukautta ilman rakasta Runttia tänään. Tuntuu niin pahalta. Ikävä on pohjaton. Fakta numero 42: mä olen 1000% koiraihminen. Rakastan kyllä eläimiä muutenkin, mutta koirat (ja pandat) on mun suosikkeja.