Zombified

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - tear gas

Never afraid to be despicable (No)

Stood at the brink and you're still looking for the last laugh

You're only crying from the tear gas

Somebody turn us inside out

Maybe you think that I'm too cynical (Yeah)

Freezing to death stood in the shadow of an avalanche

Are you looking at the hourglass?

(It's) Do or die

Any other time than now, any other time than now

Just one life

I guess you're gonna go to hell, guess you're gonna go to hell

Tell a lie

Anything is possible, we could be unstoppable

Be less than no one to me, just leave me in the mercy seat

Surely this ain't the fucking pinnacle? (No)

These modern saints would have us writing our own epitaph

Well, we knew that it would never last

Somebody turn us inside out (Turn us inside out)

There's nothing left of ourselves that we won't sell

Do or die

Any other time than now, any other time than now

Just one life

I guess you're gonna go to hell, guess you're gonna go to hell

Tell a lie

Anything is possible, we could be unstoppable

Be less than no one to me, just leave me in the mercy seat

(We are well aware)

No one can stand without a spine

(But if we never dare)

We'll only flatten out the line, oh

(We are well aware)

No one can stand without a spine

(But if we never dare)

We'll only flatten out the line

Do or die

Any other time than now, any other time than now

Just one life

I guess you're gonna go to hell, guess you're gonna go to hell

Tell a lie

Anything is possible, we could be unstoppable

Be less than no one to me, just leave me in the mercy seat

(We are well aware)

No one can stand without a spine

(But if we never dare)

We'll only flatten out the line

--

Fakta numero 58: mä en ole oikeastaan koskaan halunnut mennä naimisiin tai haaveillut häistä.

Kingslayer

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - when we were young

Oh

One, two, three, four

We're separated by a margin of a greater degree

The same flesh and blood but in a different lane

I read the remedy too but my words, they still sounded the same

When we were young

We thought we had the whole world figured out (Figured out)

Now all we do is speak in tongues

We play a losing game

Only now we hear the shouts fading out

We flew into thе sun

We flew into the sun

Oh

I'm dеdicated to the shadow that's been following me

It caught me counting the cards, I guess the rules remain

Oh, it was heavenly then but the devils were calling my name

When we were young

We thought we had the whole world figured out (Figured out)

Now all we do is speak in tongues

We play a losing game

Only now we hear the shouts fading out

We flew into the sun

Is there something in your eye?

Did you fall or were you just on a high?

Everybody's so afraid they could die

But they never once said

Thank god we're alive, oh

Is there something in your eye?

Did you fall or were you just on a high?

Everybody's so afraid they could die

But they never once said

Thank god we're alive, oh

When we were young

We thought we had the whole world figured out (Figured out)

We flew into the sun

We thought we had the whole world figured out (Figured out)

Now all we do is speak in tongues

We play a losing game

Only now we hear the shouts fading out

We flew into the sun

--

Käytiin tänään piipahtamassa Joensuussa. Kyllä se ihan kiva kaupunki on, vaikka mä en siellä oikein viihtynyt asuessani, mut siihen nyt tietysti vaikutti moni asia, johon sillä itse kaupungilla ei ollu mitään osaa eikä arpaa. Huomenna kahvitellaan ja juhlistetaan ukin (äidin isän) 80v synttäreitä.

My lover

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Dead Butterflies

I wanna bother God

I wanna feel the ground beneath my feet

But I've got a smile full of broken teeth

Goodbye, all the doves have flown away

I must’ve lost myself, lost myself, lost myself

I know it's not enough

Why does defeat always taste so bittersweet?

I just wanna live and die in peace

The flower that never blossoms is quickly forgotten

It must be gold if it's glistening

I must’ve lost myself, lost myself, lost myself

Goodbye, all the doves have flown away

I must've lost myself, lost mysеlf, lost myself

Fly high 'cause the ravеns are here to stay

I must've lost myself, lost myself, lost myself in a cloud of

Dead butterflies, dead butterflies, dead butterflies, dead butter–

Dead butterflies, dead butterflies, dead butterflies

The flower that never blossoms is quickly forgotten

It must be gold if it's glistening

I must've lost myself, lost myself, lost myself

Goodbye, all the doves have flown away

I must've lost myself, lost myself, lost myself in a cloud of

Dead butterflies, dead butterflies, dead butterflies, dead butterflies

Fly high 'cause the ravens are here to stay

I must’ve lost myself, lost myself, lost myself in a cloud of

Dead butterflies, dead butterflies, dead butterflies

Run

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Little Wonder

Burn the altar built by the dollar sign, those waters are shallow

That's why the kids all say, get the fuck out of our way

'Cause we're picking up the slack, taking power back

Yeah, they made a bed out of our bones, said it's all just overblown

It doesn't matter if you're friend or if you're foe

Do you really think you wanna be saved?

I wanna sing you a different song, one that's easier to swallow

Everything is fucking fine

We can dance, we can all sing along

We can say how we all wanna be saved, but it's еasier to follow

I wanna sing you a different song, onе that's easier to swallow

We all say that we wanna be saved, but it's easier to follow

There are vultures preaching the party line, those goldmines are hallowed

And if we look away, then we'll all have hell to pay

So we cover up the tracks, there's no going back

Yeah, I know that Rome was overthrown, but it wasn't done alone

And you would think that we were better off below

Were you hoping that the dead could be raised?

I wanna sing you a different song, one that's easier to swallow

Everything is fucking fine

We can dance, we can all sing along

We can say how we all wanna be saved, but it's easier to follow

I wanna sing you a different song, one that's easier to swallow

We all say that we wanna be saved, but it's easier to follow

If we miss the deadline

We can always blame the divine

Gripping knives and praising lowlives

Nobody could say with a straight face they didn't have it coming

They fucking had it coming

They fucking had it coming

I wanna sing you a different song, one that's easier to swallow

We can dance, we can all sing along

We can say how we all wanna be saved, but it's easier to follow

I wanna sing you a different song, one that's easier to swallow

We all say that we wanna be saved

If we miss the deadline

We can always blame the divine

Gripping knives and praising lowlives

Nobody could say with a straight face they didn't have it coming

--

Tulin tänään takas kämpille, tosin olen täällä vaan 14. päivään asti ja meen sitten pääsiäiseksi takas kotia. En sitten tiiä, miten pitkään olen siellä. 

I blame you

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Animals

Diamond, diamond in the mud

Infinity is waiting there

'Cause nobody can burn a glass cathedral

I do my best, but everything seems ominous

Not feeling blessed, quite the opposite

This shouldn't feel so monotonous

It never rains, but it pours

We're just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcome

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

Should I just pull the pin?

Should I just pull the pin?

I dug my heels, I thought that I could stop the rot

The ground gave way, now I've lost the plot

Fucked it again, that was all I've got

It never rains, but it pours

Life is just a dream within a

We'rе just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcomе

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

Buried under dirt, a diamond in the mud

Infinity is waiting there 'cause nobody can burn a glass cathedral

Dream within a, dream within a

We're just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcome

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

We're just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcome

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

Should I just pull the pin?

Should I just pull the pin?

(Buried under dirt, a diamond in the mud)

Should I just pull the pin?

(Infinity is waiting there 'cause nobody can burn a glass cathedral)

Should I just pull the pin?

--

Tää biisi on soinut viime aikoina aika usiasti, tykkään ihan helvetisti. Oulussa ollaan, tänne on jotenkin tosi kiva tulla aina takas ja jotenkin en malta oottaa, että syyskuu tulee ja pääsen tulemaan tänne taas pitkäksi aikaa. Kunpa vaan opintojen jatkuminen ei ahistais niin paljon... En tiedä pitäiskö ottaa syksyllä yhteyttä omaopettajaan tai johonkin ja jutustella vähän asioista. En halua että käy taas niinko viimeksi. 

Colourblind

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Gone With The Wind

The weight of the world is resting on thin ice

When the surface breaks, will I find paradise?

As I freeze to death, left to reflect

What a waste of time I was in retrospect

I'd take a leap of faith, but I'd lose my nerve

In the end, I'll get the hell that I deserve

I'm always gone with the wind

Crawling in and out of my mind

God knows I lost all my faith

A sickness with no remedy

Except the ones inside of me

You ever wonder how deep you could sink into nothing at all?

Disintegrate, annihilate me

Do you remember when you said to me

My friend, hope is a prison?

Hope is a prison

Of all the patterns that I could create

I built a labyrinth with no escape

To keep myself under lock and key

I am my own worst enemy

I'd take a leap of faith, but I'd lose my nerve

In the end, I'll get the hell that I deserve

I'm always gone with the wind

Crawling in and out of my mind

God knows I lost all my faith

A sickness with no remedy

Except the ones inside of me

You ever wonder how deep you could sink into nothing at all?

Disintegrate, annihilate me

A sickness with no remedy

Except the ones inside of me

You ever wonder how deep you could sink into nothing at all?

Disintegrate, annihilate me

If I could silence all the doubt in me

Accept that what is meant to be (is meant to be)

You ever wonder how deep you could sink into nothing at all?

Disintegrate, annihilate me

I remember when you said to me

My friend, hope is a prison

This is war

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Modern Misery

Seven billion hungry ghosts

Just a parasite killing its host

The emperor wears no clothes, I see those brittle bones

But we're buried by modern misery

Modern misery

There's not enough water in the world

To wash the blood from our hands

We planted a seed, its roots will suffocate the soul

It grows without light and feeds from our bones

Hell must be empty, all the devils are here

Singing us the Lord's Prayer; finally, something that we all share

I won't go to the grave with the song still in me

What are we hiding in the rain?

This is a prison for lost souls

Another life circles the drain

We used to run with the wolves

Now we can't see the forest

'Cause there's no light in the black hole

Don't try and tell me we are blessed

We used to run with the wolves

Are these our new messiahs?

'Cause the saviour has a gun to my head

Don't be fooled by Maya, the kings are all thieves

And the serpents will bite as they please

How has it come to this?

I won't go to the grave with the song still in me

And I won't live like a slave begging from my knees

What are we hiding in the rain?

This is a prison for lost souls

Another life circles the drain

We used to run with the wolves

Now we can't see the forest

'Cause there's no light in the black hole

Don't try and tell me we are blessed

We used to run with the wolves

Seven billion hungry ghosts

Just a parasite killing its host

The emperor wears no clothes, I see those brittle bones

But we're buried by modern misery

Modern misery

I won't live like a slave, I won't beg from my knees

I will not go to the grave with the song still in me

We used to run with the wolves

We used to run with the wolves

We used to run with the wolves

We used to run with the wolves

Setting sun

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Gravedigger

An iron fist in a velvet glove

Another vulture posing as a dove

Do you have no shame? Look at what you've become

You are the reason we are bitter and then some

Bitter and then some

They sing of saviours, we sing of sorrow

But we're still holding on for dear life

You sold us all down the river

I hope you choke on the vows that you failed to deliver

You said you'd change the world, but death still flies east

The blind lead the blind, so we bomb for peace

Gravedigger, there's blood on your hands

You built this empire on salt and sand

Not all is fair in love and war

History repeats, we've seen this all before

We've given the vampires the keys to the blood bank, oh

They say the more things change, the more they stay the same

While the liars leech, the crooked preach

So lie through your teeth, lie like you mean it

It beggars belief, do you really think that we still fucking believe it?

You fucking parasite

There's no room in here for an honest man

Only callous and cold hearts

Gravedigger, there's blood on your hands

You built this empire on salt and sand

Not all is fair in love and war

History repeats, we've seen it all before

Oppressor, you built this empire on salt and sand

Oppressor, you built this empire on salt and sand

An iron fist in a velvet glove

Another vulture posing as a dove

Do you have no shame? Look at what you've become

You are the reason we are bitter and then some

Bitter and then some

They sing of saviours, we sing of sorrow

But we're still holding on for dear life

Soul friends

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Death Is Not Defeat

When I leave this skin and bone

Beyond my final heartbeat

I'll dismantle piece by piece

And I will know that death is not defeat

When I leave this skin and bone

Beyond my final heartbeat (Heartbeat)

I'll dismantle piece by piece

And I will know that death is not defeat

Holding on tight to what's left of our time

We've hidden away, but it's in the design

Why do we fight what we can't define?

Don't be afraid, we all cross the same line

When I leave this skin and bone

Beyond my final heartbeat (Heartbeat)

I'll dismantle piece by piece

And I will know that death is not defeat

Into the night, we burn and rage

In death, we repay for time on this stage

The lights are bright, but don't lose your way

'Cause once it ignites, the flame must decay

Now you're finally complete

I will see you where oceans meet

Past and present merge, light and dark will converge

Time will overthrow our, our reign on this throne

The everlasting sleep returning through the veil

Far beneath the deep, another soul sets sail

When I leave this skin and bone

Beyond my final heartbeat

I'll dismantle piece by piece

And I will know that death is not defeat

When I leave this skin and bone

Beyond my final heartbeat (Heartbeat)

I'll dismantle piece by piece

And I will know that death is not defeat

My heart

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Mortal After All

I guess we're mortal after all

One day all of us will give up the ghost

Too lost in the light to see what matters most

All ends will be met

And all worlds must collapse

Another part of the symphony lost between eternity

But god is in the detail

I know that there's a part of me, doomed to face infinity

'Cause every wave has gotta break

Has gotta break

The truth is, all of us are hostages

Staring down the throat of the screaming abyss

Surrendering is half the battle

But we're powerless to resist

Another part of the symphony lost between eternity

But god is in the detail

I know that there's a part of me, doomed to face infinity

'Cause every wave has gotta break

Have you forgotten the deal we made?

I've seen the end and the pain we trade

All these walls will fall

I guess we're mortal after all

The end will come for all of us

This all rests on the fault line

All ends will be met

And all worlds must collapse

Another part of the symphony lost between eternity

But god is in the detail

I know that there's a part of me, doomed to face infinity

'Cause every wave has gotta break

Has gotta break, yeah

Have you forgotten the deal we made?

I've seen the end and the pain we trade

All these walls will fall

I guess we're mortal after all

--

Huomenna kotia! Kävin tänään lipastolta hakemassa haalarit, mua vaan naurattaa niin perkeleesti kun ne on kokoa XS ja silti aivan saatanan isot, etenkin pituussuunnassa... On hauskaa olla vertikaalisesti rajottunu! Varmaan sitten kun tulen takas niin rupian ompelemaan merkkejä kiinni niihin. Mua jostain syystä ahdisti ihan hirviästi mennä sinne kiltahuoneelle (no varmaan koska sosiaalinen ahdistus, daa, vitun pässi) ja sitten ajattelin, että on tosiaan olemassa ihmisiä, jotka vaan... menee ja elää ja tekee asioita eikä ahdistu mistään. Tosi outoa. 

Anxiety

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Holy Hell

Maybe we'll never learn?

The fire at the gates is our saving grace

Remember we were born to burn

There is a holy hell where we can save ourselves

There is a holy hell where we can save ourselves

We will be cast out of paradise

It's a long ascent out of the black

But we all have to sacrifice, hang the iconoclast

And kiss the feet of the amnesiac

'Cause the moment is dead when I'm lost in the past   

Maybe we'll never learn?

The fire at the gates is our saving grace

Remember we were born to burn

There is a holy hell where we can save ourselves

But now the rivers are running red

And the skies have been set ablaze

I've been fearing the worst again

Heavenly terrorist, have you been mourning over yesterday?

Don't forget to breathe when the knife begins to twist

Fuck this self-pity, it's not that hard to see

We get one chance, these wounds will set me free 

There's poison on the key, it brings you to your knees

But even the mountains erode in the rain

A single spark can start a forest fire

Light one match and burn down the empire

There's gold buried in the blue, oh

There's gold buried in the blue

Holy Hell, I've got nothing left to lose

And I can tell there's gold buried in the blue

Maybe we'll never learn?

The fire at the gates is our saving grace

Remember we were born to burn

There is a holy hell where we can save ourselves

Holy Hell, I've got nothing left to lose

And I can tell there's gold buried in the blue

But even the mountains erode in the rain

A single spark can start a forest fire

Light one match and burn down the empire

There's gold buried in the blue

There's gold buried in the blue

--

Otsikko on erittäin apropos. Jostain syystä eilen illalla alkoi ahdistaa ihan saatanasti, meinaan ihan siihen pisteeseen asti, että meinasi perkele polvet pettää alta. Onneksi kuitenkin tällä kertaa se väsytti mut ja nukahdin aika helposti (vaikkakin noh... nukuin ihan helvetin pommiin ja missasin päivän ainoan luennon mutta eipä mitään), mutta seurauksena sitten tänään on särkeny joka paikkaa, etenkin jalkoja. Mulla aina seuraavana päivänä keho tuntuu tosi raskaalta kun on ensin ahistanu paljon.

Grief and sorrow

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - A Match Made in Heaven

Tell me was it all worth it, to watch your kingdom grow?

All the anchors in the ocean haven't sunk this low

Sunk this low

Rotten to the core

So who's left to count the cost?

Beneath the ruin lies a story of the lives lost

Now we're gone, left without a trace

But we took something they cannot replace

A match made in heaven

Paved the road to hell

We've been down this path before

Cold blooded retribution

So fuck your revolution

You chew up peace and spit it out as war

You've been feeding the wolf that's waiting at the door

You are rotten to the core

We found your fingerprints all over the trigger

If you're looking for tyrants, take a look in the mirror

You knew all along, that the cancer would spread

So don't be surprised to find a price on your head

Sorry son, but we destroyed your home

We murdered your family, now you're on your own

Collateral damage, face down in the sand

Watch the dominoes fall, it's all just part of the plan

A match made in heaven

Paved the road to hell

We've been down this path before

Cold blooded retribution

So fuck your revolution

A match made in heaven

Paved the road to hell

We've been down this path before

And every execution

The price of your collusion

You knew all along that the cancer would spread

So don’t be surprised to find a price on your head

Tell me was it all worth it to watch your kingdom grow?

All the anchors in the ocean haven't sunk this low

Sunk this low

You are rotten to the core

You are rotten to the core

You are rotten to the core

You are rotten to the core

--

One Morning Leftin uusin biisi tuli ulos tänään ja on muuten kova! Ai saatana kun mä en malta odottaa sitä uutta levyä!!

13th struggle

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Royal Beggars

Royal beggars, royal beggars

Do you, do you, do you wanna

Live forever, live forever

Alone, alone, alone?

'Cause we’re broken

All hope is dead, but we're coping

Somebody, save our souls

Like a bird in a cage, trying to fly away

Is this the price that we have to pay?

Overflowing with rage, yet we still obey

'Cause we’re asleep in a hurricane

Bitter lovers, bitter lovers

Let go, let go, let go 'cause it's

Now or never, now or never

Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in

'Cause we're choking

And left for dead, but we're coping

Somebody, save our souls

Like a bird in a cage, trying to fly away

Is this the price that we have to pay?

Overflowing with rage, yet we still obey

'Cause we're asleep in a hurricane

Are you listening? You may not have noticed

We have totally lost our way

Are you lost in the clouds? Or can you hold your focus?

It’s ourselves that we will betray

Are you listening? You may not have noticed

We have totally lost our way

Are you lost in the clouds? Or can you hold your focus?

It’s ourselves that we will betray

Like a bird in a cage, trying to fly away

Is this the price that we have to pay?

Overflowing with rage, yet we still obey

'Cause we’re asleep in a hurricane

We sit on a throne, waiting for god to bend the knee

But we're nothing more than royal beggars

Yeah

Blegh

But I'm as guilty as the next man

Our eyes are open, but we're not listening

--

Ellen väärin muista niin OML:n uusi biisi tipahtaa tänä perjantaina! Oon myös fiilaillu Architectsiä aika paljon viime aikoina, kuulostaa ihan älyttömän hyvältä!

Loneliness

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Hereafter

Now the oceans have drained out

Can I come up for air?

'Cause I've been learning to live without

And I'm fighting with broken bones

I wasn't ready for the rapture, we're only passing through

But these words, they mean nothing to me

I know that time will mend this fracture, I've been lost in a maze

And every route I take, leads right back to you

Now the oceans have drained out

Can I come up for air?

'Cause I've been learning to live without

And I'm fighting with broken bones

Now the skies have been blacked out

I've got to find my way

'Cause it's been raining but there's a drought

And I'm fighting with broken bones

I've been searching through the wreckage

But it's like standing in the eye of a storm

When will I finally get the message?

Some things are broken beyond repair

This is my cross to bear

My own meaningless catastrophe

I never had the time to prepare

Because I never knew that all my nightmares could come true

Now the oceans have drained out

Can I come up for air?

'Cause I've been learning to live without

And I'm fighting with broken bones

Now the skies have been blacked out

I've got to find my way

'Cause it's been raining but there's a drought

And I'm fighting with broken bones

I've spent my fair share

In the deepest depths of despair

'Cause I was too lost down there to care

I wasn't braced for the fallout

I wasn't braced for the fallout

I've been searching through the wreckage

But it's like standing in the eye of a storm

When will I finally get the message?

Some things are broken beyond repair

Now the oceans have drained out

Can I come up for air?

'Cause I've been learning to live without

And I'm fighting with broken bones

Now the skies have been blacked out

I've got to find my way

'Cause it's been raining but there's a drought

And I'm fighting with broken bones

Childish thoughts

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Animals

I do my best, but everything seems ominous

Not feeling blessed, quite the opposite

This shouldn't feel so monotonous

It never rains, but it pours

We're just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcome

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

Should I just pull the pin?

Should I just pull the pin?

I dug my heels, I thought that I could stop the rot

The ground gave way, now I've lost the plot

Fucked it again, that was all I've got

It never rains, but it pours

Life is just a dream within a

We'rе just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcomе

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

Buried under dirt, a diamond in the mud

Infinity is waiting there 'cause nobody can burn a glass cathedral

Dream within a, dream within a

We're just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcome

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

We're just a bunch of fucking animals

But we're afraid of the outcome

Don't cry to me because the fiction that we're living in

Says I should pull the pin

Should I just pull the pin?

Should I just pull the pin?

(Buried under dirt, a diamond in the mud)

Should I just pull the pin?

(Infinity is waiting there 'cause nobody can burn a glass cathedral)

Should I just pull the pin?

Heaven nor hell

 Song of the day;;

→ Architects - Doomsday

Remember when hell had frozen over?

The cold still burns underneath my skin

The water is rising all around me

And there is nothing left I can give

All these tears I've shed

I saw the wildfire spread

You said you cheated death

But heaven was in my head

They say the good die young

No use in saying what is done is done 'cause it's not enough

And when the night gives way

It's like a brand new doomsday

What will be will be

Every river flows into the sea, but it's never enough

And when the night gives way

It's like a brand new doomsday

No matter what they say

It's like a brand new doomsday

The embers still glow when I'm sober

The gold in the flame burns brighter now

I have to rebuild, now it's over

Maybe now I'm lost, I can live

Souls don't break, they bend

But I sometimes forget

I have to do this for you

And the only way out is through

Yeah, death is an open door

Words the prophets said

Still swimming through my head

Now there's no stars left in the sky

'Cause this well will never run dry

What if I completely forget?

What if I never accept?

'Cause when you fade away

It's like a brand new doomsday

Yeah

They say the good die young

No use in saying what is done is done 'cause it's not enough

And when the night gives way

It's like a brand new doomsday

What will be will be

Every river flows into the sea, but it's never enough

And when the night gives way

It's like a brand new doomsday

No matter what they say

It's like a brand new doomsday

--

Valehtelisin, jos väittäisin, ettei tää biisi vähän itketä mua.