BLOOD RED ROSES.

2018. Tähän mennessä varmaan oudoin vuosi mun elämässä. Tuntuu, että tänä vuonna on tapahtunut ihan sairaasti kaikkea. Osittain tuntuu myös siltä, että mä en tunne enää itseäni. En mä koe muuttuneeni esimerkiksi luonteeltani tai muuten, mutta jokin mussa on erilaista. Jokin tässä kaikessa on erilaista. Alkuvuonna mä olin vielä viettämässä välivuotta, ehkä vähän epävarmana siitä, mitä haluaisin tehdä. Hain töitä, en saanut mitään. Olin kotona ja ihan rehellisesti sanottuna en tehnyt elämälläni yhtikäs mitään. Pikkuhiljaa kuitenkin aloin tutkiskelemaan asioita, ja kun yhteishaut alkoi, olin jo aikalailla varma siitä, mitä haluan opiskella. Hain Joensuuhun ja Tampereelle. Suoritin myös alkuvuodesta autokoulun (kaiken sen sekoilun jälkeen se oli suoranainen ihme) ja sain ajokortin. En kyllä edelleenkään tykkää ajamisesta. Hommasin pääsykoekirjat ja aloin lukea. Alku sujui hyvin, mutta sitten alkoi puuroutua. En tiedä, johtuuko se siitä, etten oo koskaan tavallaan ''osannut

Song of the day;; → The National - Day I Die I don't need you, I don't need you Besides I barely ever see you anymore And when I do it feels you're only halfway there Young mothers love me even ghosts of Girlfriends call from Cleveland They will meet me anytime and anywhere The day I die, the day I die Where will we be? The day I die, the day I die Where will we be? Don't do this, I don't do this to you Don't expect me to enjoy it 'Cause I really don't have the courage not to turn the volume up inside my ears For years I used to put my head inside the speakers In the hallway when you get too high and talk forever The day I die, the day I die Where will we be? The day I die, the day I die Where will we be? The day I die, the day I die Where will we be? The day I die, the day I die Where will we be? I get a little punchy with the vodka just like my great uncle Valentine Jester did But he ha

Song of the day;; → The War On Drugs - Pain Go to bed now I can tell Pain is on the way out now Look away, a domino falls away I know it's hard lookin' in Knowin' that tomorrow you'll be back again Hang your head and let me in, I'm waitin' So long I was staring into the light When I saw you in the distance, I knew that you'd be mine Am I movin' back in time? Just standin' still? I met a man with a broken back He had a fear in his eyes that I could understand I can't even shake the pain without breakin' I've been pullin' on a wire, but it just won't break I've been turnin' up the dial, but I hear no sound I resist what I cannot change And I wanna find what can't be found I'm aware you're tired and lost Like a demon in a doorway, waiting to be born But I'm here all alone, just beggin' Pull me close and let me hold you in Give me the deeper u

Song of the day;; → Breaking Benjamin - Breakdown Breakdown Let the fun and games begin She is spayed and broken in Skin is cold and white Such a lovely lonely night Heaven is on the way You could feel the hate But I guess you never will I'm on a roll again And I want an end 'Cause I feel you creeping in What I found in this town I'm heading for a breakdown What's that sound, you're so loud I'm heading for a breakdown Drank up all my alcohol This is not a free for all I'll be there for you 'Til my heart is black and blue Heaven is on the way You could feel the hate But I guess you never will I'm on a roll again And I want an end 'Cause I feel you creeping in What I found in this town I'm heading for a breakdown What's that sound, you're so loud I'm heading for a breakdown What I found in this town I'm heading for a breakdown What's that so

Song of the day;; → Tokio Hotel - Leb Die Sekunde Ab heute sind die tage nur noch halb so lang  Zum lachen gibt es gar nichts mehr Gestern war vor 100 000 jahren  Morgen weiß das keiner mehr Ab heute wird die uhr durch'n countdown ersetzt Die sonne scheint auch in der nacht 'tschuldigung, ich hab mal eben nachgedacht Doch dafür ist jetzt wirklich Keine zeit, keine zeit, keine zeit, keine zeit Leb' die sekunde Hier und jetzt, halt sie fest Leb' die sekunde Hier und jetzt, halt sie fest Sonst ist sie weg, sonst ist sie weg  Ab heute gibt es jeden tag'ne neue welt Planeten sind im ausverkauf  Die ganze galaxie wird ruhig gestellt Und zeitraffer im schnelldurchlauf Scheiß auf gestern und erinner'dich an jetzt Bevor du es vergessen hast 'tschuldigung, ich hab mal drüber nachgedacht Doch dafür ist jetzt wirklich Keine zeit, keine zeit  Leb' die sekunde Hier und jetzt, halt sie fest Leb'die se

Song of the day;; → Sea Wolf - Intro

Song of the day;; → John Williams - Prologue

Song of the day;; → Peter Auty - Walking in the Air We're walking in the air We're floating in the moonlit sky The people far below are sleeping as we fly I'm holding very tight I'm riding in the midnight blue I'm finding I can fly so high above with you Far across the world The villages go by like trees The rivers and the hills The forests and the streams Children gaze open mouth Taken by surprise Nobody down below believes their eyes We're surfing in the air We're swimming in the frozen sky We're drifting over icy Mountains floating by Suddenly swooping low on an ocean deep Arousing of a mighty monster from its sleep We're walking in the air We're dancing in the midnight sky And everyone who sees us greets us as we fly -- Sanokaa mitä sanotte, mun mielestä tää alkuperäinen versio, joka on Lumiukossa, on paras versio tästä biisistä. Hyvää joulua kaikille! Huomasin tuossa, ett

Song of the day;; → Breaking Benjamin - Away Cold am I I'm beside myself Because there's no one else  Have I grown So blind Only god could save you If you knew your way to the light So fly away  And leave it behind Just stay awake There's nowhere to hide  I see you Cause you won't get out of my way I hear you Cause you won't quit screaming my name I feel you Cause you won't stop touching my skin  I need you They're coming to take you away Frail and dry  I could lose it all But I cannot recall  It's all wrong Don't cry Clear away this hate And we can start to make it alright So fly away And leave it behind Return someday With red in your eyes I see you Cause you won't get out of my way I hear you Cause you won't quit screaming my name I feel you Cause you won't stop touching my skin  I need you They're coming to take you away I see you Cause

Song of the day;; → Goratie - Despair

Song of the day;; → Hans Zimmer - Crysis 2 Intro

Song of the day;; → Tokio Hotel - Schrei Du stehst auf und kriegst gesagt wohin du gehen sollst Wenn du da bist hörst du auch noch was du denken sollst Danke das war mal wieder echt'n geiler tag Du sagst nichts und keiner fragt dich, sag mal willst du das Nein, nein, nein, nananana nein Nein, nein, nein, nananana nein Schrei, bist du du selbst bist Schrei, und wenn es das letzte ist Schrei, auch wenn es weh tut Schrei so laut du kannst Schrei, bist du du selbst bist Schrei, und wenn es das letzte ist Schrei, auch wenn es weh tut Schrei so laut du kannst, schrei Pass auf. rattenfänger lauern überall Verfolgen dich und greifen nach dir aus'm hinterhalt Versprechen dir alles wovon du nie geträumt hast Und irgendwann ist es zu spät und dann brauchst du das Nein, nein, nein, nananana nein Nein, nein, nein, nananana nein Schrei, bist du du selbst bist Schrei, und wenn es das letzte ist Schrei, auch wenn es weh tut Schre

Song of the day;; → Breaking Benjamin - Believe Don't tread the water Just stay still  I'll not be bothered By you until  I'm picking sides And pulling the strings I'm living lies And shedding the skin  I'm open wide And letting you in I'm wronging rights Believe I don't care what you want I just want mine Shut up Smart little bitch I don't need lies I don't care what you want I just want mine Get up Force it to fit Confined inside Don't pull me under Into the deep I often wonder How it should be I'm picking sides And pulling the strings I'm living lies And shedding the skin  I'm open wide And letting you in I'm wronging rights Believe I don't care what you want I just want mine Shut up Smart little bitch I don't need lies I don't care what you want I just want mine Get up Force it to fit Confined inside I don't

Song of the day;; → Nils Frahm - Ambre

Song of the day;; → Frank Churchill & Larry Morey - Overture - Snow White

Song of the day;; → Thirty Seconds To Mars - Up in the Air I've been up in the air, out of my head Stuck in a moment of emotion I destroyed Is this the end I feel? Up in the air, fucked up on life All of the laws I've broken, loves that I've sacrificed Is this the end, end, end, end? I'll wrap my hands around your neck so tight with love, love A thousand times I tempted fate A thousand times I played this game A thousand times that I have said today, today, today I've been up in the air, lost in the night I wouldn't trade an eye for your lies Your lust for my life Is this the end, hey? You were the love of my life, the darkness, the light This is a portrait of a tortured you and I Is this the, is this the, is this the end? I'll wrap my hands around your neck so tight with love, love, love A thousand times I tempted fate A thousand times I played this game A thousand times that I have said today,

Song of the day;; → Sylvain Chauveau - Pauvre Simon

Song of the day;; → Beach House - Dive Tell her something (Tell her something) Tell her nothing (Tell her nothing) Tell her that you waited And I know you like it So you try to hide it I was looking (I was looking) Out the window (Out the window) All the people waited Tell her something (Tell her something) Tell her nothing (Tell her nothing) Tell her that you waited And I know you like it So you try to hide it And I know I like it So I dive to find it Empires lost in confusion Golden hearts left of illusion You said my big imagination Shattered, flickered creation And hide over the ocean Waves crash in chemical motion Left of illusion Left of illusion

Song of the day;; → Bratz - Let's Get To It Let's get to it Everybody do it Everybody have some fun Let's get to it Everybody do it Everywhere and everyone Let's start it out Get into somethin' that we don't ever stop Let's get a little crazy That's what we need Do what we wanna do You know what I mean Let's get to it Everybody do it Everybody have some fun Let's get to it Everybody do it Everywhere and everyone Let's get to it Everybody do it Everybody turn it up Let's get to it Everybody do it Never gonna ever stop Let's, let's get to it Let's, let's do it Let's get to it What'cha waitin' for, waitin' for? You ready for a little more, little more? Got it goin' on Got the jammin' song Make you wanna get a little bit crazy Gonna have some fun C'mon, everyone Right here and now, you don't have to wait G

Song of the day;; → Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies Oh, well, imagine As I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor And I can't help but to hear No, I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words What a beautiful wedding, what a beautiful wedding, says a bridesmaid to the waiter And, yes, but what a shame, what a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore I chime in with a Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door No, it's much better to face these kinds of things With a sense of poise and rationality I chime in Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door No, it's much better to face these kinds of things With a sense of Oh, well, in fact Well, I'll look at it this way I mean technically our marriage is saved Well, this calls for a toast So, pour the champagne Oh, well, in fact Well, I'll look at it this way I mean technically our marriage is saved

Song of the day;; → Harold Budd - Foreshadowed

Song of the day;; → Cheryl Ann Fulton - Romanesca -- Tasan kaks viikkoa jouluaattoon! Mä olen ihan helvetin haipeissa, kai tekin ootte?

Song of the day;; → Hollywood Undead - Sell Your Soul I'm holding on so tightly now My insides scream so loud They keep watching, watching me drown How did it come to this? How did it come to this? How did I know it was you? It was a bad dream asphyxiated, watch me bleed The life support was cut, the knot was too tight They push and pull me, but they know they'll never win Throw it all away, throw it all away I keep on screaming, but there's really nothing left to say So get away, just get away I keep on fighting, but I can't keep going on this way I can't keep going, can't keep going on like this They make me sick and I get so sick of it 'Cause they won't let me, they won't let me breathe Why can't they let me be? Why can't they let me be? Why don't I know what I am? I force this hate into my heart 'cause it's my only friend My lips are sewn shut, I watch myself bleed They pu

Song of the day;; → Peter Sandberg - Borrowed Peace

Song of the day;; → James Newton Howard - Salamander Eyes

Song of the day;; → Bratz - Doin' It Right This is how we do what we do When we're doin' it right How we do what we do  When we're doin' it right This is how we do what we do When we're doin' it Bratz style, Bratz style Got a good thing and we know it Feelin' good and not afraid to show it, no Got my friends and we're ready We get the party started that can't stop This is how we do what we do When we're doin' it right How we do what we do  When we're doin' it right This is how we do what we do When we're doin' it Bratz style, Bratz style We're comin' on strong It's getting better We're turnin' it on, everybody feelin' alright Me and my friends, yeah, we're ready We get the party goin' that never stops This is how we do what we do When we're doin' it right How we do what we do  When we're doin' it right This is

Song of the day;; → Rise Against - Architects Are there no fighters left here anymore? Are we the generation we've been waiting for? Or are we patiently burning, waiting to be saved? Our heroes, our icons have mellowed with age Following rules that they once disobeyed They're now being led when they used to lead the way Do you still believe in all the things that you stood by before? (That you stood by before) Are you out there on the front lines, or at home keeping score? Do you care to be the layer of the bricks that seal your fate? (Bricks that seal your fate) Would you rather be the architect of what we might create? (Go) They laid out the blueprints They poured down a base Concrete solutions to slow our decay But when they are gone Who the fuck's gonna take their place? Yeah, will it be the cynic, the critics galore? The cliche apathetic, passed out on the floor The trusting complicit who collectively ignore

Song of the day;; → kent - Kärleken väntar Brinn pengar brinn Jag lovar du betyder nånting Du orkar ta dig igenom det här Du räcker till, så var den du är Brinn pengar brinn Jag vet att du är värd någonting Du är hoppet i ett IQ-fritt land Du är drömmarna jag drömmer ibland Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Brinn hjärtat brinn Du vet du kan förändra allting Det blåser genom staden i natt Hör du sanningen, den lät som ett skratt Brinn hjärtat brinn Vår fiende är rädd om sitt skinn Det räcker med en gnista ett bloss Dom skulle vilja vara som oss Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar Visst känns det som att kärleken väntar

Song of the day;; → Bedhead - Liferaft The bed at night is a life raft In the ocean of the dark I hang my hands over the sides Pray to God knows what Drifting somewhere in the black air Feeling only the blanket And the weight of the mattress The mistress of the sheets Too many successive nights of being miserable Give one the sense to sense the invisible I know you're in this room but the air is too thick The bed at night is a life boat A throne off which you can't be thrown I hang my hands and feet over the sides And go into the space of what can never be known

Song of the day;; → Rise Against - Help Is On The Way I have my mother's dreams I have my father's eyes You can't take that from me Just go ahead and try The crescent city sleeps While giants in the sky Preparing to unleash Let loose a mighty cry Can nobody save us? Will anyone try? The bayou is burning The cypress is dying And all along they're saying Help is on the way (They said, they said) Help is on the way (They said, they said) One by land, two by sea Right there in front of me Help is on the way Five thousand feet below As black smoke engulfs the sky The ocean floor explodes Eleven mothers cry My bones all resonate A burning lullaby You can't take that from me Just go ahead and try She stands at the shoreline With hands in the air Her words pierce the dark night Does anyone care? And all along they're saying Help is on the way (They said, they said) Help is on the wa

Song of the day;; → Queens of the Stone Age - The Way You Used To Do When I first met her she was seventeen Seventeen Jump like an arsonist to a perfect match Burned alive We run 'til no one could find us Girl, we outrun everyone But it doesn't matter now Just come and love me how Like the way you used to do Yeah Is love mental disease or lucky fever dream? Fine with either Gave birth to monsters who will terrorize normalcy, yeah They'll terrorise If the world exploded behind us I never noticed if it done Let nobody dare confine us I'll bury anyone who does But it doesn't matter now Just come and love me how Like the way you used to do Now The way you used to do My heart, a ding-a-ling A puppet on a string C'est la vie So lay your hands across my beating heart, love If the world exploded behind us I never noticed if it done Let nobody dare confine us I'll bury anyone who doe