BLOOD RED ROSES.

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - I Love You, I'm Going to Blow up Your School -- So. The new 'period'/'term' whatever starts in school tomorrow. I 'ave psychology, maths, religion, English and art, and my timetable is pretty easy so I think I'll manage. I 'ave the doctor's appointment next week and another one regarding my diabetes on the 10th of December. Fucking 'ell. I also managed to watch both of them movies last night, although School of Rock wasn't in Netflix anymore (I don't even know), but luckily I found it online. I'm afraid I'll 'ave to read some fanfiction later.... I'd also love to write something on my own, but I just can't start. I 'ave ideas and inspiration, but I'm just too... lazy.

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - Auto Rock -- Yes, we are going back to the instrumental songs for a while now. I don't know what to write. I want to watch a movie tonight, preferably after I've watched some Naruto. I'm torn between School of Rock and Stand By Me, both of which are among my favourite movies (don't judge me, they're awesome). I'd also like to write something, like a story or a poem or something, but I just... Can't start. It's doing my head in, for fuck's sake. I'm currently reading Metro 2033 and fucking hell, it's easily one of the best books I've ever read.

Song of the day;; → Foals - Olympic Airways Sun's up we wait All day Sun's up we wait All day all day The hell outside kept away If only we could move away From here This is how We build a place An aviary for today An aviary for today Let's disappear till tomorrow Let's disappear till tomorrow Dis-a-ppe-ar Dis-a-ppe-ar Dis-a-ppe-ar ar ar ar Blow up these play parades Let's go To an aviary far from home To an aviary far from home A one hand clap is me and you And you and you and you While the hell outside kept away If only we moved away Dis-a-ppe-ar Dis-a-ppe-ar Dis-a-ppe-ar ar ar ar Last vacation was the same We got moved away Last vacation was the same We got moved away Last vacation was the same We got moved away Sun down now we have built Our place An aviary forever An aviary forever Forever forever Re-a-ppe-ar Re-a-ppe-ar Re-a-ppe-ar R

Song of the day;; → Glasvegas - Daddy's Gone Oh oh, how you are my hero? Oh oh, how you're never here though? Remember times when you put me on your shoulders How I wish it was forever you would hold us Oh oh, right now I'm too young to know How in the future it will affect me when you go Oh oh, you could have had it all You, me and mum, you know, everything was possible I won't be the lonely one Sitting on my own and sad A fifty year old, reminiscing what I had I won't be the lonely one Sitting on my own and sad Forget your dad, he's gone, forget your dad, he's gone He's gone, he's gone He's gone, he's gone, ooh All I wanted was a kick about in the park For you to race me home when it was nearly getting dark How I could've been yours and you be mine It could've been me and you until the end of time Oh oh, do what you want, when you want Be as fucking insince

Song of the day;; → Baïkonour - Chiru -- I really love this one. Maths exam went okay I reckon, tomorrow I have a history essay, but it won't be hard since we can use computers and textbooks. Right now I'm a bit ticked off because a) I can't get online to a certain game and b) the new Degrassi episode isn't in YouTube yet. God I just want to see it!

Song of the day;; → Baïkonour - Ye Ama Piooo! -- Yeah, we'll continue with the instrumental tracks because while I love lyrics I really, really love instrumental tracks too. I have a maths exam tomorrow, I do not expect it to go well since I hate maths and I am not good at it.

Song of the day;; → Baïkonour - Summer Grass / Winter Worm -- Sorry for the Spotify track, mates, I couldn't find the song on YouTube. Anywho, it's another beautiful instrumental piece, damn, I just love them. I reckon I'll pass my physics exam, at least. I have a math exam on Wednesday. I haven't really slept these past three nights because I've felt really sick during the night, probably just stress, I reckon. And since I haven't slept well, I have a proper headache, again...

Song of the day;; → Archive - Sane Step by step, you're gonna make yourself feel better Buy, yeah, buy, you're gonna make yourself feel better Try, yeah, try, you're gonna make yourself feel ruthless More, yeah, more, you're gonna make yourself feel sane Can't stop looking and you can't stop taking it in Head's full, baby, but you can't stop taking it in Reach, yeah, reach, 'til your arms can't reach any longer More, yeah, more, you're gonna make yourself feel sane Numb it again Television's dead, but you can't stop taking it in Cover up your eyes, but you can't stop taking it in Dead, dead speech, yeah, you can't stop taking it in Speed it up, baby, you gotta make yourself feel sane Can't stop looking and you can't stop taking it in Head's full, baby, but you can't stop taking it in Reach, yeah, reach, 'til your arms can't reach any longer More,

Song of the day;; → The Sounds - No One Sleeps When I'm Awake I've seen people losing all of their faith Before they knew what they were looking for I swore I'd never ever do it again till this day Words are all I have to give to you You never seem to see it my way Standing in the shadows I hear, people say I got confessions to make, listen up No one sleeps when I'm awake The dreams I dream, the song I sing for you They're coming from my heart Is my message getting through? You know it hurt so bad, just like I knew that it would But I'd do it again, do it again if I could Do it again if I could I don't think you know what it's like You should be careful what you're wishing for And try to set your ego aside, you will find A false peace of mind You fall behind and everybody's getting tired of you Standing in the shadows I hear, people say I got confessions to make, listen up No one sleeps

Song of the day;;  → Sneaky Sound System - 16 Tell me if you want to say something Because I'm sitting here looking for clues 16 days I've been turning upside down Thinking of you Don't know if it was your intention But I'm lost, I'm feeling confused 16 days since you left my life I'm still looking for you I feel high just being with you Now I'm low, don't know where to go I'm just like you Don't know what to do I'm caught here in the middle of a life I can't leave but I want to I'm just like you Don't know what to do I'm caught here in the middle of a life I can't leave but I want to Don't know how to do it though Don't want to be caught in the middle But I don't want to be left on my own 16 weeks of emotional static It makes me feel like I'm hollow I just want to get your attention But I know that you're looking away 16 w

Song of the day;; → The xx - VCR You used to have all the answers And you, you still have them too And we, we live half in the daytime And we, we live half at night Watch things on VCRs With me and talk about big love I think we're superstars You say you think we are the best thing And you, you just know You just do I wanna find myself by the sea In anothers company By the sea I wanna go out to the pier I'm gonna dive and have no fear 'Cause you, you just know You just do Watch things on VCRs With me and talk about big love I think we're superstars You say you think we are the best thing And you, you just know You just do -- I have a philosophy exam tomorrow. It doesn't matter if I don't get a good grade - as long as I'll pass I'm fine with everything.

Song of the day;; → The Cinematic Orchestra - Familiar Ground How near How far How near, boy Tell me, how far How near Oh yes How far How near How far How near, how near, how near, how near How far, how far, how far, how far How near, how near, how near, how near How far, how far, how far, how far How far And how far Tell me how far -- God, I really hate myself. I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.

Song of the day;; → Air - Highschool Lover -- Another very beautiful (and oddly familiar considering that I have never seen Virgin Suicides) instrumental track. My exam week begins on Thursday, and that reminds me... I have to go and buy a psychology book before next week...

Song of the day;; → Trading Yesterday - For You Only Blinding darkness surrounds me And I am reaching for you only This hopelessness that drowns all that I believe Will be the one thing that I need For you only There's a hunger, it's slowly growing Chasing shadows but never knowing If all that I have done Is keeping me from you Can the arms of mercy bring the rescue To return to you? But I'm so far But I'm so far But I'm so far So far from home So far from home Keep on running farther, faster And keep on searching, for this haunting has an answer And I know you will find me in orbit For I am breathing only for this For you only For you only For you But I'm so far But I'm so far But I'm so far So far from home So far from home, yeah I'm so far, so far So far from home So far from home -- Well, at least now I have something to wait for (besides Chri

It's almost 0.00 and I have school tomorrow, but I decided to be, once again, pathetic and come vent about my insignificant little life. I wonder what's wrong with me. There's a part of me that wants to put myself out there, be social and, you know, do things. But then, there's a bigger part of me that wants to wrap tighter around myself, wants to crawl deeper into the shell I've built around myself. That part of me that doesn't want to do anything but lay down and die. And maybe it's just because I am... lonely, and maybe it's not. In a way, I like being alone and I want to be alone. But there's a difference. There's a difference between being lonely and being alone. I don't want a massive group of friends, I have never been any good with those. All I want is one person who doesn't leave me, who is willing to stick with me, who is willing just to be my friend. I reckon there aren't many of those. Hell, I reckon there aren't

Song of the day;; → Hellogoodbye - Stuck to You Holding my breath For a whole month If I held your breath At least we would touch Keeping from you Keeps me from sleep It's just this bad beat That I just can keep Oh girl, it's true I can never be away from you It's like you gloss your lips with glue Oh, we kiss and I am stuck to you My heart's on the floor My feet feel like lead I'd quit the tour But I'm already dead Our only connection is synthetically We show our affection electronically Oh girl, it's true I can never be away from you It's like you gloss your lips with glue Oh, we kiss and I am stuck to you We lock lips and throw the key out Till it slips that I must leave town Our love reaches Across oceans To your beaches Lonely notions Oh girl, it's true I can never be away from you It's like you gloss your lips with glue Oh, we kiss and I a

Song of the day;; → The Maccabees - Latchmere Swimming, swimming, swimming, swimming, swimming Just stay in your lanes Swimming, swimming, swimming, swimming, swimming Just stay in your lanes No bombing and no heavy petting So just stay in your lanes Verruca socks and not forgetting to Just stay in your lanes Madams and monsieurs, please return to your cubicles [x8] Latchmere's got a wave machine Came out of the changing room And absolutely nothing had changed So I stayed in your lane Came out of the changing room And absolutely fuck all had changed So I stayed in your lane Speedo, speed boy Speedo, speed boy Speedo, speed boy So I stayed in your lanes Bido bipop, bido bipop Bido bipop, bido bipop Bido bipop, bido bipop Bido bipop Bido bipop, bido bipop Madams and monsieurs, please return to your cubicles [x8] Latchmere's got a wave machine Stayed in your lanes, stayed Just st

Song of the day;; → Moby - Isolate -- A very beautiful instrumental piece, I must say. Also I survived today's trip, so I reckon I'm feeling okay at the moment. Although my head does indeed hurt again, but that can be fixed. I feel the immediate need to say that I find the title of this post (which is, by the way, a song by Elvenking) very beautiful. There's just something in it.

Song of the day;; → The Airborne Toxic Event - Wishing Well Standing on a bus stop Feeling your head pop Out in the night In the kind of night Where you want to be out On the street, on the street Crawling up the walls Like a cat in heat And the air is thin And it blows through your skin And you feel like something Is about to begin But you don't know what And you don't know when So you tear at your hair And you scratch at your skin You wanna run away, run away Just get on the fucking train and leave today And it doesn't matter where you spend the night You just might end up somewhere in a fight, in a fight Or calling your room on a concrete shelf Fighting all alone, with yourself, with yourself And you just wanna feel like a coin that's been tossed In a wishing well, a wishing well A wishing well, a wishing well Well, you're tossed in the air And you fell and you fell Through the dark blue wat

Song of the day;; → Radiohead - There, There In pitch dark I go walking in your landscape Broken branches Trip me as I speak Just 'cause you feel it Doesn't mean it's there Just 'cause you feel it Doesn't mean it's there There's always a siren Singing you to shipwreck (Don't reach out, don't reach out Don't reach out, don't reach out) Steer away from these rocks We'd be a walking disaster (Don't reach out, don't reach out Don't reach out, don't reach out) Just 'cause you feel it Doesn't mean it's there (Someone on your shoulder Someone on your shoulder) Just 'cause you feel it Doesn't mean it's there (Someone on your shoulder Someone on your shoulder) There, there Why so green and lonely? Lonely, lonely Heaven sent you to me To me, to me We are accidents waiting Waiting to happen We are accidents wait

Song of the day;; → Doves - The Greatest Denier The English skyline Falls down to the future No one noticed In this Empire 'Cause I'm the greatest denier And I will cut you if you look The English bloodline Clashes in the sun No one noticed We are coming down Well, I'm the greatest denier But I can cut you with a look Clashes in the sun Don't speak of it I'm the greatest denier I was the greatest denier And I can cut you with a look Clashing in the sun Start a revolution Couldn't sleep since then Wake you up when we're done -- I have a history essay tomorrow. It's going to go fine, I suppose. However I have to go on a trip on Friday, the whole school's going. I don't know if I should laugh or cry since I'm already thinking of all the ways I could skip the trip.

Song of the day;; → The Airborne Toxic Event - The Girls in Their Summer Dresses It's so quiet on this wind swept day The city's lights And the golden rays Of sunlight on a subway's tracks Are you mad again? If you like I'll take it back They're just your feelings I wasn't looking at her hands Oh, do you mean it? It's so lonesome in ''this happens'' stance If you asked me Yes, I'd like to dance Just show me a glove-covered hand A perfumed dress is more than I can stand And you approach me with your hollow hearted hand And you tell me It's uncivilized It's unfair to me The blues, the grays, the olive greens I'll take you far away from me The girls in their summer dresses see Though you don't notice They all look back at me Is this on purpose? Oh no, no, no May I offer to you This, my olive branch? It's not as though they're always so

Song of the day;; → Empire of the Sun - We Are the People We can remember swimming in December Heading for the city lights in 1975 We share in each other Nearer than farther The scent of a lemon drips from your eyes We are the people that rule the world A force running in every boy and girl All rejoicing in the world Take me now, we can try We lived an adventure Love in the Summer Followed the sun till night Reminiscing other times of life For each every other The feeling was stronger The shock hit eleven, got lost in your eyes I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave But I know I try Are you gonna leave me now? Can't you be believing now? I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave But I know I try Are you gonna leave me now? Can't you be believing now? Can you remember and humanise? It was still where we'd energised Lie in the sand and visualise Like it's &#

Song of the day;; → White Lies - Death I love the feeling when we lift off Watching the world so small below I love the dreaming when I think of The safety in the clouds out my window I wonder what keeps us so high up Could there be a love beneath these wings? If we suddenly fall, should I scream out Or keep very quiet and cling to my mouth? As I'm crying, so frightened of dying Relax, yes, I'm trying But fear's got a hold of me Yes, this fear's got a hold of me Yes, this fear's got a hold of me I love the quiet of the nighttime When the sun is drowning in the deathly sea I can feel my heart beating as I speed from The sense of time catching up with me The sky's set out like a pathway But who decides which route we take? As people drift into a dreamworld I close my eyes as my hands shake And when I see a new day Who's driving this anyway? I picture my own grave, 'cause fear'

Song of the day;; → Empire of the Sun - Standing on the Shore Standing on the shore Waiting for the ship in call There's something in the way I move That keeps them on their own The stars explodes a storm A billion seasons born A shock to the waves I know Breaking far from shore Don't want to talk All I hear is noise Don't want to talk The future's in my hands I hold it in my palms Engrave it the leylines Running right down her arms Speak in silent tongues Lies reflect the times The ghosts and the shadows Fill the living scene Don't want to talk All I hear is noise Don't want to talk

Song of the day;; → Metric - Sick Muse Watch out Cupid Stuck me with a sickness Pull your little arrows out And let me live my life You better watch out Cupid Stuck me with a sickness Pull your little arrows out Let me live my life The one I better lead All the blondes of fantasies And we looked at them eleven ways You said look at me, I looked away You wrote the song I wanna play I'll write you harmony in C Everybody, everybody just wanna fall in love Everybody, everybody just wanna play the lead Everybody, everybody just wanna fall in love Everybody, everybody just wanna play the lead, play the lead, play the lead Watch out Cupid Money is a sick muse Pull your little arrows out And let me live my life She said I'm with stupid Money is a sick muse Pull your little arrows out Let me live my life The one I better lead All the blondes of fantasies And we looked at them eleven ways You sai

Song of the day;; → Bat For Lashes - Travelling Woman Hang on, travelling woman Don't sacrifice your plan 'Cause it will come back to you Before you lose it on to the man Never fall in love with potential 'Cause you can't see with your own eyes All the pretty faces and sorry words Can take away your pride Got to listen to the vision Some may say a dream Words from the unseen Or it can make you tired Tell you lies, make you fall Make you tired Tell you lies, make you fall Make you tired Tell you lies, make you fall Hang on, travelling woman Don't sacrifice your plan 'Cause it will come back to you Before you lose it on to the man Got to listen to the vision Play in the ashes Of what you once were Got to listen to the vision Play in the ashes Of what you once were -- Just watched Wise Up. I have to say, these first episodes look better than all of series 13 put togethe

Song of the day;; → Hurts - Illuminated Time waits for no one So do you want to waste some time Oh, oh tonight? Don't be afraid of tomorrow Just take my hand, I'll make it feel so much better tonight Suddenly my eyes are open Everything comes into focus, oh We are all illuminated Lights are shining on our faces, blinding Swing me these sorrows And try delusion for a while It's such a beautiful lie You've got to lose inhibition Romance your ego for a while Come on, give it a try Suddenly my eyes are open Everything comes into focus, oh We are all illuminated Lights are shining on our faces, blinding We are, we are blinded We are, we are blinded Suddenly my eyes are open Everything comes into focus, oh We are all illuminated Lights are shining on our faces, blinding We are, we are blinded We are, we are blinded -- Again, not a song I would normally listen to but I heard this on some v

Song of the day;; → Ivri Lider - Jesse I love a boy named Jesse But Jesse doesn't love me back He says he has a girl in Chelsea he wants so much I love a boy named Jesse But Jesse doesn't love me back He says he's insecure about what he feels and what he wants What he feels and what he wants But every time he smiles at me I know we are the same And that he'll change his world for me If he just knew my name There's no need for you to say you saw the life they chose for me For me I love a boy named Jesse But Jesse doesn't love me back He wants to kiss and go to bed but he doesn't want to talk I love a boy named Jesse But Jesse doesn't love me back He says he's straight and all that stuff is only in my mind Only in my mind All I can hide I'm doing fine Bit every time he smiles at me I know we are the same And that he'll change his world for me If he