BLOOD RED ROSES.

Song of the day;; → The Messenger Birds - Phantom Limb Some days I sit and stare Watching a world that's hardly there I try to look away, but my eyes are glued It all keeps coming back to you Sometimes you hold the knife too close Put faith in what you barely know It seems so easy now just to fall apart And give it all back to the dark I thought, you thought we knew it We got ourselves into this Now I can't shake this feeling It keeps adding up, keeps stacking up I finally found a meaning There doesn't need to be a reason So just put the pieces where you need them to go Gentle ain't hard enough But anymore is just too much I know you think you ruin everything you touch So you abandon what you love I thought, you thought we knew it We got ourselves into this Now I can't shake this feeling It keeps adding up, keeps stacking up I finally found a meaning There doesn't need to be a reason So just put

Noin vuosi sitten, melkein täsmälleen samaan kellonaikaan, mä kirjoittelin tänne postauksen, jossa kävin läpi ekan yliopistosyksyn juttuja, ja yleisesti vuotta 2018. Nyt ois kai aika tehdä vähän samaa vuoden 2019 ajalta. Jos alotetaan alkuvuodesta, niin muutin silloin tosiaan toisen kämppikseni sekä yhden toisen tytön kanssa uudeen asuntoon lähemmäs yliopistoa. Meillä on sujunut ihan kivasti, mutta välillä musta on tuntunut todella ulkopuoliselta, koska mun kämppikset opiskelee samaa alaa, ja luonnollisesti he myös juttelevat opinnoistaan sun muusta paljon. Etenkin loppukevättä kohden mua alkoi ahdistaa todella paljon, joten vetäydyin usein omiin oloihini, en liittynyt keskusteluihin enkä ollut kovin puhelias muutenkaan. Usein mun päivät menikin sit siihen, että itkin huoneessani aamun pikkutunneille asti, joskus myös itsetuhoisesti ahdistustani purkaen. Me kuitenkin juteltiin asiasta, ja sen jälkeen meillä on mennyt paremmin. Mä olen itse ihan tietoisesti, etenkin nyt syksyllä, yritt

Song of the day;; → The Clash - London Calling London calling to the faraway towns Now war is declared, and battle come down London calling to the underworld Come out of the cupboard, you boys and girls London calling, now don't look to us Phoney Beatlemania has bitten the dust London calling, see we ain't got no swing Except for the ring of that truncheon thing The ice age is coming, the sun's zooming in Meltdown expected, the wheat is growing thin Engines stop running, but I have no fear 'Cause London is drowning, and I live by the river London calling to the imitation zone Forget it brother, you can go it alone London calling to the zombies of death Quit holding out, and draw another breath London calling, and I don't wanna shout But while we were talking, I saw you nodding out London calling, see we ain't got no high Except for that one with the yellowy eyes The ice age is coming, the sun's zooming i

Song of the day;; → CHVRCHES - Death Stranding Let's make a toast to the damned Waitin' for tomorrow When we're played out by the band Drowning out our sorrows What will become of us now at the end of time? We'll be fine, you and I Let's draw a line in the sand Keep it straight and narrow We had it all in our hands We begged and then we borrowed What will become of us all at the end of love When we've stopped looking up? You can take my heart And hold it together as we fall apart Maybe together we can make a mark in the stars we embark And keep us together as the lights go dark Let's tell the truth, just for once Asking for an answer Now that it's all said and done Nothing really matters What will become of us all if we dare to dream At the end of the scene? You can take my heart Hold it together as we fall apart Maybe together we can make a mark in the stars we embark And keep us togethe

Song of the day;; → Survive Said The Prophet - MUKANJYO To sink or swim, ikinokoru tame ni Dog-eat-dog world, da to iikikase What went wrong? Survival of the fittest, jakuniku kyoushoku If it’s the world that our wisdom will lead Well, tell me what went wrong I’ve paid my dues I’ve sold my soul So tell me, what is left for me When I’ve given up everything? Nee, dou egaitetan darou? Dono keshiki wo mitemo Nanimo kanjinakunatta yo Nee, kangaenaoshitemo Ano keshiki wo motometeita Boku wa mu kanjou na no? Tsuyoi to iwareru mono ni wa Sekinin to iu na no kusari wo tsuke What went wrong? Yowai to iwarete kita hitotachi wa Tada fumitsubusarete iku yo no naka What went wrong? We've paid our dues We've sold our souls So tell me, what is left for us When we've given up everything? Nee, dou egaitetan darou? Dono keshiki wo mitemo Nanimo kanjinakunatta yo Nee, kangaenaoshitemo Ano keshiki wo motometeita Bo

Song of the day;; → The Smiths - Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour But heaven knows I'm miserable now I was looking for a job, and then I found a job And heaven knows I'm miserable now In my life Why do I give valuable time To people who don't care if I live or die Two lovers entwined pass me by And heaven knows I'm miserable now I was looking for a job, and then I found a job And heaven knows I'm miserable now In my life Why do I give valuable time To people who don't care if I live or die What she asked of me at the end of the day Caligula would have blushed You've been in the house too long, she said And I naturally fled In my life Why do I smile At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour But heaven knows I'm miserable now You've been in the house too long, she said And I naturally fled In my life Why do I give valuab

Song of the day;; → Gunship & Stella Le Page - Art3mis & Parzival Lights go out over my town Back to the midnight oasis with you Saving the world, that’s tough but let’s give it a shot 'Til you tell me game over Feel this chaotic connection with you The world outside is overrated Better hanging with you all night When we’re fighting the same fight Dreaming the same dreams tonight And you know I won’t go letting you down There’s a mountain of fire I will meet you there Into the dark, I’m coming home Through the mountain of fire With glass eyes and digital water Through the shadows, I’m coming home We’re all gonna die, that’s just how it is There’s no escaping the future Nobody gets what they want in this world Even for you and me Never felt at home in reality Always hide behind avatars But we’re fighting the same fight Dreaming the same dreams tonight And you see I won’t be letting you down There’s a mountain of fire I will meet you ther

Song of the day;; → ONE OK ROCK - Clock Strikes What waits for you? What's breaking through? Nothing for good You're sure it's true? 永遠なんてないと言い切ってしまったら (If you say there's no forever) あまりにも寂しくて　切ないでしょ？ (You would be lonely and in pain) 誰もが本当は信じたいけど (Everyone actually wants to believe) 裏切られれば深く傷ついてしまうモノ (But betrayal may leave a deep wound) 永遠がある世界が理想ではなく (You keep on believing that) ソレを信じ、続けている姿 (A world with forever is not a utopia) それこそ僕らが望むべき世界 (If we could realise that) と気づくことができたなら・・・ (This is the true world we wish for) What will we have? Believe that time is always forever and I'll always be here Believe it till the end I won't go away and won't say never It doesn't have to be friend You can keep it till the end ためしに永遠なんて無いと言い切ろう (If we keep saying that there's no forever) そしたら希望や夢はいくつ死ぬだろう (Then how many opes and dreams would die?) ソレが存在しない事の絶望と (Thinking about the despair if forever do

Song of the day;; → Duran Duran - Save a Prayer You saw me standing by the wall Corner of the main street And the lights are flashing on your window sill All alone ain't much fun So you're looking for the thrill And you know just what it takes and where to go Don't say a prayer for me now Save it 'til the morning after No, don't say a prayer for me now Save it 'til the morning after Feel the breeze deep on the inside Look you down into your well If you can, you'll see the world in all his fire Take a chance Like all dreamers can't find another way You don't have to dream it all, just live a day Don't say a prayer for me now Save it 'til the morning after No, don't say a prayer for me now Save it 'til the morning after Save it 'til the morning after Save it 'til the morning after Pretty looking road Try to hold the rising floods that fill my skin Don't ask me why I'll keep my promise

Song of the day;; → Christos Konstantinidis - State of Existence -- Huomenna on jouluaatto!!!

Song of the day;; → Falling In Reverse - Popular Monster I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressing rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monst

Song of the day;; → The Neighbourhood - Wiped Out! Lost and afraid Young and innocent but getting older I don't wanna be alone I don't wanna be alone Sharper the blade is The easier it scars your soul I don't wanna be alone I don't wanna be alone My current state is heavy Hope it's a phase or something Don't let me go Up and away, I'm an alien I need a moment I don't know what to believe All I wanna do is leave What can I say that would make you see Make you need me? Maybe I won't ever know Maybe I'll end up alone Running in place Circles, in circles with you Don't mind me Out in the rain I didn't mean to be here Watch me go I don't wanna let you down So promise you won't let me drown How can you feel the way that I'm feeling If you're not inside my head? I got the pressure that's pushing my buttons And making me think about death I got some m

Song of the day;; → Night Riots - Fangs Shadows follow me, but she's always out of reach But she's my favourite thing to see Her hook is my escape, affliction of my fate And she's everything I need, yeah So stick your fangs, fangs, fangs, into me Only for you, you, you, I'll bleed Can't you see, that you can set me free So stick your fangs, fangs, fangs, into me Without her in a gloom, cold sweating in my tune If she was only here with me She used to pale blushing moon to cast sun into my room She is the only light I need, yeah So stick your fangs, fangs, fangs, into me Only for you, you, you, I'll bleed Can't you see, that you can set me free So stick your fangs, fangs, fangs, into me Hear me call I will wait, if you will wait, for Hear me call I will wait, if you will wait, for Hear me call I will wait, but you will wait, for Hear me call I will wait, I will wait So stick your fangs, fangs,

Song of the day;; → Hollywood Undead - Time Bomb I'm a social casualty, watching all your vanity You'll become a memory in someone else's legacy, yeah Fuck a trendsetter, social pressure's the enemy Someone else's life is becoming your identity I walk the line one step at a time All these motherfuckers tryna keep me in line This pressure I can't take, any more and I'll break You'll crumble in my wake, better listen when I say There's gotta be a way Something's gotta change Something's gotta change And now I swear I'm blind Looking for the light I can never find I just wanna live before I die Over and over in my mind And I cannot seem to run, cannot seem to fight I just wanna live before I die Over and over in my mind Over and over in my mind Fuck what the people say, I'm hearing evil things On bloody knees, I pray, my demons, they got angel wings It's retribution now, the re

Song of the day;; → Arcade Fire - The Suburbs In the suburbs I I learned to drive And you told me we'd never survive Grab your mother's keys, we're leavin' You always seemed so sure That one day we'd be fighting In a suburban war Your part of town against mine I saw you standing on the opposite shore But by the time the first bombs fell We were already bored We were already, already bored Sometimes I can't believe it I'm movin' past the feeling Sometimes I can't believe it I'm movin' past the feeling again Kids wanna be so hard But in my dreams we're still screamin' and runnin' through the yard And all of the walls that they built in the seventies finally fall And all of the houses they built in the seventies finally fall Meant nothin' at all Meant nothin' at all It meant nothin Sometimes I can't believe it I'm movin' past the feeling Sometime

Song of the day;; → Amelia van Hootens - Angels We Have Heard on High

Song of the day;; → Bring Me The Horizon - Ludens Some resist the future, some refuse the past Either way, it's messed up if we can't unplug the fact That a world covered in cables was never wired to last So don't act so surprised when the program starts to crash (How do I) Form a connection when we can't even shake hands? You're like the phantom greeting me We plot in the shadows, hang out in the gallows Stuck in a loop for eternity Do you know why the flowers never bloom? Will you retry or let the pain resume? I need a new leader, we need a new Luden (A new Luden, new Luden, yeah) So come outside, it's time to see the tide It's out of sight, but never out of mind I need a new leader, we need a new Luden Sticks and stones may break my bones, but soon the sting will pass But names can dig so many graves you won't know where to stand And I don't feel secure no more unless I'm being followed And th

Song of the day;; → Local Natives - Dark Days Finally what you came for Finally what you hoped to find Racing home from her house Looking out for black and white Dark days in the summer A million ways to tow the line Can't wait holy other Might as well be the seventh son Ooh, it goes hand in hand With fear for the afterlife Ooh, how can we fight it Fight it if we don't even know why? While the dollar is strong While nobody else relies When they turn the corner When you know we're out of sight Dark days in the summer In the rain the water's fine It was wild combination Either that or right down the line Ooh, it goes hand in hand With fear for the afterlife Ooh, how can we fight it Fight it if we don't even know why? I've been on the way, I've been on the way I've been on my way for so long I've been on the way, I've been on the way I've been on my way for so long

Song of the day;; → Richard Strauss, Berliner Philharmoniker & Herbert von Karajan - Also sprach Zarathustra, Op.30: 1. Prelude (Sonnenaufgang)

Song of the day;; → Eskimo Callboy - Supernova (Piano Version) Floatin' in a room With no feet on the ground Got the weight of the world That's tryin' to force me down See the silver linings Glowing circles of light Will you show me what's up there At the end of the sky There's a part of me Losing gravity I don't wanna wait all my life In a state of in between You are a part of me 'Cause you're my supernova You are the light I need To die and start over I better burn my wings And get lost to be found Than to stay here forever With my dreams all around The fears I have beaten They can't do me no harm I got rid of my anchor Just before I'm to drown There's a part of me Losing gravity I don't wanna wait all my life In a state of in between You are a part of me 'Cause you're my supernova You are the light I need To die and start over To die and start

Song of the day;; → Cigarettes After Sex - Sunsetz Sun sets, we wander through a foreign town Strangely, there's nobody else around So you open your dress and show me your tits On the swing set at the old playground And when you go away, I still see you The sunlight on your face in the rear view Sun sets, I want to hear your voice A love that nobody could destroy Took photographs like Brautigan's book covers That we both adored And when you go away, I still see you The sunlight on your face in my rear view This always happens to me this way Recurring visions of such sweet days And when you go away, I still see you The sunlight on your face in my rear view When you go away, I still see you The sunlight on your face in my rear view

Song of the day;; → IAMX - Mile Deep Hollow Now we're floating like two feathers In the sunlight and the dust of California And you no longer have to carry me We are exactly where I wanted us to be No more hesitation Nothing will ever divide us again No more energy wasted On the temper of our time Just the truth and the sublime So thank you You need to know That you dragged me out Of a mile deep hollow And I love you You brought me home 'Cause you dragged me out Of a mile deep hollow We threw our past in the Atlantic And those eleven days remain in our tool kit We took our chances with the desert life Even though we got lost along the way in our own minds We took all the blows Searching for purity We put an end to all The beating up ourselves And the walking on eggshells So thank you You need to know That you dragged me out Of a mile deep hollow And I love you You brought me home 'Cause you d

Song of the day;; → Eskimo Callboy - Lost I feel like a reject I feel like a reject I feel like a reject All the pretty little things That you say and do I feel like a reject And the look in your eyes That I can't let go I feel like a reject Too many times I haven't been with you You never left You always stood by my side I, I, I Every time I realise That it feels like heaven 'Cause hell is ending When we unite Just you and I And again and again and again I'm coming home 'Cause I don't want to just Drift away Just drift away And again and again and again I'm coming home 'Cause I don't want to just Drift away Just drift away I feel like a reject I feel like a reject Every time that I leave I would rather stay I feel like a reject 'Cause I'm missing all the things That I can't replay I feel like a reject Too many times I thought about leaving

Song of the day;; → Radiohead - Videotape When I'm at the pearly gates This'll be on my videotape My videotape When Mephistopheles is just beneath And he's reaching up to grab me This is one for the good days And I have it all here in Red blue green, in Red blue green You are my centre when I spin away Out of control on videotape On videotape On videotape On videotape On videotape On videotape This is my way of saying goodbye Because I can't do it face to face So I'm talking to you before No matter what happens now You shouldn't be afraid Because I know Today has been the most perfect day I've ever seen

Song of the day;; → Therapie TAXI - Candide Crush Je suis si sage, sage, d’habitude, mon chéri Comme une image-mage de lassitude dans la vie Mais tu m’as braqué, je crois ce soir-là Et j’ai trouvé la flamme dans tes pas Je fuis les mâles, mâles sur le dancefloor tard le soir Jamais d'écart car tout fait peur dans le noir Et tu m'as sauvée de l'ennui, c'est sûr Et j'ai fondu sous tes yeux d'azur Tu es spectaculairement beau Et je suis prisonnière de ta peau Et j'ai des centaines de flèches dans le cœur (Tu m'entends, tu m'entends?) Et j'ai des millions d'envie de te plaire (vraiment, vraiment) Flirt, je m'allume, on devient insouciants Sur le bitume, on sourit un instant Ta gueule d'ange, ange coiffée de lueur tout d'un coup Sourire étrange, ange, et la lumière devient floue Mais tu m'as volé je crois cette nuit-là Toute ma candeur de femme sans émoi Je fuis les bals, bals, quand tu pousses à la faut

Song of the day;; → Eskimo Callboy - Made by America We're the kids that are made by America Sold dreams, cashed in for hysteria Nothing more than a worthless replica We're the kids that are made by America Everybody is part of a system Everybody need a faith to believe in Sky high, but we'll never reach the ceiling We're cashed in on the game that we're dealing Tell me that you feel it Tell me that you need it This commercialism feeds a need for our wishes Everything's alright Everything is fine Never gonna ask for an answer What a wonderful life We're the kids that are made by America Run by another Everyone tries to be the next superstar On the magazine cover We're users, we're abusers We are more than the past and the future We're the kids that are made by America Made by America! We're the kids that are made by America Sold dreams, cashed in for hysteria Nothing more than

Song of the day;; → Perfume Genius - Alan Did you notice We sleep through the night Did you notice, babe Everything is alright You need me Rest easy I'm here How weird Thought I'd hide Maybe leave something Secret behind Never thought I'd sing outside You need me Rest easy I'm here How weird -- Hyvää itsenäisyyspäivää kaikille!

Song of the day;; → Mae Ji-Yoon - Vibrations

Song of the day;; → Eskimo Callboy - Okay They left me here abandoned I feel like I'm stranded They say I'm better off without 'em 'Cause I never ever really in They tell me go and let your life end Could it be darker than in my head? They say, why you never fight back? I let it go, 'cause I already know It's gonna be okay I push it all away 'Cause I'm gonna be on top again And when my world is down I'm turning it around Then I'm gonna be on top again It's gonna be okay I push it all away 'Cause I'm gonna be on top again And when my world is down I'm turning it around Then I'm gonna be on top again Too many times I've held back And left the necessary unsaid But I know you wouldn't notice If I told you what the truth is So I yell it in your face loud Your hate is nothing more than self-doubt And I don't need to fight back I let it go, 'cause I al

Song of the day;; → Day Wave - Something Here I'm laying around My head on the ground I feel that I'm sinking in I'm walking around I look at the ground I feel like they're listening There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's nothing to say So keep from my way I feel that nothing's real Turning around To touch the ground I feel that nothing's real There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy I'm laying around My head on the ground I feel that I'm sinking in I'm walking around I look at the ground I feel like they're listening There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy

Song of the day;; → Rand Aldo - Morning Lagoon