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Song of the day;;


When I close my eyes and I try to sleep
The weight of the world falls down on me
It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Sick, inside of bed, infected with the feelings
Staring up like my dreams were projected on the ceiling
I can see it, I want the money and the fame too
They told me when you get it, never let it change you
And finally I've morphed into everything I tried to be
The fucking irony is everybody's got their eye on me
Society quickly became my rivalry
Driving me off the deep end, then doubt starts to creep in
Fairweather, they're never there, do I need friends? We eating
But will they stick around when the feast ends?
You say you love me when it's glitter and gold
But when it's bitter and cold, would you deliver my soul?
Oh, just cut me out the picture and roll?
Love is pain and it's taking its toll, feel like I've wasted my whole life
Always working, searching for some shit
Trying to live a life that's perfect when perfect don't exist

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep
The weight of the world falls down on me
It's all just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Spent my whole life chasing after dreams
But every dream turns out to be
Just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Help me, no, I can't help myself
Help me to believe that I'm somebody else
Not some fucking addict who can't dream 'cause his habits
Are chopped up on a table till he screams let me have it
Fuck it, what's a life anyway, huh?
You hear about that kid who died again today, huh?
I'd pull my fucking guts out just to make you understand
That I've become a ghost, I am a ghost, I'm not a man
Why can't I fucking say it? They'd say that I'm insane
But in a song they'll play it 'cause they understand the pain
What the fuck is going on? Who am I?
Life is just so fucking long, I wanna
Forgive me, don't forget me, believe you can protect me
It's just a song, I'm venting with the verse that's never-ending
And I have finally lost, the world has finally won
Dear god, did you forget your son?

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep
The weight of the world falls down on me
It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Spent my whole life chasing after dreams
But every dream turns out to be
Just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare
Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Can't find a reason why, don't know why I even try
I pray when I sleep at night, so at least I'll die a decent guy
When I look in the mirror and say hi, I can't look me in the eye
We're both ashamed of the guy on the other side
Can't find my peace and quiet, some things are better left in silence
It's me who needs some guidance, or maybe what I need is violence
When I'm having a meltdown, can't ask for help now
Got so much self-doubt that I weird myself out, can you help out?
So many selfish phobias like self-inflicted loneliness
Sometimes I get so low in this empty search for holiness
Can't seem to find a reason why, I don't know why I even try
These demons, they won't let me sleep at night, they're killing my dreams, they need me to die
But fuck it, I got nothing left to say
We're all gonna die anyway
Shit could happen to me any day
I just spit thirty-two and didn't say a damn thing

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