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Song of the day;; → Christophe Beck - Paperman -- Oli tarkotus laittaa ihan toinen biisi, mutta kone meni haista vittu-tilaan eikä mulla oo aikaa nyt sen kanssa kikkailla, joten tässä tämmönen mukava, nätti filleribiisi täks päiväks.

Song of the day;; → Sonic Syndicate - All About Us They say they don't trust You, me, we, us So we'll fall if we must 'Cause it's you, me And it's all about, it's all about It's all about us, all about us It's all about, all about us, all about us And that's the thing that they can't touch It's all about us, all about us It's all about, all about us, all about us We'll run away if we must 'Cause you know It's all about us  (It's all about us) It's all about love (It's all about us) In you I can trust It's all about us If they hurt you They hurt me too So we'll rise up, won't stop And it's all about, it's all about It's all about us, all about us It's all about, all about us, all about us And that's the thing that they can't touch It's all about us, all about us It's all about, all about us, all about

Song of the day;; → Bring Me The Horizon - True Friends I wouldn't hold my breath if I was you 'Cause I'll forget but I'll never forgive you Don't you know, don't you know? True friends stab you in the front It's funny how things work out Such a bitter irony Like a kick right to the teeth It fell apart right from the start But I couldn't even see the forest for the trees (I'm afraid you asked for this) You got a lot of nerve but not a lot of spine You made your bed when you worried about mine This ends now I wouldn't hold my breath if I was you 'Cause I'll forget but I'll never forgive you Don't you know, don't you know? True friends stab you in the front I wouldn't hold my breath if I was you You broke my heart and there's nothing you can do And now you know, now you know True friends stab you in the front It's kind of sad 'cause what we had Well, i

Nyt kun koulua on mennyt se pari viikkoa sunnilleen, on hyvä miettiä, mitä onkaan tullu tehtyä ja mitä ei, ja vielä tärkiämpänä mitä helvettiä tässä oikiastaan pitäisikään tehdä. On selvää, että hyvin suuri osa näistä asioista liittyy kouluun, mutta onpa niitä sit sellaisiakin mukana, jotka liittyy johonkin ihan muuhun. Mulla oli tänään verikoe, enkä mä ole ihan satavarma, että mitä ne sieltä tällä kertaa kurkkii, mutta toivon, että kaikki ois reilassa kuten aina ennenkin. Mulla on ens perjantaina siirtoaika KYS:issä, mikä meinaa sitä, että mä siirryn aikuisten osastolle tän diabeteksen suhteen (tuo nimittäin kuulostaa siltä, niin kuin mua olisi kärräämässä johonkin suljetulle). Tavallaan se tuntuu vähän haikialta, koska mä olen käynyt tuolla lasten osastolla melkein 12 vuotta ja kaikki lääkärit ja hoitajat on tullu tutuiks. En mä haluaisi vielä siirtyä mihinkään, missä ollaan niin jumalattoman vakavia ja mistä kaikesta pitää osata keskustella kypsästi ja virallisesti. En mä koe o

Song of the day;; → Nightwish - Ghost Love Score We used to swim the same moonlight waters Oceans away from the wakeful day My fall will be for you My love will be in you If you be the one to cut me I'll bleed forever Scent of the sea before the waking of the world Brings me to thee Into the blue memory My fall will be for you My love will be in you If you be the one to cut me I will bleed forever Into the blue memory A siren from the deep came to me Sang my name, my longing Still I write my songs about that dream of mine Worth everything I may ever be The Child will be born again That siren carried him to me First of them true loves Singing on the shoulders of an angel Without care for love and loss Bring me home or leave me be My love in the dark heart of the night I have lost the path before me The one behind will lead me Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home Every way, every day Just another l

Song of the day;; → Pink Floyd - Another Brick in the Wall We don't need no education We don't need no thought control No dark sarcasm in the classroom Teacher, leave them kids alone Hey, teacher, leave the kids alone All in all it's just another brick in the wall All in all you're just another brick in the wall We don't need no education We don't need no thought control No dark sarcasm in the classroom Teacher, leave them kids alone Hey, teacher, leave us kids alone All in all you're just another brick in the wall All in all you're just another brick in the wall

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - The Harder the Heart (The Harder It Breaks) I'm not the reason you're empty I'm not your scapegoat or shoulder to cry on I'm just the person you needed But you've gone to let your demons tear us apart Can't you see that you need a little moment to clarity? Why can't you see, can't believe That you are your own worst enemy No, I'm not ready to let you go No, you need to hear this all, you know These are our times, never forget No looking back, no more regrets One thing we've learned from our mistakes The harder the heart, the harder it breaks Now you can never be trusted You're not the person I once could rely on You've gone and burnt all your bridges Do I have to sit and watch 'till nothing remains? No, I'm not ready to let you go No, you need to hear this all, you know These are our times, never forget No looking back, no more

Song of the day;; → Arctic Monkeys - Do I Wanna Know? Have you got colour in your cheeks? Do you ever get that fear that you can't shift The type that sticks around like something in your teeth? Are there some aces up your sleeve? Have you no idea that you're in deep? I dreamt about you nearly every night this week How many secrets can you keep? 'Cause there's this tune I found that Makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat Until I fall asleep Spilling drinks on my settee (Do I wanna know) If this feeling flows both ways? (Sad to see you go) Was sort of hoping that you'd stay (Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made for saying things That you can't say tomorrow day Crawling back to you Ever thought of calling when you've had a few? 'Cause I always do Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new Now I've thought it through Crawling back to you So

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Skin Another wasted breath trying to prove my innocence I know I've sealed my fate, another lie that brings disgrace I know you want to see, see me hurt, make me suffer But all that's left are Broken, shattered pieces of our lives I wish that I could tell you so you know There's things I'm hiding deep beneath my skin Beneath my skin I want to tell you so you know There's things I'm hiding deep beneath my skin Beneath my skin So come and take my life, let me feel your wickedness I know I've made mistakes, so come and watch me fall from grace I know you want to see, see me hurt, make me suffer I've nothing left so I'll just sacrifice myself to make it right (To make it right) I wish that I could tell you so you know There's things I'm hiding deep beneath my skin Beneath my skin I want to tell you so you know There's things I'm hiding dee

Song of the day;; → Gary Jules - Mad World All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head, I wanna drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles, it's a very, very mad world, mad world Children waiting for the day they feel goof Happy birthday, happy birthday And I feel the way that every children should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher, tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying are t

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Hell or High Water There's no escape, heaven can wait There's no escape and time is running out Heaven can wait, come hell or high water Dragged into a world with voices unheard and silent screams Forced into this hell where evil compels and shatters your dreams Trapped in this underworld, confused on how this came to be The path you walked has lead you on a trail of misery Unsure of your fate, uncertainty waits your struggle within No end and no beginnings Is this the afterlife? There's no escape and time is running out Heaven can wait, come hell or high water There's no escape and time is running out Heaven can wait, come hell or high water Time's testing your faith just left there to waste All hope disappear so summon the strength Now nothing is left, death is hunting the weak Now break these chains with broken bones, become the enemy The end's in sight now but

Song of the day;; → Manic Street Preachers - If You Tolerate This Your Children Will Be Next The future teaches you to be alone The present to be afraid and cold So if I can shoot rabbits Then I can shoot fascists Bullets for your brain today But we'll forget it all again Monuments put from pen to paper Turns me into a gutless wonder And if you tolerate this Then your children will be next And if you tolerate this Then your children will be next Will be next Will be next Will be next Gravity keeps my head down Or is it maybe shame At being so young and being so vain Holes in your head today But I'm a pacifist I've walked La Ramblas But not with real intent And if you tolerate this Then your children will be next And if you tolerate this Then your children will be next Will be next Will be next Will be next And on the street tonight and old man plays With newspaper cuttings of his glory days

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Pariah You're the reason I feel so alive ( I feel so alive) You're the craving that tears me apart from the inside You're my downfall, the one I obey (The one I obey) I'm a monster, the freak that you needed and it's okay Is this sick and depraved? I see hell is defined Is this twisted and crazed? Or a brilliant disguise It starts out a fantasy Then turns into misery I'll be your pariah Take it out on me Eyes shut, no reality A sucker for your vanity I'll be your pariah Take it out on me I came to you like a moth to a flame I was the piece of the puzzle you played in your own game I should have known by the look in your eyes But now we've gone too far Now I'm holding on tight Trying hard just to survive Is this sick and depraved? I see hell is defined Is this twisted and crazed? Or a brilliant disguise It starts out a fantasy Then tu

Song of the day;; → Oasis - Wonderwall Today is gonna be the day That they're gonna throw it back to you By now you should've somehow Realised what you gotta do I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do about you now Back beat, the word is on the street That the fire in your heart is out I'm sure you've heard it all before But you never really had a doubt I don't believe that anybody feels The way I do about you now And all the roads we have to walk are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding There are so many things that I would Like to say to you But I don't know how Because maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me And after all You're my wonderwall Today was gonna be the day But they'll never throw it back to you By now you should've somehow Realised what you're not to do I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do about you now

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Run for Your Life You need to know what it's like To be left and crucified To be stripped and torn to pieces You just left me there to die Tell me why you breed All this hate and misery Is this just another statement of your insecurity? But now's your chance You better run for your life You won't get my sympathy (I'll hunt you down) Now's your chance You better run for your life You won't get my sympathy (I'll hunt you down) And I won't let you get away You can't escape. your screams can't be heard Intoxicated by the smell of your fear You can't hide So tell me why do you need All this animosity Is this just another statement of your insecurity? But now's your chance You better run for your life You won't get my sympathy (I'll hunt you down) Now's your chance You better run for your life You won't get my

Song of the day;; → Bloc Party - So Here We Are I caught a glimpse But it's been forgotten So here we are again I made a vow To carry you home, home I really tried To do what you wanted It all went wrong again I made a vow To carry you home If you fall sick If you pass out, out I figured it out, I can see again -- P.E tomorrow... Can I quit?

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - In Loving Memory (Demo Version) Reaching out as the angels stare Crying out in loving memory Holding on for a final prayer Crying out in loving memory The cold bites in the dead of the night It penetrates your bones Uneasy feeling that something ain't right And now you're all alone Footsteps creeping up from behind Your worst nightmare's coming to life You've gotta run or stand and fight Your time has come (should have seen this coming) Start coming to terms that your life is over, over Reaching out as the angels stare Crying out in loving memory Holding on for a final prayer Crying out in loving memory Time stops, eternity waits Blood flows so cold Blinded by darkness being so bright Now the truth unfolds In death there is nothing divine Salvations' living to die You cannot run, you cannot fight This can't be won (should have seen this coming) Start co

Song of the day;;  → Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September ends Like my father's come to pass Seven years has gone so fast Wake me up when September ends Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are As my memory rests But never forgets what I lost Wake me up when September ends Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September ends Ring out the bells again Like we did when spring began Wake me up when September ends Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are As my memory rests But never forgets what I lost Wake me up when September ends Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September ends Like my father's come to pass Twenty years has gone so fast Wake me up when September ends Wake

huomasin, tässä kellon ollessa 0.17 Hotel Californian kaikuessa kuulokkeistani, että on yks aihe, josta en oo sen tarkemmin puhunu, ja henkisesti moitin itseäni. mietin, että miks en oo kirjottanu siitä asiasta, joka on seurannu mua lähemmäs 12 vuotta? ja tämä asiahan on tietysti mun diabetes. mulle diagnosoitiin vuoden 2004 tammikuussa tyypin 1 diabetes, mä olin silloin viisi. en mä siitä muista juuri mitään. edellisenä yönä ennen kuin mut vietiin sairaalaan, mä muistan heräilleeni jatkuvasti janoon ja vessahätään, eikä nukkumisesta tullu mitään. aamulla porukat vei mut sairaalaan, jossa kokeiden jälkeen paljastu, että mulla on diabetes. mä jouduin oleen sairaalassa noin viikon, mut siitä mä en tosissaan muista mitään. muistan vaan lehmännahkakuvioisen verensokerimittarin, mä kuulemma pelkäsin kamalasti ja huusin isiä koko sen ajan. koulussa mulla ei sen kanssa onneks oo ollut koskaan sen suurempia ongelmia. mua ei siitä koskaan onneks kiusattu, jotkut ihmetteli ja kyseli kai

Song of the day;; → Bring Me The Horizon - Throne Remember the moment, you left me alone and Broke every promise you ever made I was an ocean, lost in the open Nothing could take the pain away So you can throw me to the wolves Tomorrow I will come back Leader of the whole pack Beat me black and blue Every wound will shape me Every scar will build my throne The sticks and the stones that you used to throw have Built me an empire s o don't even try  To cry me a river 'c ause I forgive you You are the reason I still fight So you can throw me to the wolves Tomorrow I will come back Leader of the whole pack Beat me black and blue Every wound will shape me Every scar will build my throne So you can throw me to the wolves Tomorrow I will come back Leader of the whole pack Beat me black and blue Every wound will shape me Every scar will build my throne I'll leave you choking On every word you left unspoken R

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - No Way Out No way out Looking out, standing over the edge Too numb to feel alive So why the fuck are these thoughts in my head? Reach in and pull them out Still nothing feels the same Too late to hesitate Why can't I run and escape from myself? And live again Why can't I run and escape from myself? Tell me why I feel like there's no way out Trying hard to heal as the pain pours out I don't wanna feel this way but it's hard 'Cause I know that in the end There's no way out Oh my god, is this really the end? I guess I'm not alright I just can't tell what is real anymore I'm trapped in my own hell I know this can't be real This negativity Is dominating and smothering me I just can't breathe And I just can't tell what is real anymore Tell me why I feel like there's no way out Trying hard to heal as the pain pours out I

Song of the day;; → Archive - Nothing Else My angel, clipped wings, I know Wanders in darkness, on grimy ground In a forest, unclean, unsound Everything, everything's gone wild Make land for the cows to graze Leaflets scatter around to advertise Sellout A swamp, in it hands stretched out To catch a passing dime Donations to the rich Widened pavements to the poor Somewhere else to lie But my friend, the carriage door Stands slightly ajar And I know clipped wings make uneasy flight But we've gotta leave A place where the feast never ends When the music celebrates In a time when darkness belongs To night's skies and Nothing else, no Nothing else, no Tomorrow my spirit's seen Fears today my mind Soul aches to deep Always craves my body to reach A place where the feast never ends A moment when the music celebrates And a time where darkness belongs to night's skies and Nothing else, no Nothing el

Song of the day;; → Bring Me The Horizon - Happy Song S-p-i-r-i-t Spirit, let's hear it S-p-i-r-i-t Spirit, let's hear it Let's go I've had enough There's a voice in my head Says I'm better off dead But if I sing along a little fucking louder To a happy song, I'll be alright You want to give up Gave it all that you've got And it still doesn't cut But if you sing along a little fucking louder To a happy song. you'll be just fine 'cause Every now and again we get that feeling And the great big void inside us opens up And I really wish that you could help But my head is like a carousel And I'm going round in circles I'm going round in circles S-p-i-r-i-t Spirit, let's hear it S-p-i-r-i-t Spirit, let's hear it We are possessed We're all fucked in the head Alone and depressed But if we sing along a little fucking louder To a happy song, maybe we&

Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Raising Hell I feel the fire Can't touch the flames This is reality, an infamous game I taste the blood Can't seem to cave The deed is done, but the dept is unpaid Everyday it seems I'm running from the reaper Kicking and screaming and going down swinging Without my soul you're a gun without a trigger Fate is unfolding, who made you the king of the dead? This is a war that can never be won Let me go I'll fight forever as the heavens fall I'm raising hell This is a war that can never be won Let me go I'll fight forever as the heavens fall I'm raising hell Raising hell You got a choice, you digress off your master No restraints, no remorse Are you hearing this? You wanna test me? I know, I'll destroy you Save your breath, nothing's left Here I come at you Everyday seems like I'm running with the reaper Kicking and screaming,

Song of the day;; → lostprophets - Last Summer The Friday sun bears down again As we drive with our friends And on these longest days we spend All the time trying to pretend That our stories could be true Wanting to be cool The setting sunset says the day is through If only we knew And we all sit down here in our home town Listen to the waves as they all crash down And watch the fire as it slowly burns away Glowing embers fly across the sky You're here by my side in my summer, our last summer The world passes by in my summer, our last summer The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other I let you watch it all, the view from our last summer The view from our last summer We trace the sun across the sky And we laugh 'til we cry Always so hard to say goodbye (goodbye) And we all sit round here in our home town It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss The memories, I hope will never fade Glowing

Song of the day;; → Snow Patrol - Shut Your Eyes Shut your eyes and think of somewhere Somewhere cold and caked in snow By the fire we break the quiet Learn to wear each other well And when the worrying starts to hurt And the world feels like graves of dirt Just close your eyes until You can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will Shut your eyes, I spin the big chair And you'll feel dizzy, light and free And falling gently on the cushion You can come and sing to me And when the worrying starts to hurt And the world feels like graves of dirt Just close your eyes until You can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will Shut your eyes Shut your eyes and sing to me (Shut your eyes and sing to me)