Colourful mind

 Song of the day;;

→ Blind Channel - Left Outside Alone

All my life I've been waiting

For you to bring a fairytale my way

Been living in a fantasy without meaning

It's not okay, I don't feel safe

I need to pray

I don't feel safe

No, no, no, no

Left broken, empty and in despair

Wanna breathe, can't find air

Thought you were sent from up above

But you and me, we never had love

So much more I have to say

Help me find a way

And I wonder if you know, how it really feels

To be left outside alone, when it's cold out here

Well, maybe you should know, just how it feels

To be left outside alone

To be left outsidе alone

I tell you, all my life I'vе been waiting

For you to bring a fairytale my way

Been living in a fantasy without meaning

It's not okay, I don't feel safe

I need to pray

Why do you play me like a game?

Always someone else to blame

Careless, helpless little man

Someday you might understand

There's not much more to say

Held me find a way

Still I wonder if you know, how it really feels

To be left outside alone, when it's cold out here

Well, maybe you should know, just how it feels

To be left outside alone

To be left outside alone

I tell you, all my life I've been waiting

For you to bring a fairytale my way

Been living in a fantasy without meaning

It's not okay, I don't feel safe

I need to pray

Heavenly father

Heavenly father

Heavenly father

Save me (save me)

Save me (save me)

Save me (save me)

I wonder if you know, how it really feels

To be left outside alone, when it's cold out here

Well, maybe you should know, just how it feels

To be left outside alone

To be left outside alone

I tell you, all my life I've been waiting

For you to bring a fairytale my way

Been living in a fantasy without meaning

It's not okay, I don't feel safe

I need to pray

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Tänään oli fysioterapia. Sen lisäksi juttelin porukoitten kanssa Skypessä semmoset puolitoista tuntia (Runtti oli taas niin söpönä, en malta oottaa että pääsen sen luo) ja katoin leffan. Huomenna pitää käydä kaupassa ja pitäis ihan oikiasti yrittää saaja jotain kurssihommia tehtyä. Ahistaa vaan niin saatanasti kun ei pysty keskittymään (huomaan nyt tosi hyvin miten paljon mun kognitiiviset kyvyt on tän masennuksen takia huonontuneet) eikä saa mitään aikasiksi sen takia että ahdistaa ja sitten se ahdistaa.