Sun / rise / light / flies

 Song of the day;;

→ Memphis May Fire - Death Inside

My mind is racing, everything's changing

All these voices telling me that I should embrace it

Never seen its eyes, I don't think I can face it

Oh, it's getting closer now

I can't fake it, I fear what I've wasted

Days gone by like erasing the pages

Pain so real that I think I can taste it

It's getting, it's getting closer now

I see the hourglass

Flipped upside down

Tell me what is the meaning

If I'm barely breathing when the clock runs out?

(I fight)

I fight the feeling that's been growing undеrneath

(But I can't)

I can't deny that this is death insidе of me

Will I give up and never reach the end?

Get lost inside of my own head?

My demons feed on what is yet to be

Death inside of me

My heart is pounding, fear is surrounding

Don't wanna take for granted everyone that's around me

But if I let 'em in, is it my fault when they drown me?

Oh, I see the end in sight

I need grounding, a break from the doubting

'Cause I can't help but think they might better without me

I wonder when I'm gone what they'll be saying about me

I see it, I see the end in sight

And there's the hourglass

Flipped upside down

Tell me what is the meaning

If I'm barely breathing when the clock runs out?

(I fight)

I fight the feeling that's been growing underneath

(But I can't)

I can't deny that this is death inside of me

Will I give up and never reach the end?

Get lost inside of my own head?

My demons feed on what is yet to be

Death inside of me

Six feet deep in a pinewood box

'Cause we got no say when the reaper talks, go

When the reaper talks

I can't deny that this is death inside of me

(I fight)

I fight the feeling that's been growing underneath (Growing underneath)

(But I can't)

I can't deny that this is death inside of me (Death inside of me)

Will I give up and never reach the end?

Get lost inside of my own head?

My demons feed on what is yet to be

Death inside of me

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Pettymykseni oli mittaamaton ja päiväni meni pilalle kun menin pahaa-aavistamattomana pyykkivuorolleni ja joku kyrvännuppi oli just laittanut omat pyykkinsä siihen koneeseen, jonka olin varannut. Jos olisin osannu pysäyttää sen ohjelman, olisin tehnyt niin ja heittänyt ne rätit epäseremoniallisesti suoraan vittuun, mutta nyt tämä kilipää pääsi helpolla. Laitoin asuntotoimistoon viestiä (yleensä en viiti mut nyt vitutti ja rankasti) ja varasin huomiselle uuden vuoron. Sisko tulee ens viikolla muutamaksi päiväksi tänne kun on hiihtoloma ja sitten mä menen käymään kotona.