Ghost

 Song of the day;;

→ thrown - guilt

I can't forgive myself for the things I've done

It's like every bad decision I've made has led me to this point

Guess it's all my fault that I've grown into a man I hate

And now I'm all alone (Blame it on me)

This excessive guilt is making me feel sick (And I can't seem)

To escape my own reality

Give me a break

I've had enough of all the fucking what-ifs

And constant overthinking

'Cause I'm about to lose my mind over some stupid shit

Trying so hard to accept my mistakes, my regrets

Yet hеre I am with the same thoughts stuck in my hеad

So, go ahead and blame it on me (I already do anyway)

It's just who I am

I'm unable to change the way I think

A broken record of the same old things

I've tried to bury, and I know it doesn't make any sense

But I can't forgive what I can't forget

'Cause of the guilt that keeps on weighing me down

It's like my, it's like my inner voice is telling me lies

So now I'm, so now I'm fighting every feeling inside

Before I spiral down to where I wanna fucking die

Always ending up in the same place, over and over again

Damn, I just can't believe I am

Always ending up in the same place

Over and over a-

I wish I could forget all that I've done wrong

It's like every bad decision I've made has led me to this point

And now I'm all alone without knowing what to do or say

It's hard to explain

But it's so easy being hard on yourself when you're not well

And to turn to self-blame when it's in your DNA

(Blame it on me) This excessive guilt makes me feel sick

(And I) Can't fucking seem to set myself free

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