Prince

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Burning Out

So tell me, can you keep a secret? I thought I lost myself

Trying to find a hidden meaning in all the lies you'd tell

When you think I've said enough, tell me and I'll bite my tongue

But don't you think I won't remember

Don't take it now, don't take it now, don't take it now

I'm burning out, I'm burning out, I'm burning out

I was lost, but now I'm found

Under the lights and in the sounds

So let us sing and sing it loud

That we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are

Who we are

I thought I left the pain behind me, but when I turned around

You pulled me back into the darkness and wouldn't let me out

Like a diamond in the rough you didn't see for what it was

And cut a hole right through the center

I was lost, but now I'm found

Under the lights and in the sounds

So let us sing and sing it loud

That we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are

Yeah, we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are

If good things must come to an end

We're not going out of frame

Because you can't just run from sadness

When it runs inside your veins

If good things must come to an end

We're not going out the same

Because you can't just run from sadness

When it gets too hard to stay

When you think I've said enough, tell me and I'll bite my tongue

But don't you think I won't remember

Like a diamond in the rough you didn't see for what it was

And cut a hole right through the center

I was lost, but now I'm found

Under the lights and in the sounds

So let us sing and sing it loud

That we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are

Who we are

I was lost, but now I'm found

Under the lights and in the sounds

So let us sing and sing it loud

That we're not perfect, but we're proud of who we are

When you think I've said enough, tell me and I'll bite my tongue

But don't you think I won't remember

Like a diamond in the rough you didn't see for what it was

And cut a hole right through the center

--

Toiveeni kävi kuin kävikin toteen ja adapteri tipahti postiluukusta tänään. Pienen säätämisen jälkeen ja Redditin avulla sain kuin sainkin vanhan kunnon kunnon vanhan PS2:seni kytkettyä telkkariini onnistuneesti ja pääsin pelamaan. Ai että sitä nostalgian määrää...

Grieving the dead soul

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Reprise (The Sound of the End)

I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again

I guess you never really know yourself

Because I've never been the kind to ask for help

I'm begging for this, I'm begging for this

Alleviation from all of the ugly shit

Wake me up (wake me up)

Wake me up (wake me up)

There's a thousand voices in my head

I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck

To put them all to rest

I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again

There's a thousand voices in my head

I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck

To put them all to rest

I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again

Yeah, come on

I feel the filth, yeah, the dirt on my skin

Everyone can see it, and they know where I've been

God as my witness, the Devil as my friend

I swear that this is the sound of the end

Now I'm swallowed by sin

This is the sound of the end

Now I'm swallowed by sin

This is the sound of the

Thousand voices in my head

I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck

To put them all to rest

I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again

There's a thousand voices in my head

I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck

To put them all to rest

This is the sound of, this is the sound of the end

This is the sound of, this is the sound of the end

There's a thousand voices in my head

I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck

To put them all to rest

I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again

There's a thousand voices in my head

I just hope it doesn't take a rope around my neck

To put them all to rest

I wanna feel love, I wanna feel love again

This is the sound of the end

I wanna feel love again

--

Porukat tulee ens sunnuntaina tänne joten pian saan taas olla Runtin kanssa!!!

Death inside

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Come Undone

Mine, immaculate dream made breath and skin

I've been waiting for you

Signed with a home tattoo, happy birthday to you

Was created for you

Can't ever keep from falling apart at the seams

Can I believe you're taking my heart to pieces?

Oh, it'll take a little time, might take a little crime

To come undone now

We'll try to stay blind

To the hope and fear outside

Hey, child, stay wilder than the wind

And blow me in to cry

Who do you need? Who do you love

When you come undone?

Who do you need? Who do you love

When you come undone?

Words playing me déjà vu

Like a radio tune I swear I've heard before

Chill, is it something real?

Or the magic I'm feeding off your fingers?

Can't ever keep from falling apart at the seams

Can I believe you're taking my heart to pieces?

Lost in a snow-filled sky

We'll make it alright to come undone now

We'll try to stay blind

To the hope and fear outside

Hey, child, stay wilder than the wind

And blow me in to cry

Who do you need? Who do you love

When you come undone?

Who do you need? Who do you love

When you come undone?

Can't ever keep from falling apart

Who do you need? Who do you love when you come undone?

Can't ever keep from falling apart

Who do you need? Who do you love?

--

Tää biisi on varmaan mulle tehty, kun kyseessä on mun lempibiisi Duran Duranilta ja Bad Omens on ollut mun kuunnelluin bändi muutaman vuoden (vaikka pakko myöntää, ettei Noah Sebastianin vokaalit tässä kyseisessä biisissä ole mun suosikit). Tänään oli terapia, aloteltiin käsittelemään menneitä ystävyyssuhteita. Se olikin tän viikon ainoa sovittu meno. Edelleen tuntuu vähän oudolta, ettei oo enää fysioterapiaa. Havahdun välillä siihen, että mietin millon seuraava käynti on, kunnes muistan, ettei niitä enää ole. Vähän ikävä on fysioterapeuttia myös. Mutta enköhän mä tässä pikkuhiljaa siihen totu.

Doomsday party

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Nowhere to Go

Why's this always gotta happen to me? I should have known

I never fail to never learn from mistakes, still throwing stones

Blood-signed, we made a pact

Yours dried out, you took it back

And you know you are a paradox and you contradict

The road you walk, everything that you ever did

Cutting into my code

Erasing everything I know

Hear me out

I'm sorry, but I'm a little less than sold

I've been around

Heard all the stories you said you never told

You're used to speaking in tongues

To feel like you're in control

Now you've got nowhere to run

Now you'vе got nowhere to go

I feel my focus fadin' away, I had high hopes

Running from thе man that I used to be, but I'm too slow

Blood-signed, we made a pact

Yours dried out, you took it back

Hear me out

I'm sorry, but I'm a little less than sold

I've been around

Heard all the stories you said you never told

You're used to speaking in tongues

To feel like you're in control

Now you've got nowhere to run

Now you've got nowhere to go

Tell me what's mine and tell me what's yours

Why I never got a say, never got a choice

Tell me what's mine and tell me what's yours

Why I never got a say, never got a choice

Tell me what's mine and tell me what's yours

Why I never got a say, never got a choice

Tell me what's mine and tell me what's yours

And why I never ever got a fucking say, oh

Are you ready?

I'm in the driver's seat now

Oh, oh

Hear me out

I'm sorry, but I'm a little less than sold

I've been around

Heard all the stories you said you never told

You're used to speaking in tongues

To feel like you're in control

Now you've got nowhere to run

Now you've got nowhere to go

Hear me out

I'm sorry, but I'm a little less than sold

I've been around

Heard all the stories you said you never told

You're used to speaking in tongues

To feel like you're in control

Now you've got nowhere to run

Now you've got nowhere to go

--

Tänään oli terapia ja huomenna pitää käydä ostamassa lasinpuhistusliinoja, koska ne loppu ja mun lasit on niin paskaset, että hyvä kun näkee mitään. Joskus sitä vaan havahtuu siihen, että tuolla kasuaalisti kävelee ihmisiä ympäriinsä, jotka vaan herää ja... näkee. Ilmaseksi. En pysty samaistumaan.

Johnny Ringo

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Kingdom of Cards

Gave it all to burn forever underneath the rain

Drowning in the present of a past that I couldn't change

Writing songs instead of letters because I'm too afraid

Afraid of coming back to find that everything is the same

Everything is the same

I made my way through hell again, I paid for my mistakes

Next time, I think I'll stay awhile and pour myself a drink

When I return, I'll look for you, so listen for your name

If you can make it out above the roaring of the flames

If it's the mask you want, then it's the mask that you will get

But when I take it off, remember that you asked for this

I tore myself apart to give you all that I could give

Don't think that I will let it go, don't think that I'll forget

I thought I wanted legacy, I thought I wanted fame

I didn't know I'd lose all my loved ones in exchange

Left 'em all behind and yeah, for that, I am ashamed

But that's the price I'm paying 'til I'm buried in my grave

Gave it all to burn forever underneath the rain

Drowning in the present of a past that I couldn't change

Writing songs instead of letters because I'm too afraid

Afraid of coming back to find that everything is the same

I'll do it all over again from the start

And this time, you're not leaving me in the dark

You took me for granted, now look where you are

Atop of a kingdom you built out of cards

I thought I wanted legacy, I thought I wanted fame

I didn't know I'd lose all my loved ones in exchange

Left 'em all behind and yeah, for that, I am ashamed

But that's the price I'm paying 'til I'm buried in my grave

I'll do it all over again from the start (I'll do it again)

And this time, you're not leaving me in the dark (I'll do it again)

You took me for granted, now look where you are (I'll do it again)

Atop of a kingdom you built out of cards

--

Eilen oli tosiaan silmänpohjakuvaus, oli jännä ja uusi kokemus kun niillä oli uusi kamera käytössä, johon ei tarvittu ees silmätippoja. Näkipähän loppupäivän normaalisti, mikä oli tosi jees. Sitten oli terapia, etänä tällä kertaa (saatoin siitä mainita viimeksi tai joskus ainakin). Tänään sitten kävin kaverin kanssa semmosessa rentoutumisryhmässä, se oli oikein jees. Tuttua asiaa, jota aina hyvä vahvistaa. Sitten käytiin syömässä ja loppuillan oonkin tässä lähinnä pelaillut.

Face to face

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Exit Wounds

Dead on the inside

Raised by wolves in sheep's clothes that abandoned me

But taught me to get up when I fall to my knees

Man makes monster, monster kills man

Taking your crown's always been part of the plan

If you weren't so stuck in your own head

You'd be where I am now instead

Nobody's gonna hear you

When you're calling for help, when you're calling for help

Nobody's gonna hear you

'Cause the sound of my screams are gonna drown you out

Drown you out

I've learned a lot, but it took me too long

To find out who I am and to prove you wrong

How can you live before you die

When you're already dead on the inside?

Dead on the inside

Dead on the inside

If you want an enemy, I'll be the last one that you ever meet

But I can tell you now that you don't stand a goddamn chance against me

Nobody's gonna hear you

When you're calling for help, when you're calling for help

Nobody's gonna hear you

'Cause the sound of my screams are gonna drown you out

I've learned a lot but it took me too long

To find out who I am and to prove you wrong

How can you live before you die

When you're already dead on the inside?

Fuck that, fuck this

If you're gonna burn a bridge

You better hold your breath and learn to swim

Fuck that, fuck this

If you're gonna burn a bridge

You better hold your breath and learn to swim

I've learned a lot, but it took me too long

To find out who I am and to prove you wrong

How can you live before you die

When you're already dead on the inside?

I've learned a lot, but it took me too long

To find out who I am and to prove you wrong

How can you live before you die

When you're already dead on the inside?

Dead on the inside

Dead on the inside

--

Tänään käytiin juhlistamassa ystävän synttäreitä, käytiin ensin syömässä, sitten parissa kaupassa ja sen jälkeen tultiin mun luo kattomaan leffaa. Kolme päivää putkeen ollu nyt eri tasoisia sosiaalisia tapahtumia, joten helpottavaa, että huomenna saa olla ihan omassa rauhassa. Pitää vaan tiskata ja käydä kaupassa.

Bulletproof

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Just Pretend

I'm not afraid

Of the war you've come to wage against my sins

I'm not okay

But I can try my best to just pretend

So will you wait me out

Or will you drown me out?

So will you wait me out

Or will you drown me out?

(I have to let you go)

I can wait for you at the bottom

I can stay away if you want me to

I can wait for years if I gotta

Heaven knows I ain't getting over you

I know the pain

That you hide behind the smile on your face

And not a day

Goes by where I don't think I feel the same

So will you wait me out

Or will you drown me out?

So will you wait me out

Or will you drown me out?

I can wait for you at the bottom

I can stay away if you want me to

I can wait for years if I gotta

Heaven knows I ain't getting over you

We'll try again

When we're not so different

We will make amends

'Til then I'll just pretend

(I have to let you go)

(Wait)

Weigh down on me, stay 'til morning

Way down, would you say I'm worthy?

Weigh down on me, stay 'til morning

Way down, would you say I'm worthy?

I can wait for you at the bottom

I can stay away if you want me to

I can wait for years if I gotta

Heaven knows I ain't getting over you

We'll try again

When we're not so different

We will make amends

'Til then I'll just pretend

(Weigh down on me, stay 'til morning)

(Way down, would you say I'm worthy?)

Weigh down on me, stay 'til morning

Way down, would you say I'm worthy?

Can't hold us

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Glass Houses

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

Cover your ears and shut your eyes

'Cause what I'm about to say is gonna ruin your night

This is a call-out and I'm not scared to drop some names

You've dug your grave and you have no one but yourself to blame

I see the world in black and white

Because true color always fades under the right lights

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

And when He has you by your neck

I hope you choke on every fucking word you said

You've run out of luck and I'm calling your bluff

You stabbed me in the back but not deep enough

But not deep enough

I see through you

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

And when He has you by your neck

I hope you choke on every fucking word you said

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

And when He has you by your neck

I hope you choke on every fucking word you said

You said I'd never make it, you said I'd fall on my face

But now I'm right where I belong and I put you in your place

You said I'd never make it, you said I'd make a mistake

But now I'm right where I belong and you've got nothing to say

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

And when He has you by your neck

I hope you choke on every fucking word you said

I see through you, I know what you are

I've seen the Devil more than I've seen God

And when He has you by your neck

I hope you choke on every fucking word you said

You stabbed me in the back but not deep enough

Died enough for you

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - THE DEATH OF PEACE OF MIND

I made another mistake, thought I could change

Thought I could make it out

Promises break, need to hear you say

You're gonna keep it now

I miss the way you say my name

The way you bend, the way you break

Your makeup running down your face

The way you touch, the way you taste

When the curtains call the time

Will we both go home alive?

It wasn't hard to realize

Love's the death of peace of mind

You're in the walls that I made, with crosses and frames

Hanging upside down

For granted, in vain, I took everything

I ever cared about

I miss the way you say my name

The way you bend, the way you break

Your makeup running down your face

The way you fuck, the way you taste

When the curtains call the time

Will we both go home alive?

It wasn't hard to realize

Love's the death of peace of mind

When the curtains call the time

Will we both be satisfied?

It wasn't hard to realize

Love's the death of peace of mind

Love's the death of peace of mind

You come and go in waves

Leavin' me in your wake

You come and go in waves

Swallowing everything

Oh

Are you satisfied?

Love's the death of peace of mind

Mine, mine

When the curtains call the time

Will we both go home alive?

It wasn't hard to realize

Love's the death of peace of mind

When the curtains call the time

Will we both be satisfied?

It wasn't hard to realize

Love's the death of peace of mind

Love's the death of peace of mind

Love's the death of peace of mind

Éjféli lány

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - The Worst in Me

Is there nothin' left to keep myself awake?

To keep the walls from caving in?

When all they ever do is try to bend and break

Is there forgiveness in the end?

I need relief (A failure's comin' on)

Just breathe in deep (It's takin' far too long)

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

And now it's come to end, I think I'm giving in

You set my demons free

It seems, no matter where I look, it's always gone

With you, I know I'll never win

And it's hard to say where it went so wrong

And failed me in the end

I need relief (A failure's comin' on)

Just breathe in deep (It's takin' far too long)

I need relief (This weakness carries on)

Please be a dream (Or was it all along?)

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

And now it's come to end, I think I'm giving in

You set my demons free

It's better when you're with me, but that's better left unsaid

It's better when I'm empty, but I still let you in

It's better when you're with me, but that's better left unsaid

It's better when I'm empty, but I still let you in

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

And now it's come to end, I think I'm giving in

You set my demons free

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

Please, won't you stay for me? Don't ever let me be

You set my demons free

Ephemeral

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Like A Villain

Look into my face, then look again

We are not the same, we're different

To tell your tales and fables

You couldn't wait

You need a new clean slate without the dents

A place to put your pain, your consequence

When you look into the mirror

Are you even there?

I don't wanna know all your secrets 'cause I'll tell

It's hard enough being alone with myself

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I know you tried your hardest, I know that you meant it well

But you pushed me to the edge and I slipped and then I fell

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

So write a brand-new page, then write again

I know your act is staged, yet you pretend

All while you're turnin' tables

With missing legs

I think you've overstayed your welcome in

So go the fuck away, don't come again

I'll see your face in the fire

And burn it out

I don't wanna know all your secrets 'cause I'll tell

It's hard enough being alone with myself

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I know you tried your hardest, I know that you meant it well

But you pushed me to the edge and I slipped and then I fell

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

Like a villain, I couldn't be

I didn't need it, it needed me

Like a villain, I couldn't be

I didn't need it, it needed me

I didn't need it, it needed me

I don't wanna know all your secrets 'cause I'll tell

It's hard enough being alone with myself

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I know you tried your hardest, I know that you meant it well

But you pushed me to the edge and I slipped and then I fell

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I didn't need it, it needed me

--

Tämä taas oli mun kuunnelluin biisi Spotifyssä vuonna 2023, mikä ei yllätä yhtään. Bad Omens on tainnut olla mun kuunnelluin artisti nyt kahtena vuonna peräkkäin, jännä nähä, onko tänäkin vuonna. Olin tänään todella reipas ja heräsin kello 8. Meikkasin ja kävin lenkillä. Sitten iltapäivällä oli se ryhmä. En oikein tiiä, mitä mieltä olin siitä. Ei sinänsä ahdistanut, mutta ei myöskään yhtään ollut sellainen puhelias olo (ei sillä, että mulla koskaan tuollaisissa tilanteissa olis, mutta silti). En tainnut sanoa muuta kuin terve ja heippa vetäjille. Mut ei se mitään, ehkä seuraavalla kerralla on sitten parempi fiilis. Kävin kaupassa kun tulin kotiin, olin hetken koneella ja sitten menin päikkäreille. Huomenna aivan pakko siivoilla tai muuten ei hyvä heilu.

Take some time

 Song of the day;;

 → Bad Omens - The Worst In Me

Is there nothing left to keep myself awake?

To keep the walls from caving in

When all they ever do is try to bend and break?

Is there forgiveness in the end?

I need relief, a failure's coming on

Just breathe in deep, it's taking far too long

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

And now it's come to end, I think I'm giving in

You set my demons free

It seems no matter where I look, it's always gone

With you, I know I'll never win

And it's hard to say where it went so wrong

And failed me in the end

I need relief, a failure's coming on

Just breathe in deep, it's taking far too long

I need relief, this weakness carries on

Please, be a dream, or was it all along?

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

And now it's come to end, I think I'm giving in

You set my demons free

It's better when you're with me, but that's better left unsaid

It's better when I'm empty, but I still let you in

It's better when you're with me, but that's better left unsaid

It's better when I'm empty, but I still let you in

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

And now it's come to end, I think I'm giving in

You set my demons free

I had you in my grip, but you're starting to slip

Bring out the worst in me

Please, won't you stay for me, don't ever let me be

You set my demons free

--

Tänään oli psykoterapia ja kävin sen jälkeen kävelemässä. On ollu tosi ihania kelejä tässä viime päivinä. Huonenna ois vihdoin pakko ottaa ihtiä niskaperse-otteella kiinni ja hoitaa nuo tiskit...

Crying rain

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Like a Villain

Look into my face, then look again

We are not the same, we're different

To tell your tales and fables

You couldn't wait

You need a new clean slate without the dents

A place to put your pain, your consequence

When you look into the mirror

Are you even there?

I don't wanna know all your secrets 'cause I'll tell

It's hard enough being alone with myself

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I know you tried your hardest, I know that you meant it well

But you pushed me to the edge and I slipped and then I fell

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

So write a brand-new page, then write again

I know your act is staged, yet you pretend

All while you're turnin' tables

With missing legs

I think you've overstayed your welcome in

So go the fuck away, don't come again

I'll see your face in the fire

And burn it out

I don't wanna know all your secrets 'cause I'll tell

It's hard enough being alone with myself

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I know you tried your hardest, I know that you meant it well

But you pushed me to the edge and I slipped and then I fell

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

Like a villain, I couldn't be

I didn't need it, it needed me

Like a villain, I couldn't be

I didn't need it, it needed me

I didn't need it, it needed me

I don't wanna know all your secrets 'cause I'll tell

It's hard enough being alone with myself

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I know you tried your hardest, I know that you meant it well

But you pushed me to the edge and I slipped and then I fell

I don't know how long I'll be holding on

I didn't need it, it needed me

--

Ellen muista ihan helvetin väärin, tämä biisi tais olla mun viime vuoden kuunnelluin (ja Bad Omens oli mun kuunnelluin artisti). Ei mee muuten pitkään, kun Spotify Wrapped tulee taas! Aina jännää nähä omia kuuntelustatseja. Olin laiska paska tänään, enkä jaksanu käydä kaupassa, joten huomenna on pakko.

Fire it up

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Hedonist

I'm the serpent here to test you with forbidden fruit

I love the look on your face when I'm tempting you

This is a part of me you begged to let you see

A part of me that'll do anything to get what I need

Maybe I'm sick, maybe I'm already dead

'Cause I'm not really scared of what comes next

Maybe I'm sick, maybe I'm fucked in the head

'Cause I'm not really scared of the consequence

Play with fire, and you'll get burned

Everybody rolls the dice, and it's your turn

You put the gun to your head, all I did was pull the trigger

So don't ask for my pity when I'm not the only sinner

It's a trick, it's a trap, the evil's not in my head

I'd like to think that it's my ugly human nature instead

Because I don't feel remorse for the things that I did

But I pray I have the chance to do them all again

The path to god led me astray

So the Devil came and lit the way, yeah

I'm the reason you don't trust, I'm the reason you don't feel right

I tore you apart, and I still sleep just fine

I'm the reason you don't trust, I'm the reason you don't feel right

I tore you apart, and I still sleep just fine

Yeah, I still sleep just fine

Play with fire, and you'll get burned

Everybody rolls the dice, and it's your turn

You put the gun to your head, all I did was pull the trigger

So don't ask for my pity when I'm not the only sinner

Play with fire, and you'll get burned

Everybody rolls the dice, and it's your turn

You put the gun to your head, all I did was pull the trigger

So don't ask for my pity when I'm not the only sinner, cunt

Different persons

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Limits

You set me up as the villain

But you never mentioned the root of the problem

Took what you wanted and flipped it

But you won't be dragging my name to the bottom

So much unsaid, left me for dead

I won't forget, and now you're next

Well, everyone's listening, and they know the difference

You're not failing our senses

If you're throwing me to the lions

You should know I'm not scared of dying

I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said

But I'm gonna make you wish you did

Jump to conclusions, they fall for illusions

But you wouldn't dare try to stop them

You're going low at the end of the road

But that won't be the path that I follow

So much unsaid, left me for dead

I won't forget, you're on my list

Well, everyone's listening, and they know the difference

You're not failing our senses

If you're throwing me to the lions

You should know I'm not scared of dying

I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said

But I'm gonna make you wish you did

I'm holding on to this until the scale's untilted

Well, everyone's listening

And they know the difference

You're not failing our senses

But you're pushing my limits

If you're throwing me to the lions

You should know I'm not scared of dying

I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said, whoa

If you're throwing me to the lions

You should know I'm not scared of dying

I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said

Oh god, I'll make you wish you did

Tears don't fall (Part 2)

 Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Never Know

Show me you're better off without me

Choking on every word you said, we'll see, we'll see

Don't breathe another word about me

I'll leave, and you can finally rest in peace, we'll see

When I go out into the world

I just don't like what I see

You could call it paradise

But it looks just like hell to me

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, but I'm okay to never know

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, but I'm okay to never know

Speaking in languages we can't read

No need for you to spell it out for me, for me

Swallowed up and I spit you out

Like a drug that just wouldn't stay down, stay down

When I go out into the world

I just don't like what I see

You could call it paradise

But it looks just like hell to me

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, but I'm okay to never know

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, but I'm okay to never know

We'll see, we'll see

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, and I'm okay to never know

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, but I'm okay to never know

Lying in between the memories choking me, and

I don't know which way to go, but I'm okay to never know

We'll see, we'll see, we'll see

But I'm okay to never know

--

Kohta on kaikki opiskelujutut tältä vuodelta tehty!

We all bleed

Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Careful What You Wish For

Only in madness do you find beautiful death

And only in sadness do you feel happy instead

Be careful what you wish for 'cause you don't know

The guilt I carried this far all on my own

It's nothing you wanna feel

Don't wait for the dust to settle, don't wait till it's not enough

Don't wait for the world to let go of the both of us

Don't wait for the dust to settle, don't wait till you've had enough

Don't wait for the world to let go or to give you up

The silence is one thing that I'll remember you said

Well, it's better than nothing when nothing's all that you left

Be careful what you wish for 'cause you don't know

The guilt I carried this far wasn't my own

It's nothing you wanna feel, so let it go

Don't wait for the dust to settle, don't wait till it's not enough

Don't wait for the world to let go of the both of us

Don't wait for the dust to settle, don't wait till you've had enough

Don't wait for the world to let go or to give you up

If you need a place to hang your head, a shoulder's better than a knot

You'd be a better memory alive rather than not

If you need a place to hang your head, a shoulder's better than a knot

You'd be a better memory if no one else forgot

So let it go

Don't wait for the dust to settle, don't wait till it's not enough

Don't wait for the world to let go of the both of us

Don't wait for the dust to settle, don't wait till you've had enough

Don't wait for the world to let go or to give you up

(If you need a place to hang your head, a shoulder's better than a knot)

I'm not giving up

(You'd be a better memory alive rather than not)

So don't you give up

(If you need a place to hang your head, a shoulder's better than a knot)

I'm not giving up

(You'd be a better memory if no one else forgot)

So don't you give up

--

Vittu että voikin nää opinnot ahistaa näin helvetisti. Mun on pakko tehdä jotain ennen kuin jotain peruuttamatonta tapahtuu. Tuntuu vaan typerältä, kun on tavallaan päässy jo näin pitkälle, mut en mä voi kiduttaa itteeni pakottamalla itteni tekemään joka päivä asioita jotka ei mua oikeesti kiinnosta ja vaan saa mut ahistuneeks ja itkuseks. Mun on pakko vaan myöntää tappio ja se, että ei tää oo mulle. Tää ala ainakaan. Mä haluan tehdä jotain muuta, ja se on ihan okei.

I'm not a vampire

Song of the day;;

→ Bad Omens - Mercy

Blinded by a fear of feeling

These are the kings we chose

Lost and looking for the meaning

I've been searching high and low

When we fade into nothing

When we go up in the smoke

We'll beg god for a mercy

That he knows we'd never show

On a canvas we stained with blood

And painted with our sins

There's a candle melting

And it's burning at both ends

We'll take and take 'til it caves

And drowns us in the wax it drips

Like a moth to a flame

You never should've fucking lit

You can give sight to the blind

But you can't force them to see

You could take us back in time

But it wouldn't change a thing

If god came down from his kingdom

He came down from his home

And we asked him if he'd take us back

He would surely tell us no

If god came down from his kingdom

He came down from his throne

And we asked him if he'd take us back

He would tell us we can't go

To a rat in a maze the end is

Where the start begins

But if we made it out I know

That we would do it all again

We live and die in vain

Like treasure on a sinking ship

All in the name of a god

We'd just abandon and forget

If god came down from his kingdom

He came down from his home

And we asked him if he'd take us back

He would surely tell us no

If god came down from his kingdom

He came down from his throne

And we asked him if he'd take us back

He would tell us we can't go

We're dying everyday

Tell me is it all in vain

Is it worth the suffering?

Is it worth the price we paid?

Is it worth it?

You can give sight to the blind

But you can't force them to see

You could take us back in time

But it wouldn't change a thing

If god came down from his kingdom

He came down from his home

And we asked him if he'd take us back

He would surely tell us no

If god came down from his kingdom

He came down from his throne

And we asked him if he'd take us back

He would tell us we can't go

Blinded by a fear of feeling

These are the kings we chose

Lost and looking for the meaning

I've been searching high and low

When we fade into nothing

When we go up in the smoke

We'll beg god for a mercy

That he knows we'd never show

You can give sight to the blind

But you can't force them to see

You could take us back in time

But it wouldn't change a fucking thing