Riot

 Song of the day;;

→ Volumes - Feels Good

It feels good

It feels good

I'm waking up this time

Like I've never been tired

Of making up my mind

It feels good

It feels good, oh, feels good, oh

It feels good

It feels good, oh, feels good, oh

I lit my last one then I fell asleep in slime

Work at my habits but the feel is so sublime

Another drag in and my mind goes on a climb

That's where you'll catch me cause it happens all the time

Always on the move, always live proof

I'm just trying to prove what you disapproved

All this residue, don't know what to do with

Facing down the truth, tell me where were you

These are my hands that build me up

But where were you

Yeah, tell me where were you

I'm waking up this time

Like I've never been tired

Of making up my mind

It feels good

It feels good, oh, feels good, oh

It feels good

It feels good, oh, feels good, oh

I lit my last one then I fell asleep in slime

Work at my habits but the feel is so sublime

Ready to deploy, ready to exploit

Can't express my joy, my life I didn't destroy

I will not recoil, dope inside the foil

Problems I can't avoid, I can not employ

How's it look now

Standing with your eyes to the fire

I won't look down

Standing with my eyes to the light

Feels good, oh, feels good, oh

Feels good, oh, feels good

(Of making up my mind)

Feels good, oh

It feels good

It feels good, oh, feels good, oh

It feels good

It feels good, oh, feels good, oh

I lit my last one then I fell asleep in slime

Work at my habits but the feel is so sublime

Another drag in and my mind goes on a climb

That's where you'll catch me 'cause it happens all the time

Right now

 Song of the day;;

→ Volumes - Finite

Now don’t go walking towards the light, life is only finite, finite

Yeah

You know we love to play with fire, burning up the cold nights, cold nights, yeah

In and out of breath I’m staring into death, lay down with the liar

Chemical effect, we’re falling neck to neck, the page and the writer

Now don’t go walking towards the light, life is only finite, finite, yeah

You know we love to play with fire, burning up the cold nights, cold nights, yeah

Get back your words mean nothing to me, maybe a relapse is what I need

Lost love, no coming back for me, finite grip to your sanity

In and out of this stress and make another mess, the things we desire

Running through my chest, the right lung and the left

No way to go higher

Now don’t go walking towards the light, life is only finite, finite, yeah

You know we love to play with fire, burning up the cold nights, cold nights, yeah

Get high and pretend like I’m just not here

Middle fingers to the sky, once you die, hope you realize

Fucked up and pretend like I’m just not here

Middle fingers to the sky once you die, it’s a suicide

If all these dreams come pouring back to me

Don’t say I didn’t leave my mind

It’s all a dream, I’m standing on my feet

I said I wouldn’t miss your eyes

Now don’t go walking towards the light, life is only finite, finite, yeah

You know we love to play with fire, burning up the cold nights, cold nights, yeah

If all these dreams come pouring back to me

Don’t say I didn’t leave my mind

It’s all a dream, I’m standing on my feet

I said I wouldn’t miss your eyes

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Runtti täytti tänään 12 vuotta. Osa musta on niin onnellinen, että se on vielä suhteellisen terve ja voi hyvin, se on virkeä ja jaksaa liikkua ja touhuta hyvin. Toisaalta myös ajatus siitä, että meidän yhteinen aika vähenee päivä päivältä kolkuttaa päässä säännöllisin väliajoin. Mä nautin täysin sieluin joka hetkistä sen kanssa, enkä tiedä onko mun järkeä yrittää valmistautua loppuun, kun ei siihen voi mitenkään valmistautua. En mä tule olemaan valmis vaikka miten yrittäisin. Tärkeintä on kuitenkin elää hetkessä ja olla mummelin kanssa niin paljon kun mahdollista. Nyt se nukkuu omalla pedillään tässä meidän huoneen (mun ihan ensimmäinen oma huone ja siskon entinen huone on nykyään ristitty mun ja Runtin huoneeksi) lattialla. Se vaikuttaa onnelliselta. Mä toivon että sillä on ollut onnellinen elämä tähän asti ja että se on tuntenut olonsa turvalliseksi ja rakastetuksi ja että se tietää, miten paljon me sitä rakastetaan. Miten paljon mä sitä rakastan.