BLOOD RED ROSES.

  Song of the day;; → Abstrakt Idea - Mellow Morning (Nujabes Tribute ) -- Se oiskin sit lokakuun viiminen päivä. Mihin helvettiin aika menee? Mä en pysty tekemään sitä helvetin tieteellisen viestinnän kurssia. En nyt. Mä olen aivan liian paskana siihen enkä tietenkään tiedä miten ilmottaa tästä professorille ilman, että vaikutan aivan helvetin epäpätevältä kaikessa mitä teen (ei muuten, mutta mähän keskeytin tämän saman kurssin jo viime vuonna). Huomenna lähen takas kämpille.

  Song of the day;; → Hollow Front - Still Life I'm sinking, I'm sinking I don't know what the hell I was thinking My past mistakes are draped in my shame I never thought I'd be in my twenties Hoping desperately to amount to something Marking down the days will these things ever change? Or will they stay the same? So here I am, with my heart in my hands Searching for the chance to be something more I fear that it's gone And I've tried my best to hold on But I'm slipping now With no one to catch me (With no one to catch me) My heart beats in time With the sound, with the sound A ticking clock constantly counting down I never dreamed I'd be in my twenties A hole in my chest that left me with nothing Old memories up in flames Only myself to blame Can you remember the day? When we told ourselves That we would never be like them Another spoke on a wheel of bullshit I promised you That there was way more to life than this I swear I tried so hard Can't beli

  Song of the day;; → The Soft Moon - Wasting Wasting time Wasting time Wasting time Wasting time Don't stop the world You know you can't You have to live what's only real Can't stop the world and start again You have to feel what's only real You've got to take life by the hand Let the substance close you in Hope to one day come alive You have to take life by the hand Hope to one day understand Wasting time Wasting time Wasting Don't stop the world You know you can't You have to live what's only real Can't stop the world and start again You have to feel what's only real -- Huomenna suuntaan takas Ouluun. Maanantaina alkais tieteellisen viestinnän kurssi ja mua ahistaa aivan vittuna. Pelkään että jänistän enkä pysty tekemään sitä vieläkään. Tiistaina mulla on lääkäri, saa nähä mitä siellä tapahtuu.

  Song of the day;; → Bell X1 - Flame When your hand brushed against mine I thought I'd collapse I'm no rolling stone I gather too much moss Maybe it's 'cos I'm getting A little bit older But oh how your neck Flows to your shoulder It draws me, it draws me to your flame I wanna be near you And blink in your light And toast marshmallows On a cold dark night By your flame Your flesh it melts in my mouth Like Holy Communion But you don't really care for Jesus now do you? A photograph of this love Hangs on my wall I would dare to speak its name If I knew what it was called I would dare to speak its name If I knew what it was called Rattle the one who's shadow You're standing in Under the branches after It's been raining On your flame I wanna be near you And blink in your light And toast marshmallows On a cold dark night By your flame Your brought your flame Into the chambers of my heart You brought your flame Where all's been condemned to dark And no

  Song of the day;; → Make Them Suffer - Fireworks So long, goodbye because tonight I think I'm ready to go And so I'm praying you're still laying there and waiting when I'm finally home I had to do this for me, because it's all I know This time I'll make things right Come bring your flames, take my hand We'll together watch it burn We're going to burn it to the ground And we'll be surfing on the sun Let's see them try to stop us now Let's watch them burn Trace it back, we'll remember who we used to be Don't hold back, don't forget that we were meant to be We'll both together watch it burn We'll both together watch it burn So hoist those sails we're headed east If there's a chance that when we're through they'll send me home This time I'll make things right Come bring your flames, take my hand We'll together watch it burn We're going to burn it to the ground And we'll be surfing on the sun L

  Song of the day;; → Sonic Youth - Teen Age Riot You're it No, you're it Hey, you're really it You're it No I mean it, you're it Say it Don't spray it Spirit desire (face me) Spirit desire (don't displace me) Spirit desire We will fall Miss me Don't dismiss me Spirit desire Spirit desire, spirit desire Spirit desire, we will fall Spirit desire We will fall Spirit desire, spirit desire Spirit desire, we will fall Spirit desire We will fall Everybody's talking 'bout the stormy weather And what's a man to do but work out whether it's true? Looking for a man with a focus and a temper Who can open up a map and see between one and two Time to get it Before you let it get to you Here he comes now Stick to your guns and let him through Everybody's coming from the winter vacation Taking in the sun in a exaltation to you You come running in on platform shoes With Marshall stacks to at least just give us a clue Ah, here it comes I know it's

  Song of the day;; → Depeche Mode - New Life I stand still, stepping on the shady streets And I watched that man to a stranger You think you only know me when you turn on the light Now the room is lit red danger Complicating, circulating New life, new life Operating, generating New life, new life Transition to another place So the time will pass more slowly Your features fuse and your shadow's red Like a film I've seen, now show me Complicating, circulating New life, new life Operating, generating New life, new life Your face is hidden and we're out of sight And the road just leads to nowhere The stranger in the door is the same as before So the question answer's nowhere Complicating, circulating New life, new life Operating, generating New life, new life I stand still stepping on the shady streets And I watched that man to a stranger You think you only know me when you turn on the light Now the room is lit red danger Complicating, circulating New life, new life Operat

  Song of the day;; → Jesu - Homesick You're only what you see It's all you'll ever be It's never been in me And you never see in me Some place Somewhere There's a place somewhere Some place where no one cares You can be there, don't be scared The place is everywhere Some place Somewhere

  Song of the day;; → CASTLEBEAT - Change Your Mind Change your mind, change your mind In your life, in your life You'll understand I'm looking out for you And all I want to understand is you In the driveway, how long will you go away? In the driveway, how long will you go away? In your life, in your life In your life, in your life You'll understand I'm looking out for you And all I want to understand is you In the driveway, how long will you go away? In the driveway, how long will you go away?

  Song of the day;; → Asian Kung-Fu Generation - Haruka Kanata 踏み込むぜアクセル 駆け引きは無いさ そうだよ 夜をぬける ねじ込むさ最後に 差し引きゼロさ そうだよ 日々を削る 心をそっと開いてギュっと 引き寄せたら 届くよきっと 伝うよもっと さあ 生き急いで搾り取って 縺れる足 だけど前よりずっとそう 遠くへ 奪い取って掴んだって 君じゃないなら意味は無いのさ だから もっともっともっと 遥か彼方 踏み込むぜアクセル 駆け引きは無いさ そうだよ 夜をぬける ねじ込むさ最後に 差し引きゼロさ そうだよ 日々を削る 心をそっと開いてギュっと 引き寄せたら 届くよきっと 伝うよもっと さあ 生き急いで搾り取って 縺れる足 だけど前よりずっとそう 遠くへ 奪い取って掴んだって 君じゃないなら意味は無いのさ だから 遥か彼方 偽る事に慣れた君の世界を 塗り潰すのさ 白く 白く -- En tykkää siitä, miten arvaamattomia mun tunne- ja olotilat nykyään on. Tai tavallaan onhan ne olleet jo tosi pitkään semmosia, mutta tuntuu koko ajan, että tää vaan pahenee tästä. Ihan niinko se mun sisällä oleva maaginen kuppi alkais pikku hiljaa läikkyä yli. Pahinta tässä on se, että oon kotona, joten mun on vähän pakko yrittää pitää itteni ns. normaalina eikä antautua ahdistukselle tai muille tunteenpurkauksille. Aina se ei onnistu ja se ärsyttää, koska silloin mä haluaisin selittää porukoille, etten mä vaan mökötä silloin kun mua ahdistaa niin paljon etten saa he

  Song of the day;; → Polaris - Above My Head I have these dreams where I'm losing all my teeth Where the walls begin to cave in and bury me beneath (Bury me beneath) And when I wake, there's a part of me that wishes That my nightmares would come true If only just to give me peace I need space, I need a night in my own bed I need this like I need a hole in the head I'm so unprepared to go through this again I'm a wreck, I confess I am in so far above my head And I've been telling everyone that I can't bear the weight When I break, do you break? Do you feel it like your bones are aching? Even as we grow, it hurts to know that some things never change How could I blame you if you walked away? But please believe me when you hear me say I hope you find what you're searching for Don't we all deserve to feel something more? You deserve to feel something more Take the time to mend what's broken, like we did at the start All we leave unspoken will tear us ap

  Song of the day;; → Elvis Depressedly - Pepsi/Coke Suicide Truest love Void on fire You have haunted my desire Always real, always right Always alright Live across Heaven's blood I am forgetting to be someone Always real, always right Always alright Kill me as I become The dull aching heart of everyone Always real, always right Always alright

  Song of the day;; → Els Amics De Les Arts - L'affaire Sofia Una parella lingüística Una oportunitat D'enterrar l'affaire Patrícia A fer dissabte emocional Una estona en cada idioma Trenar una conversació Jo t'ensenyo, tu m'ensenyes I ens ensenyem tots dos Ella era nascuda a Grècia, bressol de grans pensadors De Parmènides a Sòcrates, d'Aristòtil a Plató I jo que desconeixia tots aquells senyors estranys Me'ls imaginava amb barba i fotent gestos molt grans Vaig provar d'impressionar-la Fent un Google d'amagat Llull, Pujols, Ramon Sibiuda Cap dels tres li van sonar Tot mostrant-me l'erotisme Potencial del català Va dir Joan, vull que m'ensenyis A millorar el pronunciar I si haguessis vist com reia intentant dir cotó fluix Hagués dit Despertaferro, l'almogàver que hi ha en tu Amic meu, si mai t'hi trobes no t'ho pensis ni un segon I que la filosofia ens ensenyi a veure el món Em va preguntar en què creia Mentre s'empassava el f

  Song of the day;; → Foot - Despair On Hope Street Did you think I was gonna wait Have it all and eat the cake Free the people, who’ve come too late Cast a line without the bait To get you safe home tonight Seems doubtful without a fight 'Cause I know time ain’t on our side I don’t what you wanted to be I’m sure it had no effect on me And everything will find its place If we forgot this kind of race When you think that things are made You’ll get your button and then you’ll fade The less the people, you’re job is done Rationale is uncommon To get you safe home tonight Seems doubtful without a fight 'Cause I know time ain’t our side I don’t what you wanted to be I’m sure it had no effect on me And everything will find its place If we forgot this kind of race A cinema to watch what’s gone Seems to be a thing that weighs a tonne No matter where you are, I’ll always love you No matter where you are, the sky’s above you What did you want to be?

  Song of the day;; → Good Morning - Warned You He looked to me, it's no surprise And I Well, I I could die But I warned you, I warned you I warned you, I warned you I warned you, I warned you I warned you, I warned you And if I ever look surprised Well, I I'm not trying To lie But I warned you, I warned you I warned you, I warned you I warned you, I warned you I warned you, I warned you

  Song of the day;; → The Weakerthans - Reconstruction Site I'm lost, I'm afraid A frayed rope tying down a leaky boat To the roof of a car on the road in the dark And it's snowing If I'm more, then it means less Last call for happiness I'm your dress near the back of your knees And your slip is showing I'm a float in a summer parade Up the street in the town that you were born in With a girl at the top wearing tulle And a Miss Somewhere sash Waving like the queen Beauty's just another word I'm never certain how to spell Go tell the nurse to turn the TV back on And throw away my misery It never meant that much to me It never sent a Get Well card I broke like a bad joke Somebody's uncle told At a wedding reception in 1972 Where a little boy under a table with cake in his hair Stared at the grown-up feet as they danced and swayed And his father laughed and talked on the long ride home And his mother laughed and talked on the long ride home And he thoug

  Song of the day;; → Like Moths To Flames - The Skeletons I Keep I feel dead in this room Hear the sound of waves I close my eyes And it brings me back to life I've been alone in this room It's hard to cope with the skeletons I keep under my skin I'm losing faith in faith again Days repeat and they turn to weeks Stuck here in between Wishful thinking, it never works Haven't got the nerve When I'm trapped here under water Let me dream When I know I'll drown under water Won't you let me sleep? When I'm trapped here under water Let me dream When I know I'll drown under water Won't you let me sleep? I'm losing faith in faith again Confined to a hell that I call my mind The skeletons I keep are fighting to survive Fighting to survive I'm losing faith in faith again I'm losing faith in faith again When I'm trapped here under water Let me dream When I know I'll drown under water Won't you let me sleep? When I'm trapped here

  Song of the day;; → Cool Rainbows - Pauly Pauly Don't be a stranger Don't be a stranger To love anymore Pauly Call her in Denmark And don't be a stranger To love anymore Tell her Tell her you love her If that's how you really Truly feel Pauly Don't be a stranger Don't be a stranger To love anymore All those Other girls They don't really love you For who you are Pauly Look into the mirror Ask yourself a question Who you are? Pauly Don't be a stranger Don't be a stranger To love anymore Pauly Call her in Denmark Tell her you love her You're stranger no more

  Song of the day;; → Solguden & Mannen - Madhouse 2021 Du har klamma, jeg har HIV Tar viagra så jeg blir stiv Kall meg pappa Kom å få dumpa For baby girl jag gillar när du ristar på rumpa Ristar på rumpa, ristar på rumpa For baby girl jag gillar när du ristar på rumpa Ristar på rumpa, ristar på rumpa For baby girl jag gillar när du Så si meg baby skal du poppe LSD Amfetamin og heroin i blodårene (Madhouse) Fiksa GHB helt til du går ned Jeg vil ha en 03 ned på knærne Jeg vil ha en 03 ned på knærne Du har klamma, jeg har HIV Tar viagra så jeg blir stiv Kall meg pappa Kom å få dumpa For baby girl jag gillar när du ristar på rumpa Ristar på rumpa, ristar på rumpa For baby girl jag gillar när du ristar på rumpa Ristar på rumpa, ristar på rumpa For baby girl jag gillar när du Jeg lever som en rock star Født med alt for mye penger Kuken måler 30, når den er stiv er den lenger Jeg liker deg best drita full, wooah Er du edru kan du gå nå Inne skal vi drikke opp pengene med mine Jeg spander

  Song of the day;; → Hollywood Undead & GHØSTKID - Idol I think I'm an angel, but I am cursed Riding so painful, ghost-whipping the hearse My secrets are shameful, my secrets are faithful My life is no fable, I'm an archangel Fiends and I'm filling 'em drugs and I'm dealing 'em, pack the shit up The orders, I'm filling 'em, load the clip up 'Cause I stay drilling 'em, what did you say? Slow down, son, you're killing 'em What do you do? They look up to you A porcelain doll, an idol, a tool You dropped outta school, you're burning up fuel An angel of death, the face of a ghoul I ain't your idol, kid, I'm just a gangster I cannot save you, son, I ain't no savior I ain't your idol, kid, and I'm full of hatred I cannot save you now, I ain't no savior I ain't your idol, kid I ain't your idol, kid No, I ain't your idol, kid, your idol No, I ain't your idol, kid, your idol Hast dir so oft gewünscht

  Song of the day;; → The Strokes - Last Nite Last night, she said Oh, baby, I feel so down Oh, it turns me off When I feel left out So I, I turned 'round Oh, baby, don't care no more I know this for sure I'm walking out that door Well, I've been in town for just 'bout fifteen, oh, minutes now And baby, I feel so down And I don't know why I keep walking for miles And say, people, they don't understand No, girlfriends, they can't understand Your grandsons, they won't understand On top of this, I ain't ever gonna understand Last night, she said Oh, baby, don't feel so down Oh, it turns me off When I feel left out So I, I turned 'round Oh, baby, gonna be alright It was a great big lie 'Cause I left that night, yeah Oh, people, they don't understand No, girlfriends, they don't understand In spaceships, they won't understand And me, I ain't ever gonna understand Last night, she said Oh, baby, I feel so down See, it turns me

  Song of the day;; → Lyu:Lyu - Akatsuki 世界は誰のものですか この命は誰の為ですか 冷たい刃を腕に当てたまま 赤子のように泣いて終わる 最低な自分を感じて 少しだけ安心した 大丈夫　また踏み出せるさ 命に意味など無い ねえ　その手を握ってしまったら もうここには戻れないよ ホラ　見なよ　太陽が昇ってゆく 僕らを無視したまま 砂嵐　垂れ流すノイズ 期待など初めから持っていない 何度も　確かめるように呟いて 笑おうとした　これが抵抗さ 無くすくらいなら初めから きつく目を閉じていたのに 無駄な努力に思えるほど その声が　温かかった ねえ　暁の下 遠くへ行った　星達を見送って ホラ　歩こう　僕らの世界はここ どこにも逃げられはしない ねえ　その手を握って例え君を 傷付けてしまっても ホラ　見なよ　太陽が昇ってゆく 僕らを無視したまま ねえ　暁の下 遠くへ行った　星達を見送って ホラ　歩こう　全ての絶望と今 君の手を強く握って -- Huomenna on pyykkipäivä. Pitäis varmaan kans käydä apteekissa kun alkaa Lantus loppua. Keskiviikkona terapia ja onneksi vasta yhdeltä.

  Song of the day;; → Hollywood Undead - Worth It Hold me closely Never let me go, you're my only I'm worthless, you're perfect Somehow you make me feel like I'm worth it Hold me closely Never let me go, you're my only I'm worthless, you're perfect Somehow you make me feel like I'm worth it I wish I could turn back time I wish I could press rewind If I had a dime for every time I lied Then I could probably buy a fucking private island It's once in a lifetime you find a diamond But I traded it in for all those mindless nights, and I just forgot about you I regret everything that I put you through And I could try and pretend that I won't do it again But it's impossible when I never face the truth But this is probably not even what you want from me Maybe I'll use honesty just to break monotony No way you're stopping me All I do is constantly hope to god this is my last apology Hold me closely Never let me go, you're my only I'm w

  Song of the day;; → Sleeping Wolf - Ghost Hey, when you're walking in With another guy tryin' to pretend Hey, bet you don't see me Workin' on a little game of jealousy Oh, but I've seen it before If you want to leave, while you're back for more You just keep diggin' it up So I turn and talk to a girl who's nothing like you So I don't think about you, but I do I keep fighting, and I, I keep trying hard to let you go But I just can't let you go Yea, I can't shake you off me, babe You're love is like a ghost You're love is like a ghost Hey, I remember us Lovin' through the night couldn't get enough You, in the summer dress Movin' in the moonlight, drunk as hell Yea, all our history Is hidden in these walls Buried underneath But I just keep digging it up I keep fighting, and I, I keep trying hard to let you go But I just can't let you go Yea, I can't shake you off me, babe You're love is like a ghost You're l

  Song of the day;; → Audioslave - Like a Stone On a cobweb afternoon in a room full of emptiness By a freeway, I confess I was lost in the pages Of a book full of death, reading how we'll die alone And if we're good, we'll lay to rest anywhere we want to go In your house, I long to be Room by room, patiently I'll wait for you there like a stone I'll wait for you there alone And on my deathbed, I will pray to the gods and the angels Like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven To a place I recall, I was there so long ago The sky was bruised, the wine was bled, and there you led me on In your house, I long to be Room by room, patiently I'll wait for you there like a stone I'll wait for you there alone, alone And on I read until the day was gone And I sat in regret of all the things I've done For all that I've blessed and all that I've wronged In dreams until my death, I will wander on In your house, I long to be Room by room, patiently I'

  Song of the day;; → Hollywood Undead - Unholy What's up? Here we go Unholy Unholy You say you're out here looking for a miracle Yeah, I'm prepared to give you something biblical Try and stop me, that shit is pitiful It's pitiful You're in danger If the person in the mirror is a stranger I know you're holding on to all that anger Is it the reflection of a savior? A savior Bow down if you wanna be saved I'm not sorry, I'll give you something to hate You can't change me, it's already too late You think I'm unholy? Wait till you know me Unholy Unholy The world has always labeled me a nihilist Because I find the beauty in the violence My mind is always loudest in the silence A living contradiction Every single day's stranger than fiction I'm afflicted by my own affliction I'm addicted to my own addiction It's like a beast Bow down if you wanna be saved I'm not sorry, I'll give you something to hate You can't change me

  Song of the day;; → JOHAN - Oceans I've been hanging on so long I've been living on my own Waiting for you I've been helpless since you're gone Getting tired of being alone Keep thinking of you I cannot sleep you never call I can't believe how deep I've fallen into you So if you're lonely Then I will swim the ocean Pull me under water Find me crawling on the ocean floor If you need me Then I will cross the ocean Walk upon the water The tides will bring me to the ocean shore If you want me Why don't you give a sign? You live in a different world And all the seas have parted you from me Getting close but I can't reach you There's a giant gap between us Can't you see? I can't take it anymore I never make it to your door I might drown But if you're lonely Then I will swim the ocean Pull me under water Find me crawling on the ocean floor If you need me Then I will cross the ocean Walk upon the water Tides will bring me to the ocean shore

  Song of the day;; → Within Temptation & Jacoby Shaddix - The Reckoning As cold as stone, they march in darkness Enslaving the young and killing their fathers But soon they'll know the path they've chosen Has carved their faith in stone In blood and tears, a thousand times We rise against, we'll always hold the line of reckoning Red tears run down like a river Don't close your eyes, it won't disappear No fear you wanna end the pain Don't let go, don't back down, hold the line, we'll bring the reckoning (Bring the reckoning) In blood and tears, a thousand times We rise against, we'll always hold the line of reckoning We're all alone, walking in twilight The night has been long, and so many have fallen Feel no remorse, light will be breaking Our freedom is worth it all In blood and tears, a thousand times We'll rise against, we'll always hold the line of reckoning Red tears run down like a river Don't close your eyes, it won't

  Song of the day;; → Hollywood Undead & Killstation - Monsters All these monsters are real All these monsters are real, it wasn't in my head All these monsters are real They're underneath my bed, yeah All these monsters are real All these monsters are real, it wasn't in my head All these monsters are real They're underneath my bed, yeah Cemetery walls in Glassell Park Some people die before it gets dark Down on Drew Street, they'll test your heart You better test back or they'll rip you apart How do you escape a voice in the next room? Show me a home, I'll show you a tomb A dead memory to a dead melody Is that what you're selling me? Your picket fence dream? No innocence lost, no innocence gone No one's innocent, it was you all along Nothing washes it away, no such thing as better days Not a single story, I'd tell a single soul A long goodbye, I guess that's how it goes The monsters are real, and everybody knows That under the bed, the m