BLOOD RED ROSES.

  Song of the day;; → PhaseOne & Northlane - Crash & Burn Who are you talking to? What are you trying to prove? To everyone else Who is superior? How is your vision clearer than anyone else? Your head's in the sky, in flight, but you will crash and burn (Crash and burn, crash and burn) But you will crash and Crash and burn Your wings seared by the sun You flew too close, you can't outrun The truth you fear It's under your skin Crash and burn Crash and burn Your worthless words will disappear into the atmosphere Disappear Your head's in the sky, in flight, but you will crash and burn (Crash and burn, crash and burn) But you will crash and burn You'll never learn The nothingness you preach as truth It goes unheard You'll crash and burn Just wait your turn The line between opinion and fact is blurred Your wings seared by the sun You flew too close, you can't outrun The truth you fear It's under your skin You are nothing You are nothing Who are you t

  Song of the day;; → Odin Sørlie - Lucida

  Song of the day;; → Zibra - PARIS We like the quiet life, we like the country life We like every single life but a city life Because it's too much for us to take a hold, oh Look at those busy bees, with the black berets Lookin' fly and stylish Well, you wanna know somethin' mate? Fuck you, oh Everybody looks so cold, so I'm pretty much good to go And it's down in the city, down in the city Comin' in to go, everybody l-l-looks so cold And it's down in the city, down in the city Paris, wakin' up in Paris, oh-ooh Paris, wakin' up in Paris, oh-oh Paris, wakin' up in Paris, oh-ooh Paris, wakin' up in Paris, oh-oh We like the lonely life, we like the horny life We like every single life but a city life Because it's too much for us to take control, oh Look at the Champs-Elysees The Eiffel Tower straight behind me And I don't know what the hell to fuckin' do, oh Everybody looks so cold, so I'm pretty much good to go And it's dow

  Song of the day;; → Hector Berlioz, Orchestre Révolutionnaire et Romantique & John Eliot Gardiner - Symphonie fantastique, Op.14: 2. Un bal (Valse: Allegro non troppo) -- Tänään oli sairaanhoitajan aika. Päätettiin, että ei sittenkään nosteta tuota Brintellixiä vielä 20mg koska mun keho ei näköjään kestäkään sitä vielä, vaan mennään nyt tuolla 15mg jonkin aikaa että systeemi tottuis eka siihen. Harmittaahan se, mut en voi sille mitään että mun keho on tosi herkkä kaikenmoisille sivuvaikutuksille. Kävin käynnin jälkeen seikkailemassa K-Citymarketissa (ekaa kertaa sinä aikana kun oon asunut täällä!), siellä oli Essencen uusia kynsilakkoja joten oli pakko ostaa pari. Pari niitä tais vielä jäähä. Keräilen siis tosiaan Essencen kynsilakkoja koska a) ne on tosi edullisia ja b) ne on tosi hyvälaatusia. Muutenkin kosmetiikassa tykkään Essencestä tosi paljon, koska niitten hinta-laatusuhde on varmaan kaikista paras. Huomenna on sitten fysioterapia.

  Song of the day;; → Counterparts - The Disconnect All of our lives we’ve been told what to believe Nothing is perfect, so what’s the point of purpose? The line that separates the weak from us who truly care Is one I don’t intend to cross The heart of man beats but only in greedy hands And it seems that most are still content Where most are comfortable accepting insignificance We strive to find the effort within You open up your eyes, and open up your mind You will be exposed, to a world as cold As those who are left to populate it Two decades spent swallowing lie, after lie Has sparked a fire in my heart And the time has come to spread the flame We can’t continue wasting time Day after day trying to find a new means of escape We can’t continue wasting time Day after day I do it day after day I do it day after fucking day And I can’t face the disconnect I’ll shed the dead weight and rise And I can’t face the disconnect I’ll shed the dead weight and rise I never thought, that I would n

  Song of the day;; → Aimee Fleur - Windswept -- Tänään oli fysioterapia. Nyt ollaan suurin piirtein puolessa välissä, eli vielä on sellaset 20 kertaa jäljellä. Loppuvuodesta pidetään varmaan lääkärin, sairaanhoitajan ja fysioterapeutin kanssa sellanen yhteistapaaminen, katellaan miten sitten jatkossa. Keskiviikkona on sitten sairaanhoitajan aika ja jos en nyt ihan väärin muista niin fysioterapia on torstaina.

  Song of the day;; → The Horrors - Press Enter to Exit What does it tell you when you change into a stranger? What words can never be denied? When does it start to turn the shade into a shadow? How does your life become a lie? Questions unanswered You walk into the storm Because there's no point in waiting now For the promise of a cure Stuck in an echo, an echo of life Stuck in an echo of life There's only so far that the eye can see And if you think twice would you still believe This moment in time that will soon repeat Until you get beyond Quiet we try, we cross so many lifetimes Where is the message that you sent? And you don't need to leave, you only need a lifeline It's the beginning of the end Promises broken, and words make their return So what are you waiting for when the cure is now a curse? Stuck in an echo, an echo of life Stuck in an echo of life There's only so far that the eye can see And if you think twice would you still believe This moment in time

  Song of the day;; → Johann Sebastian Bach & Simon Preston - Prelude and Fugue in A minor, BWV 543: 2. Fugue

  Song of the day;; → Treated - Never Enough Promise me please If you leave just let it rain 'Cause as soon as I drown I make sure I’ll forget this pain Strike a match and burn it down 'Cause it held you back for far too long All this wrong places, all these wrong faces This is my time of letting go Years passing by There’s no hope for tomorrow I still need to try Now I know I was never enough, I was never enough If the time stood still, you’d just stand there and stare What are you waiting for, what are you waiting for I was meant for something more This is my time time of lеtting go This is my time time of letting go I’m looking ahеad I’m still longing for more I’m still blind to see the truth I still need to try Now I know I was never enough, I was never enough If the time stood still, you’d just stand there and stare What are you waiting for, what are you waiting for I was meant for something more Strike a match and burn it down 'Cause it held you back for far too long

  Song of the day;; → Patrizio Pisani - Eleonora -- Olin sen verran väsynyt tänään, että lepäilin vaan, kattelin Netflixiä ja otin muuten vaan iisisti. Huomenna mulla on tosiaan se helvetin verikoe at the ass crack of dawn joten hoitelen sit sen jälkeen avainten palauttamiset ja postipaketin hakemiset ja pyykkivuoron varailut sun muut. Mulla on myös fysioterapia kello 11 että kerkiän varmaan ennen sitä saaja kaiken muun tehtyä.

  Song of the day;; → Wild Nothing - Partners in Motion I caught you in the dog house Drinking coffee with your new wife How is your new life swiping through headlines? How do you find the time? You two look very nice (very nice) Silver in your eyes The sinning that's committed Red and open wide Of life in the wild You're looking very nice You're looking very nice Now I'm obsessive, walking through keyholes Fixing picture prints, letting the soil drain I had a temper, but now I'm delicate I keep it to myself, I keep it to myself Silver in your eyes The sinning that's committed Red and open wide Of life in the wild Partners in motion, beautiful devotion Take over dream nights to find love Partners in motion, beautiful devotion To know you can, you don't have to go Partners in motion, beautiful devotion Take on my dream Partners in motion, beautiful devotion -- Tuli parin päivän breikki tuossa kun piti käydä pyörähtämässä sairaalassa taasen. Ei ollu sentään ke

  Song of the day;; →  Sergei Rachmaninoff - Siren: Lilacs, Op.21, No.5

  Song of the day;; → Memphis May Fire - Somebody I been headed to the bottom of the barrel for a while now I think I need to slow down I been blaming everybody but myself and yet somehow I feel the weight deep down Yeah, you know me Making friends with all my demons Never lonely Self-destructive and I know it But it's only A matter of time Before I'm outta my mind I think I need a lifeline I don't know when I became somebody Somebody I don't recognise I swear to God I never saw this coming I never thought I'd leave it all behind I want it, don't need it, I had to realize I hate it, I feel it, believe my own lies I really think that I could use somebody Somebody to bring me back to life Sometimes it comes in waves and hits me outta nowhere like a hurricane Feels like I'm going insane I don't wanna be a problem but my self-control's a losing game When the venom's in my veins Yeah, you know me Making friends with all my demons Never lonely Self-des

  Song of the day;; → Salomea Jaworska - Ty

  Song of the day;; → The Smiths - There Is a Light That Never Goes Out Take me out tonight Where there's music and there's people And they're young and alive Driving in your car I never, never want to go home Because I haven't got one anymore Take me out tonight Because I want to see people And I want to see lights Driving in your car, oh, please don't drop me home Because it's not my home, it's their home And I'm welcome no more And if a double-decker bus crashes into us To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die And if a ten-tonne truck kills the both of us To die by your side, well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine Take me out tonight Take me anywhere, I don't care, I don't care, I don't care And in the darkened underpass I thought, Oh god, my chance has come at last But then a strange fear gripped me and I just couldn't ask Take me out tonight Oh, take me anywhere, I don't care, I don't care, I don't care Drivin

  Song of the day;; → Joseph Haydn & Takács Quartet - String Quartet in D major, Hob.III:79. Op.76, No.5: 4. Finale -- Huomenna on sekä fysioterapia että sairaanhoitajan aika. Fysioterapia on kello 10 ja sh:n aika kello 14. Tuun siinä välissä varmaan kämpille touhuamaan jotain randomia. Melkein kaikki tavarat on nyt purettu ja jos ihan 100% rehellisiä ollaan, ei mua sillein kiinnosta onko ne nätisti tuolla kaapissa tai vaatehuoneessa, kunhan ne on poissa silmistä. Sain Kelalta päätöksen kuntoutustuen jatkumisesta (eli jatkuu elokuun 2024 loppuun saakka) ja arvasinkin että se yli 16-vuotiaiden vammaistuki ei mee läpi. Eipä se haittaa, kun ei mulla sitä koskaan oo ollutkaan. Porukat tulee perjantaina tänne ja ne on yötä täällä (ei siis tässä mun yksiössä sentään, sisko on pelkästään täällä yötä) niin sitten saadaan siivota tuo entinen kämppä rauhassa. Jotenkin tosi kiva että porukat tulee ihan yöksi, oon jotenkin odottanut sitä siitä lähtien kun muutin tänne. Muistaisinkohan mä käydä

  Song of the day;; → Asking Alexandria - The Grey The come down is killing me The slow fade, the fast release I know I can't keep this up forever The light burns, please close the shades I'm alright, I can numb the pain I don't want to see the world today I don't want this I can't get out Self-loathing's overwhelming Lay me down And lead me into the grey Don't make a sound Just leave me alone in the dark Is aching, my vision's blurred I'm lonely, it's what I deserve How long can I keep this up? The silence is deafening The demons I'm harboring Are screaming and I can't pull away I don't want this I can't get out Self-loathing's overwhelming Lay me down And lead me into the grey Don't make a sound Just leave me alone in the dark Lead me into the grey I don't want this I can't get out Self-loathing's overwhelming Lay me down And lead me into the grey Don't make a sound Just leave me alone in the dark Leave m

Song of the day;; → Kasper Schill - Ava  -- Mulle tulee tästä biisistä aina mieleen What Remains of Edith Finch. Aivan loistava peli, suosittelen jos yhtään tarinavetoiset ja ns. walking simulatorit kiinnostaa.

  Song of the day;; → Courteeners - Will It Be This Way Forever? A bicycle shop at the end of the road A Chinese chippy to ease the load The lights are low, the life's not fair But what I have is yours to share Victoria Park, after dark Kissing on the wall trying not to fall Into your heart and into your head Take me somewhere else, take me to your bed Naïve, young and not too clever Will it be this way forever? Naïve, young and not too clever Will it be this way forever? Will it be this way forever? Like two students in love, waltzing along I have been both, but not for very long Like two drunk dancers, juvenile chancers One sets the other one off Naïve, young and not too clever Will it be this way forever? Naïve, young and not too clever Will it be this way forever? Will it be this way forever? Angel as you go down, I'll let you know tomorrow Change your plea to guilty and another day we'll borrow A bicycle shop at the end of the road A Chinese chippy to ease the load The

  Song of the day;; → William Walton, Paul Neubauer, Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra & Andrew Litton - Concerto for Viola and Orchestra: 2. Vivo con molto preciso

  Song of the day;; → Asking Alexandria - Fame So you want fame? Everybody in the world to know your name How far will you go to outrun your pain? I can take you away Do you wanna play my game? So you want money? So much of the shit that it's almost funny How much attention do you need To fill the hole you feel? Tell me, do you want money? Well, light me up and watch me fly I might change my mind a thousand times But I'll get us there alright Just light me up and watch me So you want sex? Anybody that you please, that you wanna fuck next Take your pick 'cause they're champing at the bit to scratch your itch So you want sex? Well, do you wanna die? Have the whole world fall apart, break down and cry Do you think that'll stop the voices insidе? Telling you your whole life's a liе? Telling you you're better off to die? (Do you wanna die?) Light me up and watch me fly I might change my mind a thousand times But I'll get us there alright Just light me up and

  Song of the day;; → Leroy Denby - Ponderosa Pine -- Tänään oli aika... väsynyt ja aikaansaamaton päivä. Fiilis oli aika semmonen meh, eli ei oikein ollu minkäänlaista fiilistä. Röiukko kävi siinä kymmenen maissa asentamassa uuden hellan ja mä vähän laittelin nuita tavaroita kunnes en jaksanu (koska en oo nukkunut pariin päivään taas mitenkään erityisen hyvin) ja nukuin sit oikiastaan loput päivästä. Kattelin vaan Netflixiä sitten ilalla ja kävin suihkussa. Huomenna pitää käydä kaupassa joten pitää ryhdistäytyä. Sit voisin kanssa ottaa sellasen kunnon raivospurtin noitten vaatteiden kanssa ja käydä lenkillä jos on kiva keli.

  Song of the day;; → Courteeners - Lose Control Lately I've been going through One or two things that would make the nurses on the ward turn blue Rabbit in the headlights with no place else to go Can you pinpoint the place where you lost control? Where did you lose control? Where did you lose control? You looked amazing, radiant like the sun I was hold up in the hall of holes hiding from everyone If I dried up, then I'll come back drowned Welcome to this town Where did you lose control? Where did you lose control? Rabbit in the headlights with no place else to go Can you pinpoint the place where you lost control? Where did you lose control? Where did you lose control? -- Tänään oli sairaanhoitajan aika, sekin meni ihan kivasti. Sen jälkeen kävin entisellä kämpällä, vein sieltä vähän roskia pois ja kävin sitten Tokmannissa. Laittelin vähäsen vaatteita kaappiin sun muuta ja kävin lenkillä. Olisin mielelläni halunnu nukkua huomenna vähän pidempään ko ei tarvi mennä mihinkään, mut

  Song of the day;; → Johann Sebastian Bach & Arthur Grumiaux - Sonata for Violin Solo No. 1 in G Minor, BWV 1001: 1. Adagio -- Siis kertokaa mulle että millä helvetin logiikalla Kela sanoo mulle, että voin tehä hakemuksen yli 16-vuotiaan vammaistuesta kevyet 9 vuotta sen jälkeen, kun oon täyttänyt 16? Ei siinä, tein sen ja en höviä mitään jos se hylätään kun eihän mulla sitä aiemminkaan oo ollut. Tänään kävi röiukko vaihtamassa mulle vessaan valon kun se oli vähän paska ja mä sain kaikki kengät ja takit järjesteltyä, samoin kuin kosmetiikan. Mulla on aivan perkeleesti takkeja. Mietin, että tohon eteiseen vois hommata jonkun pienen säilytysjutskan, lipaston tai jonkun vastaavan hyllykköräjähdyksen. Alotin myös vaatteita laittelemaan, mut se jäi vielä puolitiehen kun piti päästä lenkille. Keli oli niin hyvä. Huomenna sairaanhoitajan aika  ja sen jälkeen käyn entisellä kämpillä. Vituttaa vaan, kun en oo vielä löytäny mun bussikorttia, mut eiköhän se jostain ilmaannu. Onneks lähimaksu

  Song of the day;; → Asking Alexandria - Misery Loves Company Slamming doors, spitting venom It's hard to envision this house without paranoia All our actions and words that we do just to hurt Because misery, misery loves company So you blame someone else So you don't have to blame yourself It doesn't have to be like this What we stand here to stand for To make a better day out of the bed you made What we came here to fight for Is it a lot to ask to let go of the past? Hearts don't have to break in our home In our home, in our home Hеarts don't have to break in our home In our homе, in our home Tempers rise, all the screaming I can't comprehend where I stand It's like navigating hypocritical moving of lines That you've drawn in your mind I wish I knew what was going on But your past is still haunting you I can't control it but it doesn't have to be like this What we stand here to stand for To make a better day out of the bed you made What we cam

  Song of the day;; → Sigríður - Interconnectivity -- En kamalasti jaksanu mitään tänään järjestellä koska kädet ja jalat on aivan vitun liian poikki eilisestä, mut laittelin vähän kenkiä vaatehuoneeseen sekä kirjoja, mangaa ja levyjä kirjahyllyyn. Laittelin myös vähän ledvaloja, kun tykkään iltaisin olla muuten pimiässä mut sillein että on muutama tommonen valoketju päällä. Eihän mulla mikään kiire ole, että pitäis kaiken olla heti tiptop-kunnossa. Huomenna fysioterapia heti aamusta ja sen jälkeen käyn kaupassa.

  Song of the day;; → Local Natives - When Am I Gonna Lose You Wait, when am I gonna lose you? How will I let you slip through? Careless or unkind? Trace the curving of the coastline The Santa Lucia cliffside We'll stay here for the night I remember you said Everything has its place Now I lie in our bed Wondering how to explain You When am I gonna lose you? When am I gonna lose you? When am I gonna lose you? When am I gonna lose Take another one if you need it Or do you already feel it? I felt it from the start Engrave the silhouette of you dancing A shadow play that we're cast in On the cabin walls You might also like You were floating to me In a slow-motion fade Could I finally see Between belief and faith? You When am I gonna lose you? When am I gonna lose you? When am I gonna lose you, you? When am I gonna lose I remember you closing the shutters And laying down by my side And the light that was still slipping through It was painting your body in stripes I remember the tree

  Song of the day;; → Ólafur Arnalds & Alice Sara Ott - Eyes Shut (Nocturne in C Minor) -- Kävin tänään hakemassa uuden kämpän avaimet ja tarkistamassa, että kaikki on varmasti huomista varten kunnossa. Oli kyllä ja stressi helpottaa jo jonkin verran ko tietää että kohta tää rumba on ohi. Tiskasin ja vein loput pullot ja tölkit kauppaan. Ostin vielä pari muovikoria lisää, että sain kaiken lopun kosmetiikan pakattua ja pakkasin sitten matkalaukun täyteen. Huomenna, kunhan oon herännyt ja sitä rataa, pakkaan astiat sekä loput vaatteet ja randomit tavarat mitä täällä vielä pyöriskelee. Porukat on täällä varmaan jossain puolen päivän aikaan, joten mulla on hyvin siinä aikaa laitella loput kamat kasaan (koska olin laiska paska enkä jaksanu enää illalla tässä laittaa niitä lol oli pakko käydä lenkillä kun teki mieli ihan helvetisti saaja vähän raitista ilmaa). Ai niin, ja hyvää syyskuuta! Miten helvetissä voi olla jo syyskuu? Teema onkin tällä kertaa oikein vuodenaikaan sopiva ja harkite