BLOOD RED ROSES.

  Song of the day;; → Diaura - 断頭台から愛を込めて 向日葵は揺れる怖わも知らずに 「不要な種は燃やしてしまえば」 誰の為に産まれ 朽ちて混ざり溶けた 「どうして...?」 届かない声 さよならだねもう 黒く燃える空を仰いだ ほらご覧、これは君の未来 冷にく触れる鋼の枷に脈打つだけ もう戻れない もう戻せない もう届かない空 最後の風に舞う 僕らは自由になる 黒く燃える空を仰ぎ叫ぶ さよならだねもう 別れが来てしまう 僕は瞳を閉じるから背お向けて さよなら忘れない I will forget me now I will forget you now I will forget me now You will forget me now -- Huomenna on fysioterapia ja käyn sen jälkeen Tokmannissa. Pitää ostaa vanulappuja ja pumpulipuikkoja ja ois kiva jos löytyis joku random suklaakalenteri. Mulla on jo tuollainen Harry Potter-sukkakalenteri, mut kyllä se joku suklaatihommeli pitää myös olla. Sain tänään tiskattua ja oon melkein saanut yhden kirjan luettua tässä! Ekan sitten kesäloman ja oon ylpeä itsestäni, koska lukemiseen keskittyminen on ollu tosi hankalaa jo monta vuotta. Puhuttiinkin viimeks hoitajan kanssa vähän nuista että miten masennus vaikuttaa kognitiivisiin kykyihin ja aika lailla kaikkia niitä mitä tuli esille oon myös huomannu itellä. Huomenna saakin sitten avata ekan luuku

  Song of the day;; → Piano Fruits Music & Benjamin Cambridge - Indulge

  Song of the day;; → Close Talker - The Change It Brings Wonder why I argue with myself sometimes Feeling that I'm leaning into a new life But everything is alright Everything is just fine when we're together Here's the thing, about time And the change it brings For the worse and for the better I want us to progress onto a brand new page And I want us to keep looking back on this with some saving grace Cause everything, is alright Everything, is just fine when we're together Here's the thing, about time And the change it brings For the worse and for the better Everything is alright Everything will be just fine when this is over Here's the thing, about time It changes just about everything For the worse and for the better -- Nyt se on onneks ohi. Meni se kai ihan hyvin, mut mulle ei jääny mitenkään erityisen luottavainen fiilis. Tuntu välillä nimittäin siltä, että mua arvosteltiin (ei ääneen vaan sillein hiljaisesti, you know?) eikä ne haastattelijat näyttäny mi

  Song of the day;; → Caveman - In the City We’re in the city She came around at the right time And if you’ll need me Hope this was made for a good time Where did you see me? How do you run for a long time? There if you need me Hope this was made for a good time It’s like the ones who only know It seems like the ones who always go I don’t want to go I don’t want to go We’re in the city She came around at the right time And if you’ll need me Hope this was made for a good time It’s like the run to all we know Seems like we want to always go I don’t want to leave home I don’t want to leave home I don’t want to leave home -- Tänään oli sairaanhoitajan aika ja fysioterapia, kummatkin meni aika jees, etenkin fysioterapia tuntu jotenkin tosi kivalta tänään. Johtuu ehkä siitä, että huomenna on se haastattelu. Ahistaa kyllä ihan helvetisti, aika paskajäykkänä sitä varmaan etenkin huomenna ollaan. Ja sitten kun ei pelkästään se ite haastattelu ahista vaan myös se, että kerkiänhän varmasti sinne

  Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Bastards (Hate, hate, hate, hate) Rise up (Hate), are you ready (Hate) For rebellion (Hate) and anarchy? (Hate) Rise up (Hate), are you ready (Hate) For rebellion (Hate) and anarchy? (Hate) Stand with me, we can be an army of minorities Just believe, taking on the world with no apologies Will bring them to their knees Lies, denial, corruption, criminals Don't repeat, see the puppets dancing, marching to the beat No retrеat, fight until the death in order to proceed Wе won't accept defeat Waitin' for our call to arms Fuck 'em all Rise up, are you ready for rebellion and anarchy? (And anarchy) Don't ever put your future in the hands of the devil or you're history (History) Too long these bastards have been fucking with our sanity (Sanity) So don't put your life in the hands of the devil or you're history (History) Fight with me, together we can overthrow authority Don't concede, we're ripping out the

  Song of the day;; → Fiona Elyse - Flourescent Fields -- Tänään oli fysioterapia ja kävin hakemassa hoitotarvikkeet. Toivottavasti en oo saamassa nyt jotain lenssua kun on tän illan ollu vähän sellanen huterahko olo... katotaan aamusella minkälainen vointi on.

  Song of the day;; → Tom Boy - Lowrider Hey there, lowrider Can I borrow your ride For a few quick hours? Drive down through these hills Spill around the valley ‘til I get my fill I can’t take these crowds Wanna roll down the window And just mellow out But all I can hear you say is Someday you’ll fit in Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Someday you’ll fit in Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Someday you’ll fit Park the car by the falls It’s nature vs. humans collecting strip malls Get out of my head Silence leaves room For the unsaid Bide my time til’ the day That I never have to see this awful place again Oh, all I can hear you say is Someday you’ll fit in Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Someday you’ll fit in Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh Someday you’ll fit A petty argument For a captive audience Beneath these old tombstones Maybe I wil

  Song of the day;; → Beach House - Dive Tell her something Tell her nothing Tell her that you’re Waiting And I know you like it So you try to hide it I was looking Out the window All the people Waiting Tell her something Tell her nothing Tell her that you’re Fading And I know you like it So you try to hide it And you know I like it So I dive to find it In eyes, lost in confusion Golden hearts, left all illusion Is it my imagination? Shadow, flicker creation In, high over the ocean Waves crash mechanical motion Left all illusion Left all illusion -- Sain vihdoin ja vitun viimein tänään tiskattua. Seuraava sielua syövä tehtävä ois käydä varaamassa pyykkivuoro ja ai jumalauta että mä vihaan pyykkäämistä kun sen joutuu tekemään pyykkituvassa. Olispa pesukone (mun kämpässä itseasiassa on paikka sellaselle mutta kun en omista enkä halua nyt semmoseen alkaa tässä investoimaan).

  Song of the day;; → One Morning Left - Beat It They told him, don't you ever come around here Don't wanna see your face, you better disappear The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear So beat it, just beat it You better run, you better do what you can Don't wanna see no blood, don't be a macho man You wanna be tough, better do what you can So beat it, but you wanna be bad So beat it (Beat it) Beat it (Beat it) No one wants to be defeated Showin' how funky and strong is your fight It doesn't matter who's wrong or right Bеat it (Beat it) Beat it (Beat it) No onе wants to be defeated Showin' how funky and strong is your fight It doesn't matter who's wrong or right Just beat it Beat it, beat it Beat it Beat it, beat it They're out to get you, better leave while you can Don't wanna be a boy, you wanna be a man You wanna stay alive, better do what you can So beat it, just beat it You have to show them that you're reall

  Song of the day;; → Renato Luigi - Bergamo -- Tänään piti olla fysioterapia, mut fysioterapeutti sairastui joten siirrettiin aika perjantaille. En jaksanu tiskata vaikka olis varmaan pitänyt, mutta teen sen huomenna.

  Song of the day;; → Death Cab for Cutie - Summer Years Sometimes I wake at night And watch the rain fall through the street lights 'Cause you're standing still in my mind Fading out, waving goodbye And I wonder where you are tonight If the one you're with was a compromise As we're walking lines in parallel That will never meet and it's just as well Sometimes I'm overcome By every choice I couldn't outrun The junctions all disappear You can't double back to your summer years And I wonder where you are tonight If the one you're with was a compromise As we're walking lines in parallel That will never meet and it's just as well And I wonder where you are tonight If the one you're with was a compromise As we're walking lines in parallel That will never meet and it's just as well It's just as well And I wonder where you are tonight If the one you're with was a compromise As we're walking lines in parallel That will never m

  Song of the day;; → Bedhead - Liferaft The bed at night is a life raft In the ocean of the dark I hang my hands over the sides Pray to God knows what Drifting somewhere in the black air Feeling only the blanket And the weight of the mattress The mistress of the sheets Too many successive nights of being miserable Give one the sense to sense the invisible I know you're in this room but the air is too thick The bed at night is a life boat A throne off which you can't be thrown I hang my hands and feet over the sides And go into the space of what can never be known -- Oli pakko kattoa Rottatouille jälleen kerran tänään. Se on ehottomasti yks mun lempileffoista ja semmonen ultimaattinen comfort-leffa. Rakastan sitä niin paljon.

  Song of the day;; → Deftones - Passenger Here I lay, still and breathless Just like always; still, I want some more Mirrors sideways, who cares what's behind? Just like always, still your passenger Chrome buttons, buckles, and leather surfaces These and other lucky witnesses Now to calm me, this time, won't you, please? Drive faster Roll the window down This cool night air is curious Let the whole world look in Who cares who sees anything? I'm your passenger I'm your passenger Drop these down, then put them on me Nice, cool seats there to cushion your knees Now to calm me, take me around again Don't pull over, this time, won’t you, please? Drive faster Roll the window down This cool night air is curious Let the whole world look in Who cares who sees what tonight? Roll these misty windows down To catch my breath And then go and go and go Just drive me home and back again Here I lay Just like always Don't let me go, go, go, go Go, go, go, go Take me to the edge

  Song of the day;; → Jorulf - Reed Straw

  Song of the day;; → SPINN - After Dark After dark, she said By the park, she said To meet her She had something to say to me She had something to tell I was choked when I walked away from her Heart's off her sleeve, it's smashed to pieces Took down her picture from my wall Heart's off her sleeve, with a smash to pieces Meet me by the car when the sun goes down, I said to him So I could tell him what I was feeling You said we could fix this if we tried But walked away before he listened I was choked when I walked away from him Heart's off his sleeve, it's smashed to pieces Took down his picture from my wall Heart's off his sleeve, with a smash I was choked when I walked away from her Heart's off her sleeve, it's smashed to pieces Took down his picture from my wall Heart's off her sleeve, with a smash to pieces -- Nyt on uutta mustetta ja ai että kun se on upea!! Tykkään tosi paljon tän tatuoijan kädenjäljestä, ehottomasti tulee käytyä tulevaisuudess

  Song of the day;; → Cocteau Twins - Lorelei Get off the car Kick his chain Kick his pride, get him soaked, hit, run Lift up your toes In my mouth And we can make love And we can go And we can go And we can go We're covered by the sacred fire When you come to me, you come to broke Get off the car Kick his chain Kick his pride, get him soaked, hit, run Lift up your toes in my mouth And we can make love And we can go And we can go And we can go And we can go And we can go We're covered by the sacred fire When you come to me, you come to broke Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt Without a doubt We're covered by the sacred fire When you come to me, you come to me broke Guilty girl, guilty boy Get to make out, him chocked with mousse Lift up your toes in my mouth And we can mak

  Song of the day;; → Deftones - Ohms We're surrounded by debris of the past And it's too late to cause a change in the tides So we slip into our hopeless sea of regret as I stare Through the haunted maze in your eyes Right through where I'll remain for all time And time won't change this This promise we made Yeah, the time won't change this It's how it'll stay This is our time, we devour the days ahead We've been possessed by these changing times As we slip on through, we promised to meet again somewhere Through the haunted maze in our minds Right through where we shall remain for all time Yeah, time won't change this This promise we made And time won't change this We shall remain -- Tänään oli fysioterapia, huomenna on sairaanhoitajan aika (täytyy varmaan sen jälkeen kävästä apteekissa hakemassa lisää lääkkeitä) ja keskiviikkona sitten tatuoitavaksi. Perjantaina on kans fysioterapia eli tääkin viikko on aika kiireinen.

  Song of the day;; → Milo Edale - The Riverbank

  Song of the day;; → Sundara Karma - Flame Cold fire feeling is the cold fire feeling in my bones Skylines breathing as the sun lies beating down the door I'm tired of watching the shadows on the wall My eyes are foreseeing The shackles open, we're finally free to bolt If you're done with believing Hold my flame and set alight Hold my fire screaming inside Hold my flame and set alight Hold my fire screaming inside out Hold my flame and set alight Hold my fire screaming inside Hold my flame and set alight Hold my fire screaming inside out Found true meaning, now my head starts spinning out the cave You won't come with me 'cause you're just too comfortable in chains I'm tired of watching the shadows on the wall My eyes are foreseeing The shackles open, we're finally free to bolt If you're done with believing Hold my flame and set alight Hold my fire screaming inside Hold my flame and set alight Hold my fire screaming inside out Hold my flame and set a

  Song of the day;; → Other Lives - Reconfiguration I won't fear my rivals Leave them in the silence I live in the present Moment to moment Moment to moment I don't fear no future Come live on in silence I live in the present Moment to moment Moment to moment Moment to moment Fears i got all messed up Tearing of and on next to mine Fears i got always done It's re-e-e-e-e-configuration It's re-e-e-e-e-configuration Everything's standing out like its wants to feels like i've been here before Everything's standing out like a loss and feels like i've been I won't fear my babbles Leave them in the silence I live in the present Moment to moment Moment to moment I won't fear no future Come live on in silence I live in the present Moment to moment Moment to moment Moment to moment Fears I got, all messed up Tearing of and on next to mine Fears I got always done It's re-e-e-e-econfiguration It's re-e-e-e-econfiguration All my senses become acute I

  Song of the day;; → Deftones - Diamond Eyes To the edge, until we all get off I will take you away with me Once and for all Time will see us realign Diamonds rain across the sky Shower me into the same realm Calculate our embrace Hold on, come with me now Run away, outer space with me Once and for all Time will see us realign Diamonds rain across the sky Shower me into the same realm Time will see us realign Diamonds rain across the sky I will lead us to the same realm Get set When the coffin shakes And the needle breaks Come run away with me Come on, you'll see Once and for all Time will see us realign Diamonds rain across the sky Shower me into the same realm Time will lead us to the same realm I will lead us to the same realm

  Song of the day;; → IGRAINE - When I am with thee -- Tuli pieni muutos suunnitelmiin, kun tatuoija sairastui. Eihän sille mitään voi, siirrettiin aika ens keskiviikolle eli kokeillaan sitten uudestaan! Huomenna fysioterapia.

  Song of the day;; → Arcade Fire - Ready to Start The businessmen are drinking my blood Like the kids in art school said they would And I guess I'll just begin again You say, can we still be friends? If I was scared, I would And if I was bored, you know I would And if I was yours, but I'm not All the kids have always known That the emperor wears no clothes But they bow down to him anyway Because it's better than being alone If I was scared, I would And if I was bored, you know I would And if I was yours, but I'm not Now you're knocking at my door Saying, please come out with us tonight But I would rather be alone Than pretend I feel alright If the businessmen are drinking my blood Like the kids at art school said they would Then I guess I'll just begin again You say, can we still be friends? If I was scared, I would And if I was pure, you know I would And if I was yours, but I'm not Now I'm ready to start If I was scared, I would And if I was pure, you

  Song of the day;; → Jon Hopkins - The Field -- Takasin ollaan, ihanaa. Siskolla on tänään synttärit, tuntuu tosi oudolle ajatella että se täyttää jo 19. Vastahan se oli ihan pieni. Huomenna mulla on tosiaan se verkostopalaveri, jonka jälkeen käyn Postissa ja Tokmannissa ja itseasiassa taidan piipahtaa myös ostamassa rasvaa kun sain tatuointiajan keskiviikolle (!!!). Ihanaa saada taas uutta mustetta! Torstaina on fysioterapia eli aika kiirettä pitää tällä viikolla.

  Song of the day;; → Deftones - Beauty School I like you when, when you take off your face Put away all your teeth And take us way underneath Because you could die if you take it alone I watch you taste it I see your face I know I'm alive You're shooting stars From the barrel of your eyes And it drives me crazy Just drives me wild I kind of like you when, when you make up the reel Take the phone in your room Stop the tape or resume Well, you could try if you think it will load I watch you taste it I see your face I know I'm alive You're shooting stars From the barrel of your eyes And it drives me crazy Just drives me wild Every time, every time you drive me wild It's a beautiful ride Why, it's a beautiful ride I watch you taste it I see your face I know I'm alive You're shooting stars From the barrel of your eyes And it drives me crazy Just drives me wild -- Huomenna lähen takas Ouluun ja sitten mulla onkin heti tiistaina se verkostopalaveri vai mikskä

  Song of the day;; → Michael Nyman - How Should I Live -- Eno kävi tänään, pelattiin kortti- ja lautapelejä sekä Wiillä. Tykkään tämmösistä peli-illoista. Tykkään myös tästä kappaleesta tosi paljon.

  Song of the day;; → David O'Dowda - Poor Wayfaring Stranger I am a poor wayfaring stranger Traveling through this world alone There is no sickness Toil, or other danger In that land to which I call I'm going home I'm going home I'm just going over the Jordan I'm just going home I know a cloud Will hover around me I know my pathway's rough and steep But golden fields lie out before me Where my eyes no more will weep I'm going home I'm going home I'm just going over the Jordan I'm just going home I'm going home I'm going home I'm just going over the Jordan I'm just going home

  Song of the day;; → Adrian Von Ziegler - Oath

  Song of the day;; → Deftones - Digital Bath You move like I want to To see like your eyes do We are downstairs Where no one can see New life break away Tonight, I feel like more Tonight, I You make the water warm You taste foreign And I know you can see The cord break away 'Cause tonight I feel like more Tonight I feel like more Feel like more Tonight You breathed, then you stopped I breathed, then dried you off And tonight I feel Feel like more Oh, tonight I feel like Feel like more Tonight I feel like more Feel like more Tonight -- Hyvää marraskuuta kaikille! Jotenkin hassua ajatella, että tätä vuotta on enää kaks kuukautta jälellä.