Hypa hypa

 Song of the day;;

→ Polaris - Landmine

This is a fall from grace

Can't bear the aftertaste

As you swallow all your pride

Are you satisfied?

(Are you satisfied?)

Every day like a broken record

Every night is a pointless prayer for change

No reprieve

No peace, no release for your middle class rage

Everybody wants to sell you something

Everybody wants a piece of your mind

Bite your tongue and let the crowd speak for you

Head like a hole and a heart like a landmine

(Hey, hey)

Is it any wonder that we end up this way?

(Hey, hey)

Born with a crisis of identity

(Hey, hey)

Is it any wonder that this happens all the time?

Got a head like a hole and a heart like a landmine

Time hits like a freight train

No paycheck can pay back the lost years spent ruminating

Just pain to be gained from your common sense fears

Everybody’s wasting away here

Watch us bloom and decay

Cast to the side (Cast to the side)

No one heard you choking as you

Swallowed your pride (Swallowed your pride)

You say you're happy, but are you satisfied?

No restitution until you understand

This world that left you cold

Will feed you shit till you bite the fucking hand

So tell me where it hurts, if it hurts to be you

If it hurts to be used and abused

If you know where you don't want to be

All the heavy-hearted, sing this with me

(Hey, hey)

Is it any wonder that we end up this way?

(Hey, hey)

Born with a crisis of identity

(Hey, hey)

Is it any wonder that this happens every day?

Are we cursed and condemned to a life of misery?

Tell me where it hurts, if it hurts to be you

If it hurts to be used and abused

If you know where you don't want to be

All the heavy-hearted, sing this with me

(Hey, hey)

All the heavy-hearted sing this with me

(Hey, hey)

Cursed and condemned to a life of misery

White flag

 Song of the day;;

→ Polaris - Above My Head

I have these dreams where I'm losing all my teeth

Where the walls begin to cave in and bury me beneath (Bury me beneath)

And when I wake, there's a part of me that wishes

That my nightmares would come true

If only just to give me peace

I need space, I need a night in my own bed

I need this like I need a hole in the head

I'm so unprepared to go through this again

I'm a wreck, I confess

I am in so far above my head

And I've been telling everyone that I can't bear the weight

When I break, do you break?

Do you feel it like your bones are aching?

Even as we grow, it hurts to know that some things never change

How could I blame you if you walked away?

But please believe me when you hear me say

I hope you find what you're searching for

Don't we all deserve to feel something more?

You deserve to feel something more

Take the time to mend what's broken, like we did at the start

All we leave unspoken will tear us apart

(And I've been dying to get this off my chest)

I'm a wreck, I confess

I am in so far above my head

And I've been telling everyone that I can't bear the weight

When I break, do you break?

Do you feel it like your bones are aching?

Even as we grow, it hurts to know that some things never change

In sight and sound, I found a reason

To stick around, but nothing's changed

I know this time I've pushed your patience

And crossed a line I saw too late

In sight and sound, I found a reason

To stick around, but nothing's changed

I found a reason, but nothing's changed

(And I'm just trying to say)

I'm a wreck, I confess

I am in so far above my head

And I've been telling everyone that I can't bear the weight

When I break, do you break?

Do you feel it like your bones are aching?

Even as we grow, it hurts to know that some things never change

Some things never change

Ending theme

 Song of the day;;

→ Polaris - Vagabond

Yeah

I have lived and died to know that all we love we leave behind

These undertakings take us far from familiar and comfortable things

How much can one heart bear before it tears at the seams?

Is this not all we thought it would be?

Find your peace in a place unknown

And see the world in shades of monochrome

You don't have to walk alone

To know what it feels like when nowhere feels like home

(When nowhere feels like home)

Show me your skin, show me the fear inside your bones

'Cause I've seen a darker side of man than you will ever know

When my lungs refuse to breathe

Will you replenish the air in me?

When my eyes refuse to see

What is standing in front of me

Find your peace in a place unknown

And see the world in shades of monochrome

You don't have to walk alone

To know what it feels like when nowhere feels like

Nowhere feels like home

The streetlights sing me to sleep

The company that I keep

And all that keeps me sane and whole

Will be the death of me

Get me out of here

Lend me your ear, I'll tell you what you need to know

You'll learn to breathe when life has got its hands around your throat

There was a time, there was a place where I could say

That I was unafraid of what this meant to me

Find your peace in a place unknown

And see the world in shades of monochrome

You don't have to walk alone

To know what it feels like when nowhere feels like home

When nowhere feels like home

When nowhere feels like

Face down

 Song of the day;;

→ Polaris - Masochist

This is a place I know too well

Been down here a while if you can't tell

And I have analysed and tried my best to justify

The sorrow I have brought upon myself

Am I addicted to the misery? Is this how I'll always be?

Grinding the salt into every wound

Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment?

You can't trust me to be there for you

I thought I had this, I thought I had this all figured out

You'd think I'd learned from all the shit I fucking screamed about

When there was sun, I couldn't see for the clouds

Still climbing the walls of this well just to dive back down

Until I reached my rock bottom

Down to the marrow, bringing up the bad blood I'd forgotten

Is it me that's making me sick?

Been burning both ends of the wick

Am I addicted to the misery? Is this how I'll always be?

Grinding the salt into every wound

Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment?

You can't trust me to be there for you

I've got this cold black silhouette hanging like a marionette

Casting a shadow, a shade over me

Just a sick, sad, sorry mess, living like a masochist

Your worst impressions were right about me

Your worst impressions were right about me

Your worst impressions were right

I could ask you to stay if you're feeling forgiving

I could live with the guilt if you call this living

I could try to memorise each grain of sand

As it slips through my fingers and falls from my hands

It took me longer than I'd care to admit

This life is only what I choose to make of it

And the only thing standing in between happiness and myself

Was this depression I held so close to my chest

Am I addicted to the misery? Is this how I'll always be?

Grinding the salt into every wound

Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment?

You can't trust me to be there for you

I've got this cold black silhouette hanging like a marionette

Casting a shadow, a shade over me

Just a sick, sad, sorry mess, living like a masochist

Your worst impressions were right about me

Wasting a waning youth

Waiting for something to help me pull through

I never saw the sun through the clouds

I lost faith when the skies were falling down

Red dress

Song of the day;;

→ Polaris - The Remedy

Heavy hangs the air

Heavy lies the beating heart

Bloodshot, staring with a blank gaze

Deadbeat, carrying a dead weight

Dead-set on living like tomorrow was to blame

And through these holes you'd see the blackest soul inside of me

One foot stuck in the past, one planted in my grave

Running circles, old habits die hard

Each lesson learned never seemed to get too far

Call me reckless, call me stuck in my ways

I'm torn between the remedies for everything

Bloodshot, staring with a blank gaze

Deadbeat, carrying a dead weight

Dry mouth, taste it like a cut vein

Blackout, it all ends the same

So stay away, stay away

Can you tell when I lie right through my teeth?

No escape, no escape

Like a chain, in a way we are all bound to our fate

Don't let it bury me, me

We call this therapy

Running circles, old habits die hard

Each lesson learned never seemed to get too far

Call me reckless, call me stuck in my ways

I'm torn between the remedies for everything

Heavy hangs the air

Heavy lies the beating heart

Burden breeds remorse

Black clouds hover low like a curse

Running circles, old habits die hard

Each lesson learned never seemed to get too far

Call me reckless, call me stuck in my ways

I'm torn between the remedies for everything

I'm torn between the remedies for everything

I'm torn between the remedies for everything

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Vietiin tänään sisko asuntolalle. Tuntuu vähän hassulta ajatella, että se on jo niin vanha. Vastahan se oli ihan pieni. Se on viikot siellä asuntolassa ja viikonloput kotona (kun siellä ei saa olla viikonloppuisin ellei ole erityislupaa). Mulla on vielä pari viikkoa ehkä suunnilleen siihen, ennen kuin kerään loput kamppeeni kasaan ja suuntaan Ouluun.