I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up

joskus vaan tuntuu siltä. ehkä mun pitäis kuunnella mun kaveria ja koittaa puhua jolleki näistä mun äkillisistä mielialanvaihteluista. ei oo normaalia, että ensin on semmone 'JEEEEE'-fiilis, sitte vituttaa ja sitten ei vaan jaksa, ei vaan kiinnosta. ei vaan... oo enää mitään, you know? ja sitten se iskee. se jumalaton viha, se kaikki mitä ei oo koskaan saanut itestään ulos, se vaan purkaantuu osissa, joka kerta. enkä mä tiedä, saanko mä sitä kaikkee koskaan purettuakaan, osa siitä jää varmasti muhun.

joskus mä haluaisin kääntää aikaa taaksepäin. tehdä asioita joita en tehny, jättää joitain asioita tekemättä. vaikken mä sinänsä mitään kadukaan, jotkut asiat osaa vaan vieläkin satuttaa. ehkä mä olin vaan niin saatanan tyhmä, annoin saman tapahtua monta kertaa ja joka kerta kärsin samalla lailla. tiättehän, 'you can never make the same mistake twice, because the second time you make it, it's not a mistake, it's a choice.' ja vitut, ei se ollu mun valinta. se sama vitun virhe, jonka oon tehny jo liian monta kertaa ja jonka varmasti tuun vielä tekemään.

no. jos mä vaikka rupian kattoon tota Degrassia ni saan tän mielialan vähän nouseen ennekö meen nuq. mut sitä ennen...

I hate you, everything about you

Don't wanna be in love with you no more

Don't wanna be around you, touch you, fuck you

Don't ever wanna see come around my door

Don't ever try to touch me again

I loved you so much, oh baby, but then, oh

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I-I

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I-I

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

Betrayed me, played me, slayed me

Hurt me like I've never been hurt before

Disowned me only for the other people

you decided that you wanted in your life more

Made your bed now lie in it

And don't wake up, you fucking bitch

Don't ever try to touch me again

I loved you so much, oh baby, but then, oh

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, everything about you

I hate you, I hate you, I-hate you, I-I

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

Made your bed now lie in it

Don't wake up, you fucking bitch

Don't wake up to touch me again-again

Don't wake up to touch me again-again

I hate you, everything about you

Don't wanna be in love with you no more

I hate you, everything about you

Don't wanna be in love with you no more

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, I-I hate you

I-I hate you, uh, uh

I hate you, everything about you

Don't wanna be in love with you no more

I hate you, everything about you

Don't wanna be in love with you no more

Don't wake up, you fucking bitch

I just want it all to go away. I just want to be happy.