Love scream party

 Song of the day;;

→ MISSIO - I See You

I see you when you're down

And depressed, just a mess

I see you when you cry

When you're shy, when you wanna die

I see you when you smile

It takes a while; at least, you're here

I see you

Yes, I see you

(I'm alone with you

You're alone with me)

I see you when you hide

And when you lie, it's no surprise

I see you when you run

From the light within your eyes

(I see you)

When you think

That I don't notice all those scars

I see you

Yes, I see you

I'm alone with you, you're alone with me

What a mess you've made of everything

I'm alone with you, you're alone with me

And I'm hoping that you will see yourself

Like I see you

Yes, I see you

I see you

Yes, I see you

(I'm alone with you)

(You're alone with me)

I see you when you chase

All the dreams inside your head

I see you when you laugh

And when you love 'til the bitter end

(I see you)

In the dark, at the dawn of something new

I see you

Yes, I see you

I'm alone with you, you're alone with me

And I'm hoping that you will see yourself

Like I see you

Yes, I see you

I see you

Yes, I see you

Even when you cry and even when you're shy

You mean everything to me

Even when you lie and even when you hide

You mean everything to me

I see you

(I see you, I see you, I see you)

Yes, I see you

(I see you, I see you, I see you)

I see you

(Even when you cry and even when you're shy)

Yes, I see you

(I see you, I see you, I see you)

I'm alone with you, you're alone with me

And I'm hoping that you will see yourself

--

Mun synttäreihin on 117 päivää (ellen ihan täysin väärässä ole) ja muistelen, että edellisestä kerrasta siitä, kun oon kertoillut teille hassunhauskoja faktoja itsestäni on kulunut sen verran kauan, että voitais yrittää mennä fakta per päivä synttäreihin asti. Alotellaan siis ihan asiaan liittyvällä maailman basiceimmalla (...saatoin just keksiä uuden sanan, ja kyllä, se kuulostaa ja näyttää ihan helvetin typerältä) faktalla: mä olen siis tällä hetkellä tätä kirjoittaessani, 14. maaliskuuta vuonna 2026, 27 vuotta vanha.

Anomie

 Song of the day;;

→ Mikky Ekko - Who Are You, Really?

So you feel entitled to a sense of control

And make decisions that you think are your own

You are a stranger here, why have you come?

Why have you come? Lift me higher, let me look at the sun

Look at the sun, and once I hear them clearly, say

Who, who are you really?

And where are you going?

I've got nothing left to prove

'Cause I've got nothing left to lose

See me bare my teeth for you

Who, who are you?

Now you're moving on and you say you're alone

Suspicious that this string is moving your bones

We are the fire, we see how they run

See how they run, lift me higher, let me look at the sun

Look at the sun and once I hear them clearly, say

Who, who are you really?

And where are you going?

I've got nothing left to prove

'Cause I've got nothing left to lose

See me bare my teeth for you

See me bare my teeth

Who, who are you really?

And where are you going?

I've got nothing left to prove

'Cause I've got nothing left to lose

See me bare my teeth for you

Who, who are you?

Puzzle

 Song of the day;;

→ Dead by April - Trapped

Try not to wake me

'Cause of you

I'm lying awake at night

All I'm seeing are pictures of you

As I close my eyes

I fade my way into the loss of my dream world

It's a place of trust

Will you meet me there?

There's no time to spare

Come on, show me you care

Here we can make anything become real

All of my dreams are all I see

Try not to wake me, can't you see?

All of my dreams are all I wanna see

Try not to wake me, try not to wake me

'Cause of you

My tries to not think of you

They just end up in one million thoughts

It's way too much to mention

See what I mean when you see my creation

It's a place of trust

I can meet you there

There's no time to spare

Come on, show me you care

What you believe, it will here become real

All of my dreams are all I see

Try not to wake me, can't you see?

All of my dreams are all I wanna see

Try not to wake me, try not to wake me

All of my dreams are all I see

Try not to wake me, can't you see?

All of my dreams are all I wanna see

Try not to wake me, try not to wake me

Trapped inside my own dreams

I'm not complaining

Leave behind a lie of any kind

Here it can disappear

All of my dreams are wrong I see

Try not to wake me, let me be

All of my dreams are wrong, I see (I see)

Try not to wake me, can't you see? (Can't you see?)

All of my dreams are all I wanna see

Try not to wake me (No), try not to wake me

All of my dreams are all I see (I see)

Try not to wake me, can't you see? (Can't you see?)

All of my dreams are all I wanna see (No)

Try not to wake me, try not to wake me

Try not to wake me

--

Aikoinaan kun otin ensiaskeleeni metalcoren parissa, oli DBA yks ensimmäisistä bändeistä, joihin tutustuin ihan ajatuksella, ja ne oli myös pitkään yksi mun suosikkibändeistä. 

Snow scene

Song of the day;;

→ ERRA - Luminesce

I'm spiraling out of control, so you illuminate a clean slate

You're lifting the weight that's diluting inspiration

I woke with the sun in my face, mountains by my side

The desert air pulling the breath from my lungs

I've been making my way through a barren landscape

Littered with remains of past lives and shadows of the scavengers

World passing by, leaving traces of shapes, blurring into memory

Dreaming of terrain that sustains, I wake up

I'm lying parallel with the landscape

There will always be a void to be filled, illuminate a clean slate

Keep lifting the weight that is diluting inspiration

There will always be a void with no permanent fix

Shifting of puzzle pieces to simulate a whole

World passing by, leaving traces of shapes, blurring into memory

Dreaming of terrain that sustains, I wake up to a world that's unfamiliar

We leave and then we go back like we never left home

We go back like we never left home

When will we wake the fuck up?

Parallel with the landscape, I lie awake

With diminishing desire to always seek escape

From a home where I feel sound and safe

World passing by, leaving traces of shapes, blurring into memory

Dreaming of terrain that sustains, I wake up, wake up

When will we all wake up?

Diminished desire to always seek escape to a world that's unfamiliar

We leave and then we go back like we never left home

We go back like we never left

--

Huomisen suunnitelmat hieman muuttu, kun terapia peruuntui terapeutin sairastumisen takia. Eipä siinä mitään, oishan se ollu kiva päästä juttelemaan, mutta eihän sille mitään voi. Eipähän tarvi lähtä mihinkään huomenna (paitsi lenkille, jos on hyvä keli). 

Filth in the beauty

 Song of the day;;

→ Aphex Twin - Polynomial-C

--

Tänään oli rentoutumisryhmä, se oli kiva. Sen jälkeen käytiin ystävän kanssa kuplateellä, Normalissa, Ässällä ja apteekissa. Oli kiva keli, aurinko paisto ja aika lämmintä oli myös. Toivottavasti huomennakin olis, niin voisin käydä päiväsaikaan käppäilemässä.

Bonds

 Song of the day;;

→ IAMX - Animal Impulses

Shine razor eyes before the walls come down

Wilder than lions, louder than sound

The birds and the bees are getting older now

There's a cold breeze blowing over my soul

Shine razor eyes in delight

Shine razor eyes before you die

Shine razor eyes in this light

There's a cold breeze blowing over my soul

Shine razor eyes before the walls come down

Wilder than lions, louder than sound

The birds and the bees are getting older now

There's a cold breeze blowing over my soul

Shine razor eyes in delight

Shine razor eyes before you die

Shine razor eyes in this light

There's a cold breeze blowing over my soul

I'm tired of this human duet

No civilizing hides our animal impulses

I'm tired of this human duet

No civilizing hides our animal impulses

Shine razor eyes in delight

Shine razor eyes before you die

Shine razor eyes in this light

There's a cold breeze blowing over my soul

I'm tired of this human duet

No civilizing hides our animal impulses

I'm tired of this human duet

No civilizing hides our animal impulses

Our animal impulses

Our animal impulses

Silly god disco

 Song of the day;;

→ Roy Orbison - Only the Lonely

Only the lonely

Only the lonely

Only the lonely

Know the way I feel tonight

Only the lonely

Know this feeling ain't right

There goes my baby

There goes my heart

They're gone forever

So far apart

But only the lonely

Know why

I cry

Only the lonely

Only the lonely

Only the lonely

Only the lonely

Know the heartaches I've been through

Only the lonely

Know I cry and cry for you

Maybe tomorrow

A new romance

No more sorrow

But that's the chance

You gotta take

If your lonely heart breaks

Only the lonely