LOVE AND LOSS.

  Song of the day;; → Max Richter - Dream Solo -- Huomenna on joulukuun eka päivä!!

  Song of the day;; → ONR - AMERICAN GODS (All our American Gods) All we know Sun beats down Down on America Down on American Gods Playing live on Letterman Life cuts hard Out in America So to all your American Gods There's no room for sentiment And letting it go Tell me all of my secrets Tell me all of my lies To sit ourselves among the best of all our American Gods All our American Gods, all our American Gods All we know as truth (Oh, in America) Empires fall When we move the unmovable But all my intelligent friends See a long term benefit In letting it go Tell me all of my secrets Tell me all of lies Show my life in a mirror Through the opposite side And we kill for that moment When we long to take flight And sit ourselves among the best of all our American Gods All our American Gods, all our American Gods All our American Gods, all our American Gods All our American Gods Tell me all of my secrets, tell me all of my lies Show my life in a mirror through the opposite side And we ...

  Song of the day;; → JJ - Wasted Love I'm an ocean of love And you're scared of water You don't want to go under So you let me go under I reach out my hand But you watch me grow distant Drift out to the sea and Far away in an instant You left me in the deep end I'm drownin' in my feelings How do you not see that? Now that you're gone All I have Is wasted love This wasted love Now that you're gone Can't fill my heart With wasted love This wasted love When you let me go I barely stayed afloat I'm floatin' all alone Still, I'm holdin' on to hope Now that you're gone All I have Is wasted lovе This wasted love Now that you're gonе Can't fill my heart With wasted love This wasted love Wasted love This wasted Wasted, wasted, wasted, wasted Wasted, wasted, wasted, wasted Love (Wasted, wasted, wasted, wasted) Love -- Itävaltahan tosiaan nappasi voiton tällä viisulla tänä vuonna. JJ:llä on kyllä upea ääni, ei voi muuta sanoa. Tänään ol...

  Song of the day;; → My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade When I was a young boy, my father Took me into the city to see a marching band He said, son, when you grow up, would you be The savior of the broken, the beaten, and the damned? He said, will you defeat them, your demons And all the non-believers, the plans that they have made? Because one day, I'll leave you a phantom To lead you in the summer to join the black parade When I was a young boy, my father Took me into the city to see a marching band He said, son, when you grow up, would you be The savior of the broken, the beaten, and the damned? Sometimes, I get the feeling she's watching over me And other times, I feel like I should go And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets And when you're gone, we want you all to know We'll carry on, we'll carry on And though you're dead and gone, believe me Your memory will carry on, we'll carry on And in my heart, I can't ...

  Song of the day;; → Falling In Reverse - Voices In My Head The voices in my head keep on telling me to pray 'Cause I'm spinning like a carousel, circling the drain Hit the bottom of the bottle, I don't wanna feel the pain But that is all I got for now, I don't wanna talk about it The voices in my head keep on begging me to stay If I pull the trigger now then the demons go away And I know my time is coming so there ain't no time to waste So that is all I got for now, I don't wanna talk about it The voices in my head keep telling me to choose a side It's heaven or hell like it's do or die I'm a sad boy, you know better Please don't make this last forever The voices in my head keep telling me I'm not okay It's feeling like a hurricane in my brain Dark clouds, hard times, bad weather Please don't make this last forever The voices in my head keep telling me I'm gonna (die) And I don't wanna talk about the drama, I'm trauma (t...

  Song of the day;; → Ólafur Arnalds & TOKiMONSTA - they sink - TOKiMONSTA remix -- Ui juma, enää viikko niin pääsee aukasemaan joulukalenterin ekan luukun! Jännittää. Vähän olis tehnyt mieli kurkata muutamaan luukkuun sillon, kun tuon kalenterin käsiini sain, mutta maltoin mieleni ja omistan sen verran selkärankaa, etten kattonut. Huomenna on terapia, olikohan peräti muistaakseni vielä tupla-aika...

  Song of the day;; → OHHYUK & CIFIKA - Momom 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해 무서워서 무서워 앞을 볼 줄 도 모르고 두려워서 두려워 눈을 감아도 보이고 서러워서 서러워 속을 삭힐 줄 모르고 두려워서 두려워 눈을 감아도 보이고 흩어진 흩어져버린 세대야 기억해 뿌리친 뿌리쳐진 우리는 기억 돼야 해 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해 Brother, brother, he makes me call him brother Brother, brother, she makes me call him Brother, brother, why you make me call them brother? Brother, brother 무서워서 무서워 앞을 볼 줄 도 모르고 두려워서 두려워 눈을 감아도 보이고 서러워서 서러워 속을 삼킨 줄 모르고 두려워서 두려워 눈을 감아도 보이고 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해 이 몸 마음 몸 마음 모든 걸 다 놓아 주어야 해 우리 마지막 끝으로 갈 때 결국 다 묻어둬야 해

  Song of the day;; → Theo Evan - Shh I've got golden locks and eyes so captivating I am famous for my beauty, who am I? (Shh) I've been told I am a little overconfident And this will be my downfall, who am I? (Shh) I fell in deep, I lost my heartbeat Stuck in between, heaven and hell in me I fell in deep, I lost my heartbeat Follow the bloodstream Hush, hush If you know my name, then please don't repeat it Hush, hush If you know my name, then keep it a secret In the ground, in the sky, in the afterlife In the dark, in the light, in the sweet divine Hush, hush Hush, hush, hush My dеsire and my love got me in troublе I'm decay and I'm revival, who am I? (Shh) Robbed by jealousy and cheated by my enemy From tears and blood to flowers, who am I? (Shh) I fell in deep, I lost my heartbeat Stuck in between, heaven and hell in me I fell in deep, I lost my heartbeat Follow the bloodstream Hush, hush If you know my name, then please don't repeat it Hush, hush If you know...

  Song of the day;; → Blonde Redhead - For the Damaged Coda -- Käytiin tänään kattomassa Lumo-festivaalia (mun eka kerta, vaikka olen Oulussa nyt viis vuotta asunut). Se oli oikein hieno, vaikka ihan kaikkea ei katsotukaan, kun tuli kylmä ja jostain syystä mulla löi hartiat niin vitun jumiin ja kipeiksi, että melkein itketti. Mutta wörtti kokemus silti. Ai niin, mainitsinko jo, että kävin eilen hakemassa mun joulukalenterin postilokerosta? Mulla on tänä vuonna tuommoinen Naruto Deluxe-kalenteri, jossa on siis kaikenlaista Naruto-teemaista tsögediböngiä. Tietäjäthän sen tietää, että Naruto on ollut mun lempianime- ja mangasarja ihan pennusta asti, joten tein nyt tämmöisen paluun juurilleni. Parasta, kun aikuisena saa käyttää rahaansa miten haluaa ja hommata sellaisen joulukalenterin kun haluaa, eikä tarvi tyytyä kuvakalenteriin tai halppissuklaakalenteriin (porukat kyllä ostaa mulle sellaisen tänäkin vuonna, enkä kieltäydy). Mulla on ollut joulukalenteri 27 vuotta putkeen enkä ...

  Song of the day;; → Apocalyptica - Bolero -- Tänään olis ollut ryhmä, mutta en mennyt. En tiedä. En jaksanut, ei ollut sellasta fiilistä, että olisin jaksanut olla ees sosiaalista esittävä. En oikein tykkää tuosta ryhmästä. Toki ne läpikäydyt aiheet on mielenkiintosia, mutta en tiedä. En vaan fiilaa sitä. Kävin kuitenkin alkuillasta lenkillä. Ei ollu ees kymmentä astetta pakkasta, mulla oli päällä vaikka kuinka ja silti palelin. Ei tiedä hyvää tulevaa talvea ajatellen. Se on sinänsä vähän hupsua, kun talvi on mun lempivuodenaika ja rakastan sitä, mutta perkele kun mä en vaan kestä kylmää. En oo ikinä kestänyt, mutta viime vuosina mun kylmätoleranssi on selvästi heikentynyt. Johtuu varmaan tuosta syömishäiriöstä. Ollaan huomenna menossa ystävän kanssa kattomaan Lumo-festivaalia, joten voi olla, että joudun kerrospukeutumaan niin saatanasti, jotta pärjään. Äiti laittoi tänään viestiä ja kuvia, että Runtti oli taas koristetonttuja koettanu hampailla. Se on niin hömelö, tekee tuon sa...

  Song of the day;; → Max Richter - Dream 1 (before the wind blows it all away) - Pt. 2

  Song of the day;; → Sage - Someday Baby I met an old friend you don′t know Now she's a mom, she′s got everything she wants A husband who's a true highbrow Three little kids and a home sweet home She's a role model for the most Often admired by the neighbors She′d never miss a Sunday mass Before she′d pray, she won't think twice Someday, baby, it will all come out It′s driving you crazy Someday, baby, you will mess it up It's driving you mad now It′s so we can mend now She's been livin′ this precious paradise For years with fake smiles and manners Though she must not know what's happened to her It's hard to lie when it′s goin′ under It's everyday life scenario It′s clear as day but hard to know Although you see how things will end What you're supposed to tell your friends? Now for the first time, you say You won′t be true to yourself You talk like at some point you will Go back and start it all again Someday, baby, it will all come out It's ...

  Song of the day;; → Marko Bošnjak - Poison Cake It's cool now in the kitchen That happens when you're bitten I'm stirrin' and stirrin' Deliciously pourin' And I Know you're gonna love this A better kind of justice I don't want it burnin' One last thing A sprinkle of my sweet revenge One last thing A sprinkle of my sweet revenge Made you something that I know you'll like Chocolate-covered, sugar and spice Tasty, tasty, yum-yum, tasty Candy colours, oh, so nice Take a bite of my poison cake (Yum) Poison cake Poison cake Poison cake Poison cake Take a bite of my poison cake Been cookin' in my cauldron late You're nеver ever gonna stay awakе You're going down, down, down You thought I was a servant slave But I'm just a serpent snake You better genuflect and pray (You better genuflect and pray) Tingles of poison are hitting your veins What have you done? Your words are slurrin' as you fall down One last thing A sprinkle of my swe...

  Song of the day;; → Coheed and Cambria - In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3 A broad incision sits across the evening The victim to our fathers' lost war The restless children sit and mourn the graves Of those they've never seen before Will they be buried here, among the dead In the silent secret? The pioneers In dealing with it, they march for dawn Of Will and worthy The truth be told, the child was born Man your own jackhammer Man your battle stations We'll have you dead pretty soon And now Sincerely written from my brother's blood machine Man your battle stations We'll have you home pretty soon And now Awake through motion, with curious to curtain your first move Over arms length, they'll break protocol Jealous envy for the youngest one To be the hero is all I'll ask Can I be buried here, among the dead With room to honor me here in the end? You'll be better off too soon You'll be better off when you get home The pioneers In dealing with it, t...

  Song of the day;; → Memphis May Fire - Misery I feel it coming like it's lookin' for some violence I try to speak, but it's saying to be silent I grab the bottle, hoping I can make it quiet But they get louder every time I try to hide it Nothing left to lose at rock bottom Wounds turn to scars, yeah, I got 'em But I've come to learn you've gotta let it burn If you're gonna be forged in the fire I try to take the pain away, nothing seems to change But when I go through hell, it's when I know myself And all the lies that I believe are digging me a grave But when I go through hell, that's where I find myself Remade in misery I felt myself from the dark with blurry vision The walls turn to bars, it was a prison Could have found my way out if I had listened I had to die to find what I've been missing Nothing left to lose at rock bottom Wounds turn to scars, yeah, I got 'em And I've come to learn you've gotta let it burn If you're gon...

  Song of the day;; → Joep Beving - Venus -- Tänään oli huono päivä. Tai se alkoi ihan jees, ja ajattelin, että saan kyllä pidettyä itteni kasassa, kun oltiin sovittu ystävän kanssa, että katotaan leffaa illalla. Oli kuitenkin pakko perua, kun pitkin iltaa mulla alkoi ahdistaa ja itkettää sen verran, ettei musta olis mihinkään ollut. On niin helvetin kova ikävä Runttia ja eilen käsiteltiin terapiassa vaikeita asioita, jotka jotenkin hittas täysin vasta tänään. Tuntu sinänsä vähän oudolta, kun mulla on koko syksyn ollu sellanen olo, ettei mikään oikein tunnu miltään. Ihan niin kuin mulla olis pelkästään fyysisiä tuntemuksia, mut ei minkäänlaisia tunteita ollenkaan. Oon kunnellut tässä illan nyt klassista musiikkia, se aina jotenkin rauhottaa mua. Ja eiköhän se olo siitä kohene, kun pääsee myöhemmin nukkumaan. Huomenna on uusi päivä ja pääsen juttelemaan porukoille.

  Song of the day;; → Ministeri - Tappaja Kaunis oot Oi tappajani Saalis oon Oi kaunis oot niin Kaunis oot Oi tappajani Saalis oon Oi kaunis oot niin Miksi oot kun et olekaan Poltat siltoja kuin kirkkoja Miks oot olemassakaan Savupilviä aamulla Siivoilen sun jälkiä Et täällä ollutkaan Kaunis oot Oi tappajani Saalis oon Oi kaunis oot niin En tiedä mitä haluan Näytöltä seuraan sun sanoja Kuivun pakko janota Sanoita mitä haluan Aloita minkä lopetan Juovun kun sä opetat Kaunis oot Oi tappajani Saalis oon Oi kaunis oot niin

  Song of the day;; → La Zarra - Évidemment Mon cœur, mes mains, mes yeux, mes reins Plus rien ne m'appartient J'me fais du mal pour faire du bien J'oublie comme si c'n'était rien Dans mon jardin d'enfer poussent des fleurs Que j'arrose de mes rêves, de mes pleurs On a beau être sur le toit du monde ‎‏On ne peut toucher le ciel du doigt Évidemment Toutes ces belles promesses que j'entends C'n'est que du vent Évidemment Car après l'beau temps vient la pluie C'est c'qu'on oublie C'est toujours trop beau pour être vrai Mais c'n'est jamais trop laid pour être faux Évidemment Elle ne s'ra plus jamais la même Cette fille d'avant Je vends demain, j'rachète hier Le temps est assassin Je cherche l'amour, je n'trouve rien Comme dans mon sac à main Dans ma tête c'n'est pas tant évident Je recherche la vérité, tout en l'évitant On a beau être sur le toit du monde ‎‏On ne peut toucher le ciel du doig...

  Song of the day;; → Jaymes Young - I'll Be Good I thought I saw the devil this morning Looking in the mirror Drop of rum on my tongue with a warning To help me see myself clearer I never meant to start a fire I never meant to make you bleed I'll be a better man today I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world like I should I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the times that I never could My past has tasted bitter for years now so I wield an iron fist Grace is just weakness, or so I've been told I've been cold, I've been merciless But the blood on my hands scares me to death Maybe I'm waking up today I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world like I should I'll be good, I'll be good (I'll be good, I'll be good) For all of the light that I shut out For all of the innocent things that I doubt For all of the bruises I've caused and the tears For all of the things that I've done All these year...

  Song of the day;; → While She Sleeps - SYSTEMATIC This world is broken I know that we're only elements Imbalancing, go put the mirror down We give everything just to seem innocent Negative energy consumes Breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe Hysteria The consequence of fear Hysteria There's no way out of here I'm so over this, I wanna snuff the wick, I'm fucking done with it Ask no question, hear no lies Life is just a gateway drug But what's left in it for us? It goes like I don't want it just 'cause you have it I don't want it, fuck, you're systematic I don't want it just 'cause you have it, no doubt about it I don't want your bullshit, fuck, you're systematic I'm shook Never should've given a fuck, we're just giving it up like it's dead to us I'm shook Bend the lie, it will all be over soon enough Life is just a gateway drug It's unconditional lust It goes like I don't want it just 'cause you have it...

  Song of the day;; → Half Moon Run - Throes -- Koin todellista länsimaisen ihmisen ahdinkoa eilen, kun käväisin Tokmannissa ostamassa Pepsi Maxia. Tai olisin ostanut, jos sitä olis ollut. Mutta kun ei. Jouduin siis tyytymään tarjouksessa olleeseen 15-päkkiin Coca-Cola Zero Sugaria. Ei ollu edes 24-päkki, saatana. 

  Song of the day;; → Lake Jons - It's Too Bright Colorful is how I want it But I'm livin' in the word books I can't give in Her fur coat leaves faith unprecedent Don't be assuming to say farewell There's our enemy People get in too much of your real self It's too bright to be someone else I finally understand the meaning life long Colorful is how I like it Running in the field of flowers Is a dream come true How horrible that I'm colorblind I create my perception And I'm getting half It's too bright to be someone else I finally understand the meaning life long It's too bright to be someone else I finally got the point of being someone

  Song of the day;; → Alessandra - Queen of Kings She, queen of the kings Runnin' so fast, beatin' the wind Nothin' in this world could stop the spread of her wings She, queen of the kings Broken her cage, threw out the keys She will be the warrior of North and Southern Seas Got raven hair, it's dark as night Icy eyes, out of sight, out of sight Her heart in spite, is warm and bright Her smile awakes the Northern Light Lookin' out, she calls Lai, lai-da-dai-dai-da Who will conquer all, all? Her name is she, queen of the kings Runnin' so fast, beatin' the wind Nothin' in this world could stop the spread of her wings (Hеy) She, queen of the kings Broken hеr cage, threw out the keys She will be the warrior of North and Southern Seas A firestone forged in flames The wildest card, run the game, run the game Can't stay the same in this world of change Don't fear the pain, just break the chain Lookin' out, she calls Lai, lai-da-dai-dai-da Who will c...

  Song of the day;; → Labrinth - Jealous I'm jealous of the rain That falls upon your skin It's closer than my hands have been I'm jealous of the rain I'm jealous of the wind That ripples through your clothes It's closer than your shadow Oh, I'm jealous of the wind 'Cause I wished you the best of All this world could give And I told you when you left me There's nothing to forgive But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was Heartbreak and misery It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way You're happy without me I'm jealous of the nights That I don't spend with you I'm wondering who you lay next to Oh, I'm jealous of the nights I'm jealous of the love Love that was in here Gone for someone else to share Oh, I'm jealous of the love 'Cause I wished you the best of All this world could give And I told you when you left me There's nothing to forgive But I always thought you'd come bac...

  Song of the day;; → Bullet For My Valentine - Stitches I can't bow to all your little insecurities I'm picking out the stitches that you gave me Cut a little deeper, try and hurt me I'm picking out the stitches Picking out the stitches of your hate Fake, another face, another intervention Eyes of the enemy, or is this my reflection? Come and make another cut, a little neat incision Fake all the misery, that brings in your suspicion I'm a sacrifice, antichrist, anarchist, nihilist Now cut a little deeper Hate, another death, another crucifixion So what's the issue? I don't see the point in suffering Sever the ties, sever the chains And break away Don't turn the cheek, don't turn your back Just stay alive, just stay away Sever the ties, sever the chains And break away I can't bow to all your little insecurities I'm picking out the stitches that you gave me Cut a little deeper, try and hurt me I'm picking out the stitches of your hate Take a d...

  Song of the day;; → Max Richter - Dream 1 (before the wind blows it all away) - Pt. 1 -- Tänään oli fysioterapia. Se meni tosi kivasti. Alkaa vaan jotenkin hittaaman se, että viimeisiä viedään. Tuntuu tosi oudolta näin monen vuoden jälkeen. Poikkeuksellisesti tällä viikolla ryhmä onkin huomenna, eikä torstaina. Tää alkusyksyn jälkeinen, ennen talvea oleva aika on mun mielestä ehkä vuoden inhottavinta. On koko ajan niin harmaata, hämärää, märkää ja muuten vaan inhottavaa. Tämän päivän hopeareunus oli tosin se, että huomasin, ettei mun tarvitse maksaa vuokraa tässä kuussa, kun Kela sekoili sen asumistuen kanssa niin, että ne maksoi sitten takautuvasti kahden kuukauden tuet ja koska ne menee suoraan vuokranantajalle, ne vähennetään aina vuokrasta. Eli paistaa se päivä joskus siihen kuuluisaan risukasaankin, kai?

  Song of the day;; → Markus Perttula - Keskikesän kylmyydestä Apilat tyynyn alla Ilmeellä vakavalla En tiedä, en tiedä Oot tehnyt loitsujasi Olet olevinasi Ettet tiedä, ettet tiedä Katosi mielestäni Kuka on vieressäni En tiedä, en tiedä Pitikö täs käydä näin Kenet sä kaivossa näit Et tiedä, et muka tiedä On niityt kadoksissa Ja heilat juovuksissa Terälehdet uitettuna Gin ja tonicissa Seitsemän kukkaa Seitsemän synninsuuntaa Seitsemän tapaa nauttii keskikesän kylmyydestä Hei, hyvää juhannusta Älä nyt kiihdy mutta Matkassa oli mutka Kyl sä tiedät, kyl sä tiedät Oli pizzalaatikoita Ryppyisii lakanoita Kyl sä tiiät, kyl sä tiiät Voi Minttu Orvokkini Ainoa Stadin Tähteni Kyl sä tiedät, kyl sä tiedät Kun mittumaari sut vie Roviolle johtaa tie Kyl sä tiedät, kyl sä tiedät On niityt kadoksissa Ja heilat juovuksissa Terälehdet uitettuna Gin ja tonicissa Seitsemän kukkaa Seitsemän synninsuuntaa Seitsemän tapaa nauttii keskikesän kylmyydestä Hei, hyvää juhannusta Mitä nyt opin tästä Perinne-...

  Song of the day;; → Joost - Europapa Europe, let's come together (Euro-pa-pa, Euro-pa-pa) It's now or never I love you all (Euro-pa-pa, Euro-pa-pa) Welkom in Europa, blijf hier tot ik dood ga Euro-pa-pa, Euro-pa-pa Welkom in Europa, blijf hier tot ik dood ga Euro-pa-pa, Euro-pa-pa Bezoek m'n friends in France of neem de benen naar Wenen Ik wil weg uit Netherlands, maar m'n paspoort is verdwenen Heb gelukkig geen visum nodig om bij je te zijn Dus neem de bus naar Polen of de trein naar Berlijn Ik heb geen geld voor Paris, dus gebruik m'n fantasie Heb je een еuro'tje, please? Zеg "merci" en "alsjeblieft" Ik ben echt alles kwijt behalve de tijd Dus ben elke dag op reis want de wereld is van mij Welkom in Europa, blijf hier tot ik dood ga Euro-pa-pa, Euro-pa-pa Welkom in Europa, blijf hier tot ik dood ga Euro-pa-pa, Euro-pa-pa Euro-pa-pa, pa-pa, pa-pa-pa Euro-pa-pa-pa (Hey) Euro-pa-pa, pa-pa, pa-pa-pa Eu-ro-pa (Hey) Ich bin in Deutschland, aber...