BLOOD RED ROSES.

Song of the day;; → Kasabian - Vlad the Impaler Face check I walk this beach I'm frying in the heat in the cauldron stir me Chomp down my diamond teeth I ain't got The simple things in life I feel like You have got to witness This is your last retreat My last repeat All my friends are as sharp as razors Cut you down if you touch the faders High class girls hung in elevators Now we have got the floor Damn! Get loose, get loose [x8] You can't miss me I'm still alive Snake skin shoe'd I'm pleading homicide Come on and feel this I'm still alive Joker meet you on the other side Banshee I hear you call We need to raise the dead we need to raise the people Cut throat this blood runs thick It is true the simple things in life have been lost You have got to witness We are the last beatniks The lost heretics All my friends are as sharp as razors Cut you down if you touch the faders List

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - Danphe and the Brain

Song of the day;; → Delphic - Remain Here again, don't give yourself away again Surrendering some things are better left unsaid Gone again, I'd settle down, I'd settle down for content To stay, just finding what's been left behind Give it all just to get it You're missing pieces everywhere Waiting for something better When nothing ever seems to change Give it all just to get it You're missing pieces everywhere Waiting for something better A hiding shadow they'll remain Lost again, my own best friend I don't know What to say, or who'd be listening And when it breaks, it breaks in silence I can't carry on Unchanged, it's only fragments they remain Give it all just to get it You're missing pieces everywhere Waiting for something better When nothing ever seems to change Give it all just to get it You're missing pieces everywhere Waiting for something better A hid

Song of the day;; → Enter Shikari - Wall I'm gonna paste you up Cover you in wallpaper Screw shelves into you And call you a wall That's all you are to me Trying to keep people inside Inside your sordid little house This is no white abode You can have skirting board shoes And plug sockets on your knees I'll hang a painting on your lip And put tinsel around it at Christmas Trying to keep people inside Inside your sordid little house Trying to keep people inside Inside your sordid little house You can't keep us inside much longer pal We've seen the view from the window You can't keep us inside much longer pal We've seen the view from the window It's glorious outside Have you seen the time? Have you seen the tide? We'll sing all night We need cohesion We need cohesion As time keeps moving We keep losing our rights Freedom is not the choices Between what job

Song of the day;; → Enter Shikari - No Sleep Tonight And I'm thinking what's the deal With the facts that they conceal And I'm thinking what's the harm In a bit of rhetoric charm And I can't quite comprehend A beginning or an end No I can't quite stomach this Now You and me, we're gonna take To the skies for a common sake Fly amongst the cirrus clouds Twenty-thousand feet we'll crack the clouds From that height will leak the lies And unveil the damaged skies 'Cause we can't quite stomach this (All I'm trying to say is) You're not getting any sleep tonight You're not getting any sleep tonight (Getting any sleep, getting any sleep) (Getting any sleep, getting any sleep) You're not getting any sleep tonight (Getting any sleep, getting any sleep) You're not getting any sleep tonight Sun and secrets power us No longer cower in idled lust Chernobyl is s

Song of the day;; → Enter Shikari - Juggernauts And I know that we've still got time But I do not think we're invincible And I think that it is a sign 'Cause I do not think we're invincible Crushing all in its path Crushing all in its path Crushing all in its path Crushing all in its path Now don't get me wrong I love what you've done with the place I just wish we had a chance to help build it Instead of just moving into this home of disrepair And expect it to work, prosper and then share Constantly relying on consuming to feel content But only because we lost touch with this home we've spent Trillions of dollars paying for our wants and not our needs And now we're growing tired of planting bleary-eyed seeds And I'm not saying that we could do better But given a chance we'd try (we'd try) We dig up the earth's not won soil And fill the trench with greedy eyes (I'd imagi

Song of the day;; → Local Natives - Sun Hands I climbed to the top of a hill But I had just missed the sun And although the descending arc was gone Left behind were the traces that always follow along The most beautiful colours chase the sun They wrap her trail in a taunting gesture That seems to sing out loud ''This is what you're missing'' I'll endure the night For the promise of light I'll endure the night For the promise of light I want to lift my hands towards the sun Show me warmth Baby, won't you show me warmth again? And when I can feel with my sun hands I'll promise not to lose her again And even if the morning never comes My hands are blessed to have touched the sun I'll endure the night For the promise of light I'll endure the night For the promise of light And when I can feel with my sun hands I promise not to lose her again [x4] I'll endure th

Song of the day;; → Goldhawks - Running Away I got this loud I got this loud in my ear A sound And a vision but it's so unclear I've seen this, fallen out of hand I feel my fingers are flat in sand Somehow I don't think I'm gonna be landing on my feet No, no, no I need a minute, give me a minute I wanna take things down real slow Give me a minute, give me a minute I'm not ready to let go I'm fallin' to your eyes An intoxicating surprise That love spot slowly slides down the back of my throat Oh, this love won't last Oh, this love won't last the night A one night stand A one night stand but it feels alright It's come to this How has it come to this, I just don't know It's come to this And it's all my fault That's why I'm running away, running away, from a life I just can't hold That's why I'm running away, running away It's better than

Song of the day;; → White Lies - Farewell to the Fairground The lights still in our eyes We're leaving this whole fairground behind It's a dream that's going cold The circus never dies The act forever haunts these skies I know we cannot stay Farewell to the fairground These rides aren't working anymore Goodbye to this dead town Until the ice begins to thaw This place used to gleam I see it in my hopeful dreams Now I had to get away We move towards the stars And all that we touch becomes ours Let's keep warm till it's day Farewell to the fairground These rides aren't working anymore Goodbye to this dead town Until the ice begins to thaw We'll head south, just hold my hand now I feel like I'm casting off my clothes And I'm running through the snow towards the sunset And I'm always with you Keep on running Keep keep on running There's no place like hom

Song of the day;; → Owl City - Vanilla Twilight The stars lean down to kiss you And I lie awake and miss you Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere 'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly But I'll miss your arms around me I'd send a postcard to you, dear 'Cause I wish you were here I'll watch the night turn light blue But it's not the same without you Because it takes two to whisper quietly The silence isn't so bad 'Til I look at my hands and feel sad 'Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly I'll find repose in new ways Though I haven't slept in two days 'Cause cold nostalgia Chills me to the bone But drenched in vanilla twilight I'll sit on the front porch all night Waist-deep in thought because When I think of you I don't feel so alone I don't feel so alone I don't feel so alone As many times as I blink

Song of the day;; → The Courteeners - You Overdid It Doll I heard you coming in from town Stilettos scrape the ground I saw you in your overcoat Random on your throat I know you this is not the girl That I used to swirl around me What's happening to you? What's happening to you? I love it, I shoot it like a Tommy gun But you will carry on until the day you are done You never know when to stop You'll carry on until you're dead and drop You will carry on until you're dead and you drop You overdid it doll You overdid it doll You overdid it doll You overdid it doll You overdid it doll You overdid it doll You overdid it doll You overdid it doll Your teeth are starting to go Five nights a week is starting to show Dark rings around your eyes Are fashionable until somebody dies This pace a little too fast You're a space cadet dressed in fiberglass You're gonna shatter, it's

Song of the day;; → Local Natives - Wide Eyes Oh some evil spirit, Oh some evil spirit this way comes They told me how they fear it, Now they're placing it on their tongues Oh to see it with my own eyes Oh to see it with my own eyes No food or water, For the better part of ten months Quietly he sat, Between the folds of a tree trunk Oh to see it with my own eyes Oh to see it with my own eyes All the men of faith, And men of science have their questions Could it ever be on Earth, As it is in Heaven? Oh to see it with my own eyes Oh to see it with my own eyes

Song of the day;; → White Lies - A Place to Hide Did I sit alone and ask about my future? When you replied I just turned away I've been searching through my books to try and find some truth Perhaps disguised as a mysterious way And if I made a promise Could I stay by your side? Would you guarantee my safety And say that I'd be all right? But if Judgement Day started tonight At least I'd know I was right And I'd be laughing at the end of the world Take my hand tonight, I think we'll be fine, girl And I can see it on the TV, there's an air attack People of the mountains screaming I'll be back And I'm banging on your door so come on and let me in Need a place to hide, I need a place to hide before the storm begins If I told you all the times I'd done wrong Could you bathe my soul and wash it all away? I can't forgive the things that I can still remember So I think, my friend, these sin

Song of the day;; → Local Natives - Stranger Things Cold toes, new sheets Welcomed all the same We know if we go It's only temporary Went away, holiday Wish they'd linger on They'll think what they will We'll stay where we have gone The glaring lamp's on Her job is well done Half asleep, I'm only half won Old sheets, warm toes Look away as I leave New light lays bare Holds my guilt up to me I'll toast three cheers And for work we'll sing Back to what we do I've hear stranger things So turn the lamp off My wandering eyes stop Endure the thoughts of And start where you love We'll start from where we last left off The lines that we'll draw Begin and don't stop The corners approach We'll take the best turns The bends have brought talk Of what we have learned Enjoy the chance of Frozen new grounds Everything's odd With beautiful sounds

Song of the day;; → Husky Rescue - Wolf Trap Motel [for this you need Spotify because I couldn't find the song on YouTube]   I welcome you I welcome you to Wolf Trap Motel So this will be So this will be your home and shelter Your home and shelter No need to check-in No need to put your name on papers And you can leave when And you can leave whenever you wanted Whenever you wanted Leave on Monday Leave on Tuesday You leave on Wednesday Leave on Thursday Leave on Friday Leave on Saturday Leave on Sunday Leave on Monday Leave on Tuesday Leave on Wednesday Leave on Thursday Leave on Friday Leave on Saturday Leave on Sunday

Song of the day;; → We Are Scientists - Rules Don't Stop Me (Acoustic) Don't be alarmed It's not the end of the world If we're breaking the rules it's fine I disregard this kind of problem all the time It's not as if it's gonna kill anyone If there's no victim then there's no crime Just draw another if you think we've crossed the line Rules don't stop me Forget about it Rules don't stop me We'll get around it Rules don't stop me Forget about it Don't stop me, don't stop me Although it may seem unconventional sometimes Indiscretion is worth a try If you just play along I promise we'll be fine So leave your hang-ups back at the door When you and I are down on the floor Will you know what to do about it You know what to do about it Rules don't stop me Forget about it Rules don't stop me We'll get around it Rules don't stop me

It's 1.09 am here, and July 16. I am now 16, or actually I have been for almost a week now. Doesn't feel any different. Same old, same old. I'm currently at Ylläs, I've been here for a few days now. I've been hiking/walking, killed my back and legs and couldn't breathe properly. I just remember I 'ave this old blog with a mate of mine, so I checked it out a bit and felt kind of... sad. The texts I used to write there are short, but they sound so happy and carefree. What went wrong? But that aside, before I hit the sheets, I want to talk about my (apparent) pyromania. I've always found fire fascinating. Ever since I was a wee lad, I loved watching fire, in the fireplace, in the sauna, wherever. I always thought it'd be well mint to see a proper fire. And I always wondered what would it be like to burn down a building. I secretly dreamed about burning down my old school. I loved burning my old papers and textbooks in a fireplace at a beach nea

So. It's my birthday today, and since it's (only) 22.36 (10.36 pm), I am not 16 just yet. The exact time is 22.55, so I still have a few minutes to be 15. I had an enjoyable day. I went shopping with my family and I got presents for me (who else would?) and it was nice. But I don't know. I mean, every day that seems to be okay, it's not, and in the evening/night when I'm alone the loneliness and everything just overwhelms me and I can't think anything else than people who have mates and loved ones, and despite them. Or maybe just be jealous, I don't know. I don't want to go to school. I really don't. Not here, anyway. Lately I've been regretting not applying anywhere else, but what can I do, I was an idiot. Oh well, I could always drop out, but I don't want to do that, really, because I know it would upset my parents. And because I am not the perfect child, I do not want to let them down once again. I'm stuck between the person I

Hey everyone. It's currently 0.27 (or 12.27 am), the 9th of July. My birthday is tomorrow, it's mint, like I said, but it's a sad thought that (if not counting my family), it's just another day alone. I can admit that I am jealous of people who have mates to hang out with, and it kills me to spend every day alone. I used to have mates to hang out with, but I don't know... It's like everyone just... forgot about me. It's like I don't exist. Like I am here, but I mean nothing. I know that's probably not the case, but it feels like it. It makes me sad to look at old photos and it makes me think just what the hell happened? What the hell happened to me? I've never been overly social, nope, but I used to be able to go places without being anxious about it weeks before. I like being alone, but I hate being lonely. The world is outside, and I am scared to go beyond my window. I can see the world passing me by here, but I do nothing about it.

So. I'm not sure if I have something to write about, I just felt like it. But let's start with some basics before that, yeah? I turn 16 next week. I'm not sure how I feel about it, it's mint and all that but then again it means another new period of time is starting and I am scared of the future. School starts in about a month and I am dead sure I can't cope. Just the thought of that heart-wrenching loneliness makes me want to jump off a bridge (like my godmother apparently did, funny thing see I haven't heard anything from her in years and then my dad says oh hey did you know your godmother's dead). It makes me want to burn everything. Apart from that, I haven't done anything remarkable during this summer holiday. It's been over a month, and all I've been doing is losing sleep and spending too much time on the computer. Last night was one of them nights and I slept for 4 hours. There's just something that keeps me awake, maybe I want th