A STORM IS COMING.

Song of the day;; → Timo Rautiainen & Neljäs Sektori - Oma Arkipyhä Herään, heti vituttaa On rästitöiden lista loputon Tahtoisin ainoastaan uudelleen nukahtaa Pelkään, jos soi puhelin Onko jotain mitä unohdin? Jos suosiolla siirrän kaiken huomiseen Työnteko loputon vain avain onneen on Niin meille opetetaan Sallikaa että ikioman arkipyhän järjestän Unohdan normit, unohdan kurinalaisen elämän Sallikaa että edes hetkiseksi syrjäytyä saan Tabletin kun halkaisen Päänsärky heti kohta helpottaa Ja pian luuri joenpohjasta vilkuttaa Hautaan kalenterin Jos joku yrittääkin tavoittaa En tahdo tietää, maailmamme saa odottaa Vain vartin mittainen on siesta hyvien ihmisten En taida olla sellainen Sallikaa että ikioman arkipyhän järjestän Unohdan normit, unohdan kurinalaisen elämän Sallikaa että edes hetkiseksi syrjäytyä saan Työnteko vapauttaa  Näin jossain kirjoitettu on Sallikaa että ikioman arkip...

Song of the day;; → Sabaton - Talvisota Rise of nations pride Russians on a route to ruin Kreml is more than certain to win Sent away an army to the west Blizzard reigned the ground were chosen Snow was deep and hell were frozen Stalin were too eager to invade He thought of the might he possessed And not of his foe Rage of winter Rise, nations pride Hold what's yours Strike 'em where it hurts Fight, hold your ground Winter war Reinforce the line Split them into small divisions Rip 'em of the conquest visions Motti tactics used with great result Snipers move unseen in snowfall Force them to retreat and recall Fight the Russian rule and their demand With Molotov cocktail in hand No fear of their tanks Death or glory Rise, nations pride Hold what's yours Strike 'em where it hurts Fight, hold your ground Winter war Reinforce the line A slice of a knife to ...

Song of the day;; → Monoral - Kiri You complete my fate The world unwinds inside of me You complete my fate The halo crawls away You repeat my fate Rewinding all we can You refill my place You refill my place, place Come and save me Come and save me Come and save me Come and save me Come and save me You complete my fate The heavens stroll inside of me You repeat my fate Revealing who we are You refill my place You refill my place, place Come and save me Come and save me Come and save me Come and save me Come and save me Believe in me and Drink the wine and Take my hand and Fill me up Believe in me and  Drink the wine and Take my hand and Let me follow -- So apparently Naruto ends after the next 5 chapters. I don't know how I should feel. I mean, I have been obsessing over it for only the past 6 or 5 years, but it still means the world to me. It has really helped me through...

Song of the day;; → Sum 41 - We're All to Blame Take everything left from me All to blame How can we still succeed, taking what we don't need? Telling lies, alibis, selling all the hate that we breed Supersize our tragedies (You can't define me or justify greed) Bought in the land of the free (Land, free) And we're all to blame We've gone too far From pride to shame We're trying so hard We're dying in vain We're hopelessly blissful and blind To all we are We want it all with no sacrifice Realize we spend our lives living in a culture of fear Stand to salute, say thanks to the man of the year How did we all come to this? (You can't define me or justify greed) This greed that we just can't resist (Resist) And we're all to blame We've gone too far From pride to shame We're trying so hard We're dying in vain We're hopelessly blissful and blind To all we are...

I want to scream, but I can't. I want to cry, but I can't. I want to disappear, but I can't. What the hell am I supposed to do, I can't breathe, my thoughts are like a tornado of the mind, my chest hurts. Everything hurts. All the memories come flooding back and I can't take it. It hurts. They hurt. Everything hurts. When I was younger I didn't want to blame myself for anything. I wanted to push the blame on other people, because it seemed like something I should do. However, as years went by, I found myself blaming myself for everything that went wrong. A friend moved away. Probably my fault. Friends left me. My fault, it happened so many times, it had to be my fault. I did everything wrong. I must have been a terrible person. Fuck, I still am. I still do everything wrong. I don't care enough, I care too much. I'm too cold, I'm too nice. I have always done everything wrong. And now, I see it so clearly, I have no one left to blame for my useles...

Song of the day;; → All Time Low - Painting Flowers Strange maze, what is this place? I hear voices over my shoulder Nothing's making sense at all Wonder, why do we race? When everyday we're running in circles Such a funny way to fall Tried to open up my eyes I'm hoping for a chance to make it alright When I wake up The dream isn't done I wanna see your face And know I made it home If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you, woah Show my cards Gave you my heart Wish we could start all over Nothing's making sense at all Tried to open up my eyes I'm hoping for a chance to make it alright When I wake up The dream isn't done I wanna see your face And know I made it home If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you I am still painting flowers for you I hear everything you said I don't wanna lose my head When I w...

Olkoon tämä niitä harvoja kertoja, kun tänne tulen suomeksi jotain selittämään. Mä olen alkanut hieman vierastaa omalla kielelläni blogeihini tai mihinkään muuallekaan netissä kirjoittamista, koska tykkään englannista enemmän, mutta jotenkin nyt vaan tuntuu että tää täytyy tehdä. Kello on 28 yli yksi yöllä, lauantaina 4.10.2014. Lukion eka jakso päätty just. Kokeet meni miten meni. Kemian pääsin just ja just läpi. Biologia ei menny sen paremmin. Äikkä ja enkku meni kiitettävästi, mutta niin ne aina. Vittu, mä luulin, että saisin ees vähän helpotusta tähän jatkuvaan pelkoon ja ahdistukseen rutiinien kautta, mut tää koulu on vaan lisännyt niitä. En tiedä, johtuuko se sit siitä, etten mä yksinkertaisesti oo tarpeeks fiksu, vai siitä, ettei mulla oo ketään. On vaikeeta kattoa kaikkia ihmisiä, nauramassa, hymyilemässä tyttö- ja poikaystäviensä ja kavereidensa kanssa, ja olla vaan yksin niiden keskellä. Mä pidän kyllä omasta seurastani tietyssä määrin, mutta kun se on ainoaa seuraa, jot...