BLOOD RED ROSES.

  Song of the day;; → Fozzy - Judas I'm become, I'm become, I'm becoming I'm become, I'm become, I'm becoming You are beautiful on the inside You are innocence personified And I will drag you down and sell you out Run away I am cold like December snow I have carved out this soul made of stone And I will drag you down and sell you out Embraced by the darkness, I'm losing the light Encircled by demons, I fight What have I become? Now that I've betrayed Everyone I've ever loved, I pushed them all away And I have been a slave to the Judas in my mind Is there something left of me to save In the wreckage of my life? My life I'm become, I'm become, I'm becoming I'm become, I'm become, I'm becoming Judas in, Judas in my mind I'm become, I'm become, I'm becoming I'm become, I'm become, I'm becoming Judas in, Judas in my mind Judas in my mind Oh, this guilt is a heavy cross There is blood on the path I walk And e

  Song of the day;; → Abe Hathot - Tranquility Sands (Limitless) -- Mun sydäntä lämmittää oikein pakahtumiseen asti nähdä ja kokia se, miten energinen Runtti on. Se täyttää kuitenkin parin viikon päästä jo 12. Tänäänkin se juoksenteli ulkona ja yritti jahistaa räksiä. Se on myös saanu painoa takas (se laihtui vähän sillon kun se sairastu) ja se näyttää taas entiseltä itseltään. Oikiastaan ainoat semmoset vanhenemisen merkit sen ulkonäössä on sen naamassa, sen suupielet on valkoset ja sillä kasvaa muutenkin sellasia yksittäisiä valkosia karvoja naamassa. Toki jos vertaa vanhahkoihin kuviin niin onhan se ''harmaantunu'' aika paljon. Muuten sitten sen huomaa siitä, ettei se jaksa enää esim. käydä juurikaan lenkillä ja se on paljon kömpelömpi kuin ennen. Huomenna on siskon päättäjäiset ja lauantaina juhlat. Onneksi ei tarvi ite olla keskipisteenä niin pitäis mennä ihan chillisti vaikka vähän ahistaa ajatus siitä, että on mökki täynnä porukkaa joista en tunne ko sukulaiset.

  Song of the day;; → The Walkmen - Heaven Our children will always hear Romantic tales of distant years Our gilded age may come and go Our crooked dreams will always glow Stick with me Oh, you're my best friend All of my life You've always been Remember, remember All we fight for Remember, remember All we fight for Don't leave me Oh, you're my best friend All of my life You've always been Don't leave me now You're my best friend All of my life You've always been Remember, remember All we fight for Remember, remember All we fight for

  Song of the day;; → trentemøller - While The Cold Winter Waiting

Song of the day;; → Trivium - The Heart from Your Hate What will it take? What will it take To rip the heart from your hate? It's easy to be right When everything repeats It's easier to cut us down and point at our defeat It's easy to be right When everything repeats Dig below the surface, find your insecurities Tell me Maybe you were right Maybe I was wrong But I've been silent for far too long Maybe you were right Maybe I should go But I've been silent for far too long What will it take To rip the heart from your hate? What will it take? What will it take To rip the heart from your hate? (Hate) To rip the heart from your hate (Hate) To rip the heart from your hate You always walk away Soon, you'll have to face it Your distance from reality Won't bury or erase it I tried to do the same Living so complacent But the problems wouldn't go away So I turned around to face them Tell me Maybe you were right Maybe I was wrong But I've been silent for far too

  Song of the day;; → Airship Express - WORLDS -- Käytiin tänään porukoiden kanssa ostamassa niille juhlavaatteet siskon päättäjäisiä varten. Käytiin samalla myös kahvilla, oli kivaa. Runtti mökötti illalla, kun se ei saanu lähteä seikkailemaan pihalle.

  Song of the day;; → Day Wave - Something Here I'm laying around My head on the ground I feel that I'm sinking in I'm walking around I look at the ground I feel like they're listening There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's nothing to say So keep from my way I feel that nothing's real Turning around To touch the ground I feel that nothing's real There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy I'm laying around My head on the ground I feel that I'm sinking in I'm walking around I look at the ground I feel like they're listening There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy There's something here, oh And my head feels heavy -- Kotona ollaan.

  Song of the day;; → Philip Glass, Philip Glass Ensemble & Michael Riesman - Glassworks: I. Opening -- Lenkillä oli kuuma tänään (tais olla +21 lämmintä, ettei vielä oltu ihan saatanan kuuma-kategoriassa mutta lähellä), mutta oli hyvä käydä. Huomenna porukat tulee yöksi ja lauantaina lähetään sitten kotikotiin. Mulla oli jotain semi-tähdellistä sanottavaa mutta totta helvetissä menin ja unohdin. 

  Song of the day;; → Nonpoint - Fix This It's all kind of a dream A messed up dream in a messed up theme In a messed up head Passed out in bed From too much to drink and not enough to eat Food for thought, processes All the stresses of the world On my shoulders, on my chest and On my mind, and on my conscience There's a name for all of this A shame in all of this Done watchin' in disbelief Done turnin' the other cheek Doesn't seem right to me But maybe this is how it's all supposed to be? You don't have to be below this But you don't wanna make things right (You don't really wanna fix this) (You don't really wanna fix this) You don't have to be alone on this But you don't wanna make things right (You don't really wanna fix this) You don't really wanna fix this You don't really wanna fix this Carnivorous, with a significant amount of serious Oblivious, with a significant amount of indifference Walls don’t always protect from l

  Song of the day;; → Natural X - Split Desire -- Tänään oli sairaanhoitajan aika ja se meni aika hyvin, sain puhuttua ilman kirjallista avustusta ja hoitajakin totesi, että sen suhteen oon tullut tosi pitkälle. Oon kyllä itsekin sen huomannut, puhuminen on huomattavasti helpompaa nykyään. Muistin jopa sanoa, että tarviin lääkäriajan elokuulle. Käynnin jälkeen olin kyllä tosi väsyny joten en oikeestaan oo loppupäivänä tehny juuri mitään (en myöskään saanu persettäni ulkoilemaan asti mut ei se mikään maailmanloppu ole). Huomenna pitää käydä hoitotarvikejakelussa hakemassa sensoreita ja neuloja pitää muistaa kans pyytää. Liuskoja en muistaakseni tarvi... ja niitä saa kyllä tilattua netistäkin jos tarve vaatii. Äiti oli tilannu Runtille kaks laatikkoa neuloja tossa viime viikolla. Se käyttää samoja neuloja kuin mä, mutta sillä on 8mm kun mulla on 5mm. Hauska sinänsä. Annoin myös Runtille mun yhden insuliinikotelon viimeksi kun porukat kävi täällä, kun löysin ihan sen ikivanhan jossa jopa

  Song of the day;; → Bear In Heaven - You Do You Well, I heard a rumor The new man no words Talking about us And making a long list Of to-do's that they don't need from you They want to forget You were ever born They want to reset You were ever born How to begin Down the corner right How to begin Down the ground and right How to begin Shout Well, I heard a rumor The new man no words Talking about us And making a long list Of to-do's that they don't need from you They want to forget You were ever born They want to reset You were ever born To let the forces Arm your heart Don't let the rumors Get you down So what? Who cares? You be strong Don't let the rumors Wear you out -- Ei kyllä tarvinnu pelätä että olis hiki tullu ulkoillessa, tuuli oli sen verran kylmä että hanskat olis jumalauta saanu olla. Mutta teki kyllä hyvää käydä (paitsi jostain syystä mun vasen jalka on kipuillu ton lenkin jälkeen oudosti) ja pitää yrittää huomennakin saaja aikaseksi. Tiskejä en sa

  Song of the day;; → Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's burstin' into life Let's waste time Chasin' cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's burstin' into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how, as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I j

  Song of the day;; → Amorphis - The Bee A fire in the sky Ablaze the spark beyond the stars Its gleaming wings will cut their way Through the silent paths of space Planets whirl, suns are lit Mountains fly, stars are dimmed Its golden sabres tear through time In the night of the river of death Fly the silent prince electors On the banks of Tuonela Bleach the skeletons of kings Their skulls of sugar sickly sweet Their bones piled up on the shore On bed of mottled rocks Amid flowers cold as ice Pray the weak, the old, the poor And when the tiny one from heaven comes Crawls inside the chosen skull And when the tiny one it summons the others To crawl inside the chosen skull They build their castles in the heads of kings Bring life to the empty halls They build their castles in the heads of kings And honey will flow once more, once more In the night of the river of death Fly the silent prince electors And when the tiny one from heaven comes Crawls inside the chosen skull And when the tiny

  Song of the day;; → Abe Hathot - Still Waves (432hz)

  Song of the day;; → Glass Vaults - Brooklyn I′m a butterfly Taking my time I'm a skeleton Bleached in white I took a trip From the other side And I made you Manhattan sky I thought I saw I thought I saw I thought saw you late last night in Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn I thought I saw I thought I saw I thought saw you late last night in Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn Hey Hey The woman outside the opera She′s Standing out The man by her side Silver hair in the night She shot me down Stared me in the eye I said, what's it to be? The woman inside I thought I saw I thought I saw I thought saw you late last night in Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn I thought I saw I thought I saw I thought saw you late last night in Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn I thought I saw I thought I saw I thought saw you late last night in Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn Brooklyn, Brook, Brooklyn I thought I saw I thought I saw I

  Song of the day;; → Book of Fears - The Water Lets You In (''Bloodline'' Main Title Theme) [Extended] Young man goes out looking For the diamond in the sea Old man rows his boat to shore And falls on twisted knees And you'll drown before The water lets you in You'll drown before The water lets you in The feeling that I fear the most Is the one that follows me All across the starry coast From sea to dying sea, it says You'll drown before The water lets you in You'll drown before The water lets you in I think the thing I've wanted most Was just never meant to be A thousand waves, a thousand ghosts Their sorrows follow me And you'll drown before The water lets you in You'll drown before The water lets you in Oh horrible, oh horrible day -- Löytyi kuin löytyikin mekko ja jotenkin hankala kuvailla sitä tunnetta, mikä valtasi mut kun kokeilin sitä ekaa kertaa. Tunsin itteni ensimmäistä kertaa ikinä kauniiksi. Tai joksikin vastaavaksi. Ilman mitää

  Song of the day;; → For The Fallen Dreams - Unstoppable With each breath, with each step I fall a little further from the plans that I have laid With each breath, with each step I feel a little smaller in the bed that I have made People will hate you, shake you, break you Standing firm will make you Unstoppable When we stumble when we fall When there's nothing left at all We get up, we get up, we get up again We get up, we get up, we get up again With each breath, with each step I fly a little closer to the ledge from where I fled With each breath, with each step I feel a little closure from the life that I have led People will hate you, shake you, break you Standing firm will make you Unstoppable When we stumble when we fall When there's nothing left at all We get up, we get up, we get up again We get up, we get up, we get up again When the world is caving in When your skin is wearing thin We get up, we get up, we get up again Yeah we get up, we get up, we get up again And n

  Song of the day;; → Mae Ji-Yoon - Vibrations -- Olin laiska paska tänään enkä jaksanut hoitaa tiskejä (eipä sillä, että mulla olis ollu energiaa muutenkaan), mutta eipä midist. Hoituuhan nuo huomennakin ihan yhtä lailla.

  Song of the day;; → Gunship, John Carpenter & Charlie Simpson - Tech Noir I'm recording this, because this could be the last thing I'll ever say The city I once knew as home is teetering on the edge of radioactive oblivion A three-hundred thousand degree baptism by nuclear fire I'm not sorry; we had it coming A surge of white-hot atonement will be our wake-up call Hope for our future is now a stillborn dream The bombs begin to fall and I'm rushing to meet my love Please, remember me There is no more Feel the breeze, I feel alive Will you come away with me? You'll be my focus Could this be, could this be the highway? Before you save me Just wait your turn, look at me now Steady as we burn It was all for love Just move yourself, drop it back down And push it out in front Keep your heart out on the road Will you come to Tech Noir with me? You'll be my focus Could this be, could this be the highway? Before you save me Just wait your turn, look at me now Steady

  Song of the day;; → Frédéric Chopin - Prelude in D flat Major, Op. 28,15 'Raindrop' -- Puoli tuntia viisufinaaliin!

  Song of the day;; → In Flames - I Am Above Cut my throat and throw me to the wolves I'm just too tired, too tired to reload Don’t need your tears, I don't need your love Don't need your sympathy, I am above I’ll be the ghost that haunts you in your sleep You have anchored the hate in me Don't need your tears, I don't need your love Don't need your sympathy, I am above My God, I don't need you I won't wait for you to come around My God, as the pain inflates I know I bleed, I bleed for you We will never be, you aren't close to me This is the feeling that I have been waiting for Maybe it, just maybe it takes time to sink in Did you not hear me loud and clear? Don't need your tears, I don’t need your love Don’t need your sympathy, I am above My God, I don't need you I won’t wait for you to come around My God, as the pain inflates I know I bleed, I bleed for you We will never be, you aren't close to me This is the feeling that I have been wa

  Song of the day;; → Gemine - Tapestry -- Ihan kohta toka semifinaali!

  Song of the day;; → Chromatics - Cherry Cherry Tells me some things I don't want to know And I can't see A light at the end for us anymore But I can't keep crying All of the time No, I can't keep crying All of the time Cherry Can be very sweet when she needs a friend But it's only A mask that she wears so she can pretend And I can't keep running All of the time No, I can't keep running All of the time Cherry I hate that it's true but you make me blue I kept waiting For you to find what I see in you And I can't keep quiet All of the time No, I can't keep quiet All of the time -- Nyt on uusi tatuointi käsivarressa ja kyllähän se helvetin hyvältä näyttää! Tatuoinnit on tuonu mulle tosi paljon itsevarmuutta ja saaneet mut tuntemaan enemmän itseltäni, joka taas on helpottanu omassa ihossa olemista. Tosin mä ajattelen ihon ja kehon vähän eri asioina, eli tähän syömishäiriöön se ei vaikuta. Ja kyllähän sieltä se finaalipaikka irtosi, tosin en ymmärrä

  Song of the day;; → Gregory Alan Isakov - Big Black Car You were a phonograph, I was a kid I sat with an ear close, just listening Was there when the rain tapped her way down your face You were a miracle, I was just holding your space Hmm Well, time has a way of throwing it all in your face The past, she is haunted, the future is laced Heartbreak, you know, drives a big black car I swear I was in the back seat, just minding my own Hmm And through the glass, the corn crows come like rain They won't stay, they won't stay For too long now This could be all that we know Of love and all Well, you were a dancer and I was a rag The song in my head, well, was all that I had Hope was a letter I never could send Well, love was a country we couldn't defend Hmm, hmm Through the carnival we watch them go 'round and 'round All we knew of home was just a sunset and some clowns Oh Well, you were a magazine, I was a plain Jane Just walking the sidewalks and covered in rain Love to

  Song of the day;; → Underoath - Rapture Old familiar face, that bitter taste She's been hanging around too long That crooked tongue, so pale, so young Makes me warm Take me to the darkness, hang me out to dry Tangled in your legs, in the webs of your lies Lead me to the rapture, set my body free Higher than the flames, set ablaze inside of me, whoa There's no turning back, there's no coming down I'm forever lost, there's no coming down Oh, I'm skin and bones, pale as a ghost I know that I should be moving on But in your embrace, you know I'll never change Hopeless, I am chained down on my knees Take me to the darkness, hang me out to dry Tangled in your legs, in the webs of your lies Lead me to the rapture, set my body free Higher than the flames, set ablaze inside of me, whoa There's no turning back, there's no coming down I'm forever lost, there's no coming down When you call my name, I'm never far away When you call my name, I know t

  Song of the day;; → Wataru Sato - Fragment 1

  Song of the day;; → Brothertiger - High Tide You run through the forest away from it all You soak in the current with your back to the wall You swim through the tides when the summer call You follow the sounds of the waterfall I follow to the edge and I fall to the floor I swim in circles and I drift evermore It seems I can't remember who I was before I'm floating in an ocean that I can't explore But I can hang on to the surface In flowing, oscillated time My lungs are filling up with water But I won't sink to the void I climbed to the top of the fiery wall I swallowed my emotions and embraced the fall Exploring through the silence of the shadow's call I'm swimming through the current and I feel it all But I can hang on to the surface In flowing, oscillated time My lungs are filling up with water But I won't sink to the void -- Tänään oli ihan kiva päivä. Meikkasin, pelasin Simssiä (sisko antoi mulle sen vanhan koneen, jossa Sims on, lainaan kun ei se ite

  Song of the day;; → Peasant - The Flask I fell off the Eiffel tower I met you and felt your power Pouring from an open cask Here's the pills, I'll take the flask Are we sleeping, are we dancing? Are we leaving or romancing? I am not the one to ask I may be the very last Why are you so cold? Why are you so cold? I'm not it, I'm not gonna become it I'm not it Now you're laying on the carpet And you're leaving me to cope with Everything that's nothing to me Sometimes things just go right through me You kept saying you were leaving Now you got me I'm believing I was not the one to ask Damn the pills, and damn the flask Why are you so cold? I'm not it, I'm not gonna become it I'm not it I'm not it, I'm not gonna be it I'm not it -- Tänään oli fysioterapia ja kävin sen jälkeen apteekissa. Puhuttiin syömishäiriöstä ja edelleen siitä puhuminen on sen verran hankalaa, että oon jälkikäteen aivan helvetin väsynyt. Kai se vaan tekee sii

  Song of the day;; → ERRA - Breach It comes to fracture vested trust A love to shatter and turn to rust I drag my name through waves to wade black water Wallow and drown A new shade of gray disorients the portrait Repetitive contusions concuss the allure Cataract eyes and cloudy minds Interrupt a perfect design Crashing waves come to swallow us Wallow and drown in it Shadows wait to devour us It hurts to surrender Presentation's everything when you created the play The audience hypnotized by the imagery In this vicious cycle of disbelief That the visionless cannot conceive You can drag me down six feet deep So I can fight for a life that I threw away In this moment of resurgence Clear the dissonance and recover me Fears suppressed exploit our lust And our memories turn to rust And when we reach that point, barren of things to say There's nothing left to save, do not resuscitate Swallow your pride, hide what you feel inside There are some things that cannot be rectified Crashin

  Song of the day;; → Akira Kosemura - Red Diary -- Tänään oli aivan ihana lämmin aurinkokeli, joten kävin lenkillä. Teki hyvää. Perjantaina on fysioterapia ja apteekissakin pitäis käydä. Hyvää vappua ja toukokuuta muutenkin kaikille!