BLOOD RED ROSES.

Song of the day;; → Trivium - And Sadness Will Sear Shepherd is chased by the wolves Wolves who lived by intolerance and hate For what they couldn't understand Blinded and vicious are the beasts Beating and ripping at a beautiful human Who did nothing more than be himself Tied to the fence as they break you And sadness will sear Cold is the wind that will freeze you And sadness will sear Scarecrow is left crucified Left freezing, bleeding, tied and wondering why The wolves just couldn't understand It's the preachers, and the teachers Governments closed-minded creatures Try to teach us to hate that which is different Tied to the fence as they break you And sadness will sear Cold is the wind that will freeze you And sadness will sear It's 12.53 Am, October 12th When the scarecrow died A victim of society's cruelty It's 12.53 Am, October 12th When the shepherd died The candle&#

Song of the day;; → Hurts - Somebody to Die for I could drag you from the ocean I could pull you from the fire And when you're standing in the shadows I could open up the sky And I could give you my devotion Until the end of time And you will never be forgotten With me by your side And I don't need this life I just need I've got nothing left to live for Got no reason yet to die But when I'm standing in the gallows I'll be staring at the sky Because no matter where they take me Death I will survive And I will never be forgotten With you by my side 'Cause I don't need this life I just need Somebody to die for Somebody to cry for When I'm lonely When I'm standing in fire I will look him in the eye And I will let the devil know that I was brave enough to die And there's no hell that he can show me That's deeper than my pride 'Cause I will neve

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - Glasgow Mega-Snake -- Wow, it's a bit hard to believe that there's only a few days left of 2014. Well, we're going to buy some fireworks today and tomorrow and just generally take it easy (I am going to play loads of video games while I still can before school starts, mind you). I wish the rest of my Christmas presents would arrive before the holiday ends...

Song of the day;; → The Futureheads - Everything's Changing Today You say the same things every night To the same face every night You wear the same clothes every night To the same place every night We're looking forward, never looking back We're headed down a one way track One for sorrow, two for joy We're going out tonight We're going out tonight We're going out tonight Everything's changing today Getting further and further away State you're in, sink or swim Plans you've made, plans you've made We've never made a difference But tonight it will be different It opened up in front of us And it can change for every one of us I'll take a look into your private life I'll take a look and I will make it mine With the excitement of a child We're going out tonight We're going out tonight We're going out tonight Everything's changing today

Song of the day;; → The Fashion - Like Knives Go get your guns and your switchblade knives And cut it up And kill the ones who speak if they speak of us 'Cause they'll never really tame us Go get your guns and your switchblade knives And cut it up And kill the ones who speak if they speak of us 'Cause they'll never really tame us You're so outta control Said, you're so outta control, you gotta Be more in control, you gotta Be more in control You're so outta control Said, you're so outta control Said, be more in control Be more in control Go get your guns and your switchblade knives And cut it up And watch the flash of the blade as it grinds right through our bones Without a sound So cut it like a DJ Cut it while it's hot And cut it while you still remember How all the DJ's cut How all the DJ's cut Cut me a slice of your track now You're so outta control

Song of the day;; → The Cinematic Orchestra - Flite

Song of the day;; → Patrick Watson - The Great Escape Bad day, looking for a way home Looking for the great escape Gets in his car and drives away Far from all the things that we are Puts on a smile and breathes it in And breathes it out, he says Bye bye bye to all of the noise Oh, he says, bye bye bye to all of the noise Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo noo Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo Doo doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo Hey child, thing are looking down That's okay, you don't need to win anyways Don't be afraid, just eat up all the gray And it will fade all away Don't let yourself fall down Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo noo Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo Doo doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo Bad day, looking for the great escape He says, bad day, looking for the great escape On a bad day, looking for the great escape The great escape -

Kello on tällä hetkellä 1.16 yöllä, 25. joulukuuta. Joulupäivä. Istun koneeni edessä ja mietin kulunutta päivää. En ole aikoihin pystynyt hymyilemään näinkään aidosti, ja tiedän sen olevan joulun ja loman ansioita. Olen aina rakastanut joulua. Yhdessäoloa, tunnelmaa, hyvää ruokaa, lahjoja. Joulu on mulle vuoden onnellisinta aikaa. Niin onnellista kuin tällaisessa ''tilassa'' voi tuntea. Vuosi 2014 on kohta ohi, on hieman vaikea käsittää, kuinka jälleen yksi vuosi on mennyt niin nopeasti. Tänä vuonna on tapahtunut paljon. Aloitin lukion. Sain diagnoosit ja pillerit kouraan, olen masentunut ja ahdistunut. Opin itsestäni paljon uutta, tajusin myös vihaavani itseäni paljon enemmän kuin mitä kuvittelin. Huomasin esittäväni paljon enemmän kuin mitä tiedostin tai mitä oli tarkoitus. Tiedän pettäneeni vanhempani, eivät ne tällaista lasta halunneet. Haluaisin vain että ne olisivat musta ylpeitä. Tässä vuodessa on myös ollut hyvää. Täytin 16, ja vaikka en haluaisikaan ka

Hi everyone! So, now I am full of lovely Christmas food and I have gotten some pretty awesome presents (seriously, I nearly cried), and since I am an asshole, I want to share what I got with you. So buckle up and get cozy, we got a long ride ahead of us (um, no, I haven't played Downpour in a while... why?). Oh, and uh couple of my gifts are still on their way, I'll just fill you in when I get them. I will also put some regular Christmas photos in, so it's going to be a long, long post. Pajamas! I was in a desperate need of ones. I had been looking for this forever! A bakeware set. A mix of ingredients to make chocolate muffins. A cupcake maker, cool. Those little spoon-like things you use to measure things while baking. Sorry, it's wonky... But a beautiful picture indeed. MY FUCKING FAVOURITE CHOCOLATE. A cupcake and muffin cookbook. Money, damn, now I only need like a bit over 300 and then I can get a PS4.

Song of the day;; → August Burns Red - Carol of the Bells -- Merry Christmas everyone! I thought that a Christmas song would be nice now. Oh, and if you didn't know, here we celebrate Christmas mainly on Christmas eve so that's why it is, at least for myself, more important than the Christmas day itself. I'm still going to do a post of what I got, but that's going to be later. I already opened a gift my uncle left me, I got a cookbook focusing on chocolate! Thanks uncle! Anywho.... Now I think I will go for a nice walk, even though there's -15 degrees Celsius (really fucking cold).

Song of the day;; → Archive - Lights It hurts to feel It hurts to hear It hurts to face it It hurts to hide It hurts to touch It hurts to wake up It hurts to remember It hurts to hold on Turn my head The hurt's relentless The hurt of emptiness The hurt of wanting The hurt of going on The hurt of missing The hurt is killing me Turn my head Off Forever Turn it off Forever Off forever Turn it off forever Ever blind -- Christmas eve. Tomorrow. Wow, am I excited. I am, really. Still, this song is exactly how I feel at the moment.

Song of the day;; → ¡Forward Russia! - Spring Is a Condition This is the end of your life We all live in hostels that mirror our fear Each face a portal to nothing or everything Depending on resting on circumstance The changes of knowing Just what standard of silence you can expect to receive No discontentment will be voiced or rendered When we all bleed in the night, bleed in the night Bleed in the night by ourselves Spring is such a painfully deceptive time Everyone's got some problems to hide in the lives they lead Spring is a Christmas time away It seems we're all got hands to beg, we are spinning lies April is dripping a spawn soaked in mucous As May accelerates here Yes, April is dripping and standards are slipping In the land of the devoted This is a standard of silence that you can expect to receive True discontentment will blur with our leisure When we all bleed in the night, bleed in the night Bleed

Song of the day;; → The Cinematic Orchestra - That Home Where the doors are moaning all day long Where the stairs are leaning dusk 'till dawn Where the windows are breathing in the light Where the rooms are a collection of our lives This is a place where I don't feel alone This is a place that I call my home -- 3 goddamn nights until Christmas!!

Hyvää iltaa (yötä?) ihmiset, kello on 1.40 aamulla ja 21. joulukuuta. Koska ollaan niin lähellä jotain niin mahtavaa, enkä yleensä suomeksi kirjottele, ajattelin nyt ryhdistäytyä ja selittää jotain ennen kuin menen nukkumaan, tai ainakin yrittämään... Onhan mulla toki unilääkkeetkin mutta jotenkin vaan niitä ei tule otettua... Ehkä tykkään siitä että mua väsyttää? Ensin vähän jotain arkiasioita. Mulla loppui tänään (eilen, jos pilkkua aletaan nussimaan) koulu, ja nyt ois sit pari viikkoa joululomaa, mikä on aivan mahtava asia, sillä mä en jaksa keskittyä koska mua väsyttää aivan saatanasti eikä mun mieliala oo oikeestaan kohonnut yhtään tässä viimesen puolen vuoden aikana, päinvastoin. Kuitenkin, mulla oli joulujuhla ja se oli ihan okei, vaikka totta kai, sosiaalinen tilanne = vitunmoinen ahdistus. En nukkunu edeltävänä yönä kovin hyvin. Kävin porukoiden kanssa Varkaudessa, huomenna vielä Kuopioon tekeen vimosetkin jouluostokset ja sitten siivoomaan ja leipomaan. Porukat kävi kans

Song of the day;; → The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build a Home There is a house built out of stone Wooden floors, walls and window sills Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust This is a place where I don't feel alone This is a place where I feel at home And I built a home For you For me Until it disappeared From me From you And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust Out in the garden where we planted the seeds There is a tree as old as me Branches were sewn by the colour of green Ground had arose and passed its knees By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top I climbed the tree to see the world When the gusts came around to blow me down Held on as tightly as you held onto me Held on as tightly as you held onto me And I built a home For you  For me Until it disappeared From me From you And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust -- 4 nights until Christmas eve!

Song of the day;; → The Cinematic Orchestra - Breathe Oh that song you're singing Singing into me Over everything I used to be Oh that song that you're singing Singing into me Slow and sweet It carries me Carries me Carries me Out to sea And swallows me Into the deep And comfort me And comfort me Oh that weight Is lifting Lifting off me It carries me Out to sea And swallows me And swallows me And swallows me Yeah Into the deep And comfort me And comfort me In Into the deep And comfort me And comfort me And comfort me Breathe unto me Breathe unto me Breathe it into me Breath out into me Breathe into me Oh breathe out Through me Why don't you breathe into me -- 5 nights until Christmas eve!! I had my last proper day of school today, fuck yeah... Tomorrow I have the Christmas party/formal whatever, but like I said earlier, it's not going to last for mo

Song of the day;; → Kaiser Chiefs - Never Miss a Beat What did you learn today? I learnt nothin' What did you do today? I did nothin' What did you learn at school? I didn't go Why didn't you go to school? I don't know It's cool to know nothing It's cool to know nothing Television's on the blink There's nothing on it I really want a really big coat With words on it What do you want for tea? I want crisps Why didn't you join the team? I just didn't It's cool to know nothing It's cool to know nothing Take a look, take a look Take a look at the kids on the street No, they never miss a beat No, they never miss a beat Never miss a beat Never miss a beat, beat, beat, beat Take a look at the kids on the street No, they never miss a beat No, they never miss a beat Never miss a beat Never miss a Never miss a beat Never miss a beat Here comes the

Song of the day;; → Mogwai - Local Authority -- Only a week's worth of sleep (7 nights, anyone?) until Christmas eve! I am so excited and I hope you guys are too. I've got 2 days of school left, plus the Christmas party/formal but that lasts for an hour max so it's not really that big of a deal.

Song of the day;; → Falling in Reverse - God, If You Are Above... God cannot save my soul It's straight to hell for me, I know And when I get there At least I've found a place to call my home They say the truth will set you free Then why am I still here? I've got no truth left, don't you see? Am I making myself clear? Resolution, no solution God, if you are above If fear that one day the whole world will disappear And if it does, well, I have lived my life the way that I could The way that I should The spirit's stuck between two roads And waiting there on me The first path is the way to go The life I wanna lead The second road's my crazy path The darkest ones I try to mask The drugs, the guns, the lies, the lows The dreams I had, I'm waking up Resolution, no solution God, if you are above If fear that one day the whole world will disappear And if it does, well, I have lived my lif

Song of the day;; → Kings of Leon - Knocked Up I don't care what nobody says We're gonna have a baby Taking off in a coupe de Ville She's bubbled up on AV She don't care what her mama said, no She's gonna have my baby I'm taking all I have to take This taking's gonna shake me People call us renegades 'Cause we like living crazy We like taking on this town 'Cause people's getting lazy I don't care what nobody says, no I'm gonna be her lover Always mad and usually drunk But I love her like no other And the doc seems to say he don't know Where we're gonna go I'm a ghost and I don't think I quite know Where we're gonna go Where we're gonna go People call us renegades  'Cause we like living crazy We like taking on this town 'Cause people's getting lazy I don't care what nobody says, no I'm gonna be her lover Always

Song of the day;; → Hard-FI - Unnecessary Trouble You take it easy You have your reasons Sometimes it eats you inside It feels like treason You give it right back Then they just can't take it You mind your business What's yours, they have to wreck it The hypocrites don't, don't like the bed they lay in Come out fighting, you know you're always going to win There's just no point in cause unnecessary trouble Just make sure you cause trouble when it's necessary There's just no point in cause unnecessary trouble Just make sure you cause trouble when it's necessary You make excuses For their ruthlessness You can't imagine yourself being so careless There is no reason why they want to hurt you Maybe it's envy, they know they just can't touch you The hypocrites don't, don't like the bed they lay in So come out fighting, you know you're always going to win The